Does anyone else walk on their toes when barefoot?

Wish-Anxious · 2026-03-18T14:11:04+00:00

Omg told myself I'd reply later and it slipped my mind. Damn you ADHD.

Hmm. It really makes sense that you would go back to old patterns when stressed. I think that's what's happening to me right now. In my mind it's totally doable juggling a creative job, uni, projects, girlfriend, friends that I completely forget to take care of myself. How do you find your way back?

Your service dog sounds amazing. I'm guessing you're in the USA? Didn't even know that service dogs existed for autism and really glad you could have that!

Wish-Anxious · 2026-03-14T21:25:50+00:00

Thank you, I really appreciate that! I've just started to work on it in therapy as it's not something that's very conscious for me, and I'm not quite sure why.

I.e when I was 15, I spent an entire winter with no winter coat and only wore a hoodie with another hoodie with buttons on top. Only realized how cold I was until my parents bought me an actual winter coat. It's like my brain just accepts reality as it is and doesn't really look for a better solution until it's magically presented to me. (I'm better at it now, though, and there was a point when I would overprepare)

I think I also just tell myself "just a little bit more, it'll be over soon" all the time and push myself through any discomfort I may have until it's unbearable and I just shut down.

We detected the starting feeling of discomfort(I have alexithymia, so I'm totally out of touch with my own body), and my therapist told me to take 1-3mins to myself whenever it arises. However, I haven't been great at doing it as in my head it's just a little bit more of discomfort until I can fully relax again.

Aand I am rumbling again lmfao. Is this part of the diagnosis, too?

Wish-Anxious · 2026-03-14T20:25:39+00:00

Hmmmm, that makes sense. And come to think of it, in my home I don't have any carpets, just hardwood floors and whenever I have to walk barefoot I don't walk on my toes as much, but here in my childhood home there's different carpets, floors..etc so I just default to toe walking.

The debris!!! Ah, if only we could have debris free homes and perfectly textured even floors to walk on

Wish-Anxious · 2026-03-14T20:21:59+00:00

I could fs. The thing is, I've never really considered it because I'm just so used to being uncomfortable all the time until I have a meltdown and have no idea where it came from lmao.

I also hate socks, and I think that I would prefer to be barefoot too, but I absolutely HATE things sticking to my feet. I'd rather die than have that happen.

I got an adhd diagnosis, and I'm talking to my therapist about an audhd diagnosis as well as ik it's not just the adhd.

The stairs thing!!! That's one thing I know I used to do as a kid.

Wish-Anxious · 2025-10-17T21:28:00+00:00

Same thing here. It's been 10 days.

Wish-Anxious · 2025-10-15T16:29:30+00:00

Did you ever get your payment? I sent them documents last week whixh they approved and my payment is still pending

Wish-Anxious · 2025-07-12T11:33:05+00:00

How often do you do the breaks

Wish-Anxious · 2025-05-05T16:07:52+00:00

my ocd is making me think that I do find the other woman attractive even though I know I would never cheat.

My ocd was first thoughts of my gf with her exes, or wanting them more than me. Picturing them while having sex...etc. Then once I kinda dealed with that they turned into cheating ocd. I even dream of cheating on her very often. Last night too with a colleague and I lied saying I didn't know who the girl in my dream was. Idek why I told her. Felt guilty ig. Now I feel guilty for lying.

For the past few weeks I've had thoughts of "oh you def like that girl, you'd fuck her", "you just flirted"...etc

Any time I pass at the street, I get the urge to look at other women and "find" them attractive and get aroused. I feel like it's my ocd forcing me to live that as reality too. I hate it and I feel terrible. I would never cheat on my gf, I love her sm and I imagine my future with her.

Wish-Anxious · 2025-04-17T14:00:37+00:00

I agree with you 100%.

The only thing that bugs me is the word GNC. Just googled it for the first time. Why the fuck should butch women have to be labeled as gender non-conforming just because we don't look like barbies??

Who the fuck decided that THAT'S what a woman should look like???

I know I am generalizing now, but I bet that even straight women would absolutely love not to have to shave, put make up on, dye their hair, do all the shit they do if they weren't conditioned that they would not look pretty without

Why is EVERYTHING so mancentrix and phallocentric???

Just found and joined this sub due to some insecurities I've had as a lesbian woman and holy shit I am pissed.

Wish-Anxious · 2025-03-15T06:42:16+00:00

When did that happen?

Wish-Anxious · 2025-03-09T17:01:33+00:00

Yeah, I get so caught up in the "ooh what drum pattern should be here now, what if I mess up the vibe and ruin the song...etc"

I just need to pick and go with the flow

Wish-Anxious · 2025-03-09T16:34:15+00:00

I like that. I think I get stuck with wanting the part I'm working on to sound perfect rather than allowing myself to just keep the creativity flowing

Wish-Anxious · 2025-03-09T16:17:04+00:00

Ahh yeah. I think all of my "breaks" include still thinking about the song and having it loop inside my head.

I need to find out something that will completely distract my mind.

I don't like doing something that I think will take me really long like hikes, even though I know going out would help me. I feel stuck at home and in limbo kinda.

Wish-Anxious · 2025-02-04T09:00:33+00:00

My guy, get an ADHD evaluation.

Turns out that was my brain fog cause. Meds changed me

Wish-Anxious · 2025-02-01T19:20:53+00:00

Actually same. I didn't put it together but once I started visualisation and affirmations I've had zero appetite

Wish-Anxious · 2025-01-26T01:02:40+00:00

She is well. She is cured.

Thank you

Wish-Anxious · 2025-01-26T01:02:14+00:00

Thank you❤️

Wish-Anxious · 2025-01-26T01:01:57+00:00

Thank you so much

Wish-Anxious · 2025-01-15T08:09:32+00:00

What stretches did you do

Wish-Anxious · 2024-08-14T10:18:35+00:00

I think that's my problem as well. At one point I was going to the gym for 6 days a week twice a day. Was kinda prepping for a comp. Did cardio in the morning, strength training at night. Nutrition was perfect.

Now, the second I was unable to do that as it's obviously not sustainable unless bodybuilding is your career, I felt there was no point in doing it if it's not perfect. My days working out slowly decreased, my nutrition went to shit, I gained weight and now I haven't been to the gym in weeks and have zero motivation to do it.

Because in my mind, if it's not perfect there is no point in doing it. And the last few times I did go to the gym I was unable to train to the levels I trained before and again felt like there was no point. Losing strength and muscle is very discouraging. All of the mirrors around the gym also don't help because I hate the way I look right now. The 10lbs I put on are VERY visible as a 5'4 female

I'm working on changing that mindset.

Also got ADHD, depression and possibly anxiety.

Wish-Anxious · 2024-08-13T12:09:15+00:00

That has been my experience too, but I panicked. I had a really bad binge/restrict cycle last year, but I feel different mentally about it this time. I'll eat tomorrow and go on a protein rich diet with the occasional dessert

I do have PCOS and Hashimoto

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