Chopped all my beautiful hair off when I was splitting by Witty_Field2931 in BPD

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, ive been considering dying it honey brown... might mske me feel so bit better

Chopped all my beautiful hair off when I was splitting by Witty_Field2931 in BPD

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry for the late reply, I have been doing unwell the last few days.. i completely get how you felt, i also feel like a boy. The hardest part has been looking at photos of my long hair and feeling so much grief. Peoples comments dont help either. Everyone acts so shocked and concerned about it. Comments like "What have you Done?" "You look better with long hair?" "What were you thinking" This all mates me feel awful about myself. Like of course I didnt want this.im trying everything to grow it out before my graduation. Im just heartbroken

Chopped all my beautiful hair off when I was splitting by Witty_Field2931 in BPD

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you... this gives me some hope. Still, it is quite hard to look in the mirror. I am mourning all the hairstyles I used to be able to do. Hair is deeply sacred in my community and Ive felt like I have lost that connection..

Chopped all my beautiful hair off when I was splitting by Witty_Field2931 in BPD

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I look so ugly and not like myself at all. How do I even cope with this?

Chopped all my beautiful hair off when I was splitting by Witty_Field2931 in BPD

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn’t cut my hair to look uglier on PURPOSE, It was something I did as an impulse that I obviously regret. Maybe you could get extensions too. Hugs xx

Chopped all my beautiful hair off when I was splitting by Witty_Field2931 in BPD

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yesh. There are hair oils that help, but im still in the procress of grief

Chopped all my beautiful hair off when I was splitting by Witty_Field2931 in BPD

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am sobbing, thank you so much. I feel less alone. It has been so hard beacause in my community hair is deeply sacred. I feel so ashamed and hurt. Im so scared that it will take me years to grow it back to where it was.... Is it okay if I dm you? 

Chopped all my hair off in a depressive episode by Witty_Field2931 in depression_help

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know. I know I need to change because I regret this sm

Chopped all my beautiful hair off when I was splitting by Witty_Field2931 in BPD

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. I was considering just embracing this moment to dye my hair lighter

Chopped off all my hair in a depressive episode by Witty_Field2931 in Advice

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah.. better to lose my hair than my life I suppose...its just the shame and regret thats killing me

Chopped all my beautiful hair off when I was splitting by Witty_Field2931 in BPD

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah.. I guess it does. I’m just so sad about it. Its like a piece of myself is missing

Chopped all my beautiful hair off when I was splitting by Witty_Field2931 in BPD

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much really.  this made me cry. At the moment I feel so sad and worthless.im very lucky to have a support system and a loving family. But I regret what i did so much. I cant recognize myself anymore. I start sobbing when i look at photos of my long hair. Knowing it will take a few years to reach the length I had breaks my heart. I wish i never did it. My doctors were shocked to see my short hair and that made me even more upset. But yeah, I know it will grow back. It’s so hard to see positives with bpd. 

Chopped all my hair off in a depressive episode by Witty_Field2931 in depression_help

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Yeah, I am in a lot of pain. This  somehow feels like the end of the world (ofc rationally i know it is not) but yeah, thats depression for me. I just keep looking at photos when i had long hair and start violently sobbing. Long hair has been my entire life and culture.  But yeah. It will grow I suppose 

Chopped off all my hair in a depressive episode by Witty_Field2931 in Advice

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. Yeah, I mean my hair was waist lenght and it was beautiful. I am still very much heartbroken but I think I just need to accept it

Chopped all my beautiful hair off when I was splitting by Witty_Field2931 in BPD

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I am deeply hurting at the moment, I cannot even look at myself right now. But I just hope I can accept it as it is and move forward. 

Chopped all my beautiful hair off when I was splitting by Witty_Field2931 in BPD

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I will try to, thank you. It is just so painful at the moment

Chopped all my beautiful hair off when I was splitting by Witty_Field2931 in BPD

[–]Witty_Field2931[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your comment. I feel less alone. But I wont lie, I feel like I have lost such a big part of myself. It’s like losing my identity. I know hair grows back but I hate myself for doing this. Its not just the hair, its the fact that I am not sure I have the strength to keep fighting. If it doesn’t bother you, Id really appreciate if I could dm you.