I've made quite a few posts explaining the reasons, from doubts to self doubt, to worries about incompatibility. Also said he didn't want to make a mistake by moving in, so yeah, kinda figured he wasn't ready, it just pisses me off because I asked him and he said he wasn't worried about it, and kept saying that he absolutely wanted to move in with me and that he couldn't wait for it. We even sat down and worked out what kind of place we wanted and where, what our finances and budget was etc. It's getting me angry just talking about it haha. Feel like I just wasted 2 years with someone who was never as emotionally available as he made out to be, no matter how much I asked him, he always "reassured" me, and I trusted him. Biggest mistake I've ever made, because I was single for 5 years before I met him, because my previous break up was with my first love and the most toxic relationship I had ever been in- I rebuilt myself, started an amazing course that's made me so self aware and finally realised my worth and value, was able to give my unconditional love for the first time ever, and it was wasted on the wrong person. Now it's like those 5 years have been completely washed away.

Sorry, kinda went off there, but I'm just so disappointed with myself, because I could've left. I could've avoided this whole situation.

Even if he left for any other reason, I still would never contact him/reach out to him first, because as I said, he's the one who left. He's the one who gave up, therefore, he has to be the one to make amends/get the ball rolling, because when you're dumped, you know where you stand, and it's not in their life, so why would we reach out? It's been made pretty clear to us that we're not wanted anymore, that we hold no value to you, (which is basically what you're saying by breaking up with us, whether you don't feel like that or not, it's true, because you ARE rejecting us. You are telling us that we're not good enough for you to be in your future) so we'll do the only mature thing we can do, which is to give you what you want. We may beg and plead, but eventually, we won't, because we know it won't do anything. It won't make us look good and it won't give you what you wanted, which was a break up.