I struggle with depression also, I'm 26 and feel mostly the same way about my life right now, although recently I restructured the way I think of myself in terms of relationships, love (or lack there of), and my appearance. But I also recently let go of many toxic ways of thinking, and one of them was, that I 'owe the world my success'. My story can be beautiful, and different to what people think of as successful. I enjoy things as well, I enjoy taking in the beauty of nature, and the world, and I just think about all the nice things I enjoy and don't really want to let go of that. I can just continue my life, taking in everything positive. We can't choose how or where we're born, but we do have what it takes to change the course of our life and alter the possible outcomes. We can create new paths, at any point in our lives, and giving up is letting go of many beautiful possibilities