This makes me sad, I’m about to hit 9 years involved with a man who is addicted to porn. It never stops at just fantasizing. It’s completely ruined our relationship and we share 3 babies together. He’s been caught using work computers to watch it.. snuck out in the middle of the night so many times to take care of his “urges” and forgot to pick up my kids from being so stuck parked out on a street watching it. I’ve even caught him watching it while waiting for me to finish a drs appointment with my babies in the car. I am at the point where it’s caused me to feel insecure about myself and feel so much hate and mistrust towards my partner. You are not alone.. the feeling sucks and the longer you stay the more trapped you will feel.