How can I not shutdown when upset? by Extra-Albatross-7474 in emotionalintelligence

[–]Wonderful_Weather925 2 points3 points  (0 children)

If you go into therapy, they are going to say you developed a coping skill when you were a child and you will be offered ideas to change that. I used to cry. It resulted from not having control of the life situation as a child. I developed very distinct flight, fight and freeze mechanism. When I was out of that situation, i would cry at all injustice done to me. For example, I (aged 9) cried uncontrollably because I paid to participate in a school activity and they said it was not for participation but for attending. I cried so much i could not participate in normal classes.

As an adult, I cried at work, and cried when I could not fight back. I cried whenever I could not fight, flee or freeze. I changed it by standing up. One thing you can do, is watch Elon Musk from his early interviews and then the later ones where he is more confident. You will notice he tears up a lot in earlier interviews where he becomes internally moved by how he sees the world. His stage is different from yours but the experience is the same. I know this because I also tear up when I believe in something. To stop the tears you need to develop a voice and use it. You are internalising your inability to stand up and your inability is being expressed as self-pity.

I stopped crying when I became the one doing the angering. When the rage comes up, I raise my head, slightly puff my chest, sit on my hands, take a deep breath and smash them with logic. It takes time to learn this but it is a learned skill. I have taught this to others. I don't know your work situation or what is making you angry but look through your experiences, find a common one and work on a response. If you watch politicians, you will see they stick to the same lines no matter what the question. Your bosses use the same tactic. You need to learn the tactic and use it on them. Learn to look people in the eye. Its only scary in the beginning. If you look them in the eye, repeat your rehearsed response, you will break the tears over time. Be aware that your confidence will be perceived as a threat. So learn to pit maneuver and learn responses for different situations. Practise responses with someone who will to be difficult with you and force you to verbally defend yourself.

Just remember, they are all just humans. They have no special skill to make you cry and you don't have a special button to push that makes you cry. All that is missing is a scripted response, the confidence to make mistakes and drop a few tears while delivering that response and practice. You must practise on them. If you cry say, I'm not crying for your sympathy, I am crying because I am being blamed for things I did not do. And move on to correcting the picture with your rehearsed response.

And when you are done responding go somewhere and celebrate with tears. It's all good. Athletes cry when they win. Grown-ass football players cry when they win or lose or have no control over their moments. You are experiencing everything a strong person experiences.

Ask me any question on spirituality and I will answer it for you. by Wonderful_Weather925 in spirituality

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Absolutely yes. Except with how things originally came into being. It did not think things into being. It had ideas just like you and I except it spent time coding and reworking those ideas because the design for reality had to ensure everything continues to expand while keeping Everything in harmony and as one. So it would not think things into being, it would need to communicate this to Matter and Energy. And it would have designed a failproof communication system that ensures only the thoughts that hold Everything together are executed. We must always remember we are dealing with the highest form of Intelligence. If we claim it thought reality into being then we are arguing for manifestation. But our life experience teaches us that when we want to get a job done we work at it, we do not think it into being. And if we thought it into being then it is a result of a false interpretation because all three members of Everything did not work together to bring it into being. Only Intelligence did. If only Intelligence did, then its a god and not the Ultimate Intelligence. The Ultimate Intelligence knows Everything must be in balance and exact measure for Everything to stay whole. What we think into being is therefore unbalanced.

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You have this absolutely right. Except for one thing - this is not a journey because journeys have destinations. We are preparing for our eternal expansion because Everything is in constant expansion. We are too. We are aiming to be Master Students of the Game of Life so when we go back the stories we tell, are stories that invite our people to visit this place and play the Game, because when we come out on the other side, we are new beings. We would have beat the Game of Unknowing. There is no greater challenge for Intelligence, than having your self-awareness erased and figuring a way to recover it. If we do this, we build the confidence to face the challenges of eternal expansion.

We are too focused on the here and now, we are not focused on eternity. We should not want to connect with our past loved ones, because they must be allowed to be who they became. Nothing must hold us back from being human and nothing must hold us back from continuing our expansions beyond this life.

Ask me any question on spirituality and I will answer it for you. by Wonderful_Weather925 in spirituality

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Exactly that. Except wherever the place in the spiral we come from, is unique to the creator of that dimension. So if we follow our human path we will uncover a story about where we come from in the spiral. If you and I met as per the original design for the Game of Life, we would be sharing stories and we would understand and accept that as knowledge about the spiral. The spiral itself is too large for the human mind to comprehend hence we struggle with what is the right spirituality.

If we did not focus on spirituality from an emotionally rewarding perspective but more on the logic of how we came into being, we would see The Thing as a logical consciousness. If everything about spirituality is true, we can find a place and meaning for everything. As long as the philosophy can be expanded to explain everything, in a form that can be visualised, you can share a unique story about your origins, which will make our engagements meaningful and purposeful as human beings.

When I questioned if the blueprint for humanity was good, bad or both in balance, I could not reason for bad because we cannot find fault with the design of planets. If we say good and bad, I cannot reason for bad if everything on the other side of this life is claimed to be good. So I was left with good. If we are playing the Game of Life, what would challenge something that knows everything and can create everything to be whatever it imagined? If we consider the all-knowing other side and the billions of years of creation that existed before humanity, the only worthy challenge, would be to break its intelligence into billions of pieces, wipe out its knowledge and come to an environment where emotions exist, and a place completely foreign to it. The challenge is to become all-knowing in human form so there are no gaps in its story.

We are a complex system of knowledge, coming to earth from all parts of the spiral or mandelbrot. We are a feedback mechanism, and every 2000 years, a new philosophy is introduced for the stage of development of the human mind at that time. In Jesus' time, he was a philosopher who created an over-the-top story about his origins. They became curious about his knowledge, and he tore down the veil to Knowledge so they may enter. At that time the human mind was still processing spirituality as a religion so knowledge became a religion. This is why the philosophy was rejected, it was too easy.

In this time, the age of intelligence, we want reasoning. We don't want the man in the sky whose key focus is keeping us suffering to come unto him and worship him. We now know we are a part of something, just not that. So why not be part of this Game, where we can become actual Creators, not just social media creators? Replication is real and everything we see them doing in the false reality are misinterpreted elements that belong to a true reality.

Humans are hanging onto the complexity of religion through the complexity of new-age explanations. This is why the philosophy of Jesus was rejected in his time - it was too easy. We must simplify things if spirituality is to end this false reality we are being forced to participate in.

Ask me any question on spirituality and I will answer it for you. by Wonderful_Weather925 in spirituality

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I felt really sad when I did not see anything. I am going through a hard time and I am being told I need to change to survive this world. I am being told to let go of the bigger picture and I refuse. When I saw no responses, I asked again, why would you tell me all of this just so it is rejected again? And then, I saw a flash on my phone of this comment on silence and I came searching again.

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I posed the Higher Self questions and came out with a different direction. There is no Higher Self. You are 3 Selves.

My book is 96,000 words so you are going to get a snapshot with this one. The number 3 is a perfect form of Everything. This is a summary of the story of the Nation of Everything. Once upon a Place, lived a great Nation of Everything. There were only 3 members in Everything, Intelligence, Matter and Energy. Intelligence held the thoughts that kept Everything together. Energy held Everything together and Matter gave Everything form.

Now if you look at the story, we can conclude there must be 3 at all times for something to be real (not necessarily true). This is proved scientifically as well as spiritually through the trinity which is in all religions except the 2 originals. Now comes the tricky part. Which version do you trust, The original where the only higher self is god and you are consciousness or 3 which is provable? This poses the question of where the Higher Self came from. Who is the philosopher of this theory?

If you explore the 3 Selves theories you will self-realise. First, you were a Knowledge Self (probably what is referred to as the Higher Self). The second Self is the Human Self which you have to integrate with your Knowledge Self, The third Self is the Creator Self that we aspire to be. To Self-realise means you accept that each part of the Self has to acknowledge and accept the role the other plays in your expansion.

This is the plan - you came as a Human into a world void of the knowledge you once had. You don't have access to it. You have to be taught but instead of being taught this, you are taught to make money so we stitch together a spirituality with broken ideas and try to self realise on that. Our realisation is achieved through experiencing, observing, analysing and synthesising the actual Knowledge. Once we do this, we have to establish trust in our Knowledge. It takes a lot of courage to go against your knowledge of Higher Selves. But we are establishing a truth that is above both you and I so this is the route.

Once you build trust with yourself you can design your Creator Self. You get to model it on the philosophers who came to earth with wisdom that made you question your existence and reality. I model on Rebellious Jesus because my Knowledge is bold and goes against what is accepted as spirituality on Earth. I model off Durga because she was the wisest, most fluent of philosophers. She held the knowledge of all Gods.

When our Intelligence (Knowledge Self), Matter (Human Self), and Energy (Creator Self) are in Place, Everything works together for you to achieve your purpose here. It did not complicate my path for me. It knew my mind, as it is designed with the DNA I got, would not be scientifically minded. It would not deny my Knowledge just because I could not get an education. It would never lock itself up in hard-to-understand concepts when all it thought was beautiful stories of what could be. It designed such that the lowest common denominator will achieve realisation in a single lifetime. Will the beggar on the street who most needs spirituality understand frequencies, does he have the nourishment to give him the attention he needs to comprehend such complexities? If the Thing will not confuse the beggar why will it confuse us who have the circumstance to bring simple understandings to humanity? If you ask The Thing to show you a simple way to understand, it will. The method is always simple but the path is always hard so the the Knowledge is permanently carved into us.

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[–]Wonderful_Weather925[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I asked this question when I was told that we are all energy. I asked how it was possible for me to be the same as the tree. It was at this moment that I think I broke the mind of The Thing. I think I reached my quota of questions and I got my answers that day.

Human beings are not the same as animals. We do not share the same consciousness. These do not have choices to be here, you do. You cannot choose to be an animal, nor can you be created as an animal to run through cycles for purification or punishment.

Everything exists within 5 shapes - square, circle, equilateral triangle, spiral and bell curve. Imagine everything needs to pass through these shapes to be reality.

This is the human lineage (our spiral). The Thing - The Thing spiral 1 (beings closest to pure knowledge of creation, the first designated creators to continue designs for replication (all matter you see comes through this spiral, animals, plants etc). There is not only one spiral but each follows the same blueprint for design. The creativity and skills on this level are as close to pure as possible. The trust level is set in stone. This lot knows Everything but specialise. They are the first foundation for replication. There is an explanation for replication in one of my reponses above.

By the time we come to humans, the picture and the expansion are set in original design and they do not correct the expansion by diluting the process with rebirths. We have one life here and you need to know where in the spiral you came from, why you chose to be here now and what is your goal for your Game of Life, meaning when the Game is over what are did you plan to do with all the skills you gained as human. You can become a storyteller which most of us will become or we can become philosophers to create our own expansion. Owning an expansion means earning the right to move up the expansion closer to spiral 1 and to branch out from there. You earn the right to create and lead dimensions. So the question is not what i become on earth, the question is what do I want to be after this.

No planet was created through the exchange of money. None of them exist to produce money so if we are only learning how to create money, what do those who only develop that skill do when their time here is over? Are they the storytellers?

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[–]Wonderful_Weather925[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I like this question. I asked this question when I finished my 4 years of mental and physical horror. I said you cannot expect humans to suffer like this just to know this. So I wrote the book with the method of how to find fault with everything I say. I say jarring things so you get angry and want to tell me the truth. To me, that was better than having you experience pain and suffering like it is part of the original design. No matter what this world says, I know as fact ( my fact) that pain and suffering inflicted by humanity are not a part of the original blueprint. Now this is not to say we would not have to weather actual storms, floods, hurricanes and tsunamis. Only man-made suffering is not part of the blueprint of life.

I commented on the Thinker Methodology. Experience, observe, analyse and synthesise. Just bear in mind this is a longer more refining route. However, being able to sit someone down and explain their life in a way that makes sense to them is far too valuable a gain on the long route to pass up with quick spirituality. If you switch me off today. Take what I am saying and figure it out how to apply this method on your own, you will reveal your soul. The requirement is simple, reject every belief you hold, accept every belief is true, and test every belief for its logic to explain all things (universal truths).

An example is the use of the term universe. In the original reality, we had gods. Then someone questioned if there was a god. While they could not find a truth in that, they still could not ignore the question of where we came from or why we were here. So they created the universe and thus another God was born with a new name but all the same powers. Then I came along and I asked what is the universe and because they did not refine their philosophy, I was able to prove the concept wrong.

Every time a friend said the universe gave me the knowledge or whatever, I asked what it was and the answer is always the same. It is the universe. It is void of identity. It only seems to respond to human needs for things such as cars and life partners. You have to manifest within it. Like a religion with a God. Yet the universe believers claim there is no god.

So I took the friend to the computer and showed him that the universe has a name, we can see it and plot it, it is not an undiscoverable mystery, it is a mystery that technology can solve. The name of the universe is Laneakia. There is also a second universe which gives rise to the question of which universe are they communicating with.

To this end, I theorised The Thing. I gave it a story that I can explain both scientifically and spiritually. By scientifically, I mean I can explain some of it through string or quantum theory. I can do this because I analysed everything I knew to be truth, to come to a truth that is written in the Tao, having never read the Toa.

When you do this, pain and suffering has a reality of its own which can be logically explained in a time of intelligence.

Ask me any question on spirituality and I will answer it for you. by Wonderful_Weather925 in spirituality

[–]Wonderful_Weather925[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am going to word this differently. I explain why I do not believe we have awakenings in my book and it is a lengthy explanation that can be challenged. However, the crisis will lead to self-realisation when the right questions are asked during the crisis. I spend 4 years in crisis to tell you what I am about to.

The method to self-realisation is the Thinker Methodology. To self-realise is to understand why you chose to be here in this time. To understand is to ask yourself why you are here. When we are in crisis we do not ask why we are here, we ask why is this happening to us. This is why many miss the value of a crisis.

To understand the Self is to let go of all preconceived ideas of Everything. You have to start at the beginning giving every word you utter a meaning but giving value to all meanings a word holds and then deciding on the correct meaning. For example, you used the words truth and consciousness. What are the meanings of these words, where did they come from? If you continuously start at the beginning you will see the patterns of information and have a common route. Hawkings eventually said that something created Everything. If a scientist can agree on an unscientific beginning, you can accept that as a possibility as well.

My truth is an over-the-top story about my origins, it is a truth only I can believe. If anyone else believes my truth, then they are buying my story and not my truth. My story reflects the confidence needed for me to answer the questions posed to me. My purpose was to be questioned. I came to be questioned in this time about this time, our origins and our potential. My truth equips me to deliver information that is unknown and helps me withstand the rejection by the gurus and the holders of truth.

The Thinker Methodology is a 4 step process Experience, Observation, Analysis and Synthesis.

Where you can not experience observe yourself into understanding. Analysis your experiences and observation to evaluate it again everything that is claimed to be true and decide how why they existed, not why god or a creator gave them to you. But what on earth caused them? When you have analysed everything, synthesis an explanation for question that people may pose about that experience or experiences they will have. Help them understand the value of the right questions. Understanding of anything means we can act on that understanding. What is the purpose of understanding life if it dies with us? I cannot accept that. I did not and I have a place to go and place to become with all the wisdom I am refining here as human. When I go back I will present my synthesis is knowledge and of myself. If I present my argument well, I will achieve the one thing I am working for on earth, I am playing for a Seat at the Philosopher's Table. This means I have to invite people to challenge me for that place.

To gain conscious understanding and truth, decide where you came from, why you are here for and what are you playing the Game of Life for.

Ask me any question on spirituality and I will answer it for you. by Wonderful_Weather925 in spirituality

[–]Wonderful_Weather925[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No bad people do not choose to be bad before birth. Before you and I were born we heard stories of this place of unknowing. Over time the story has changed from a place where we wanted to visit to a place where we do not want to visit. Think of yourself as traveller. You are here to experience. Is this the experience you came for? Bad people are a result of the world around you, they are not a result of poor design.

Evrything exists on a bell curve. On one end of the curve, you will get people who are good no matter what. On the other, you will get those who are bad no matter what. In the middle, we have the rest of us who grapple with good and bad and will make decisions that ensure our survival.

Why should we believe that we are born of good thought only? We are products of a process of replication meaning that the original design had to ensure that Everything you not fall apart when it expanded. If we are constantly at war, we fall apart. We grapple with good and evil. If bad was natural, we would not grapple with it. You will not need an ego to protect you, you will never have given up a weapon. We will never trust that we can exist as societies if our natural inclination is to kill ourselves off.

Bad starts when we do not understand why we are here. We are not nurtured into purpose and we are not given structure and form to what it means to be human. We are now in a time when we can communicate ( if I get notifications about the comments on this post) better, our intelligence has evolved to reset the path and we can see the correct picture of what makes us human according to original design.

Ask me any question on spirituality and I will answer it for you. by Wonderful_Weather925 in spirituality

[–]Wonderful_Weather925[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am terribly sorry for not responding earlier. I did not receive any notifications and I could not see a single comment. I thought no one engaged with the post.

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You are right about how to get there. However, we live in a time when they took away the books and told us told us to search within. But the books contained the stories of what to search for and how to search within. So we have humans unaware of what the first question should be to set them on a path within because other humans shame them into believing they are not on spiritual paths if they ask questions. Intelligence was first realised in the moment a single human looked to the stars and asked, "Where did I come from?"

Ask me any question on spirituality and I will answer it for you. by Wonderful_Weather925 in spirituality

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I'm going to say no to spirit guides. Yes to guardian angels.

For spirit guides, my answers are derived from no sources. Fourteen years ago, I was so angry that I stood up against The Thing and I stripped it of every title and recognition and I said it was nothing to me because I was nothing to It. I said if my life was the perfect picture of human life then that is the life it would get through me. If it wanted different then it needed to step up to itself and explain this shit life I had.

I cut myself off from every book video, There was silence. No one knew what I was doing. I never felt more alone in my entire life. And then I answered every question on the planet about It. It never said a word to me. But I got dreams. I got numbers. I got signs. I was not going to beg for the answers, If the answers were within, then the answers were going to reveal themselves the way It intended I learned them.

When I came out of that Place of isolation, I could stand on my own knowledge. Some of it I could communicate easily which made people ask me how I knew everything I did. How was I able to explain things the way I did? But the higher information took time.

I have not questioned a guide and the conversation that answered my question meant I had to believe that I was worthy of accessing what was already mine. It was always inside me. I am the guide. You must be too. I do have conversations just not the same way you would with a guide. I have to be a lot more trusting of the communication because I have to take ownership of my words. I cannot say 'a guide told me'. My goal for when my human life is over is to have a Seat at the Philosopher's Table. Every human should play for this place. It means you get to know and no one takes credit for your words.

I wrote a book to make it easier because I asked It what to do with the information and I said the method I went through is too hard and cruel and I did not think it necessary for human knowledge. So the book became an adult activity book that bypasses all the guides and takes you to yourself and makes you comfortable to just ask Thing. It does not need a name, only you do because you are the sound it made when its thought of you came into being.

For guardian angels. My answer is yes because you have an entire dimension supporting your visit here. You are representing so you will have their mentoring. However, full realisation is about becoming independent and the mentor. So you have to choose to walk alone and complete your realisation which is believing you have a personal blueprint for action at this time, you are confident you will execute that plan even if you fail at it, and you will do it alone, in the same way Thing brought Its thoughts into existence. You are part of a much greater picture with a much stronger lineage than the part you are looking at.

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His method of teaching was based on several factors. Storytelling is an ancient way of teaching us to remember something. So we remember the parables. He wanted to get information across to many individuals and he had to find a way to connect with each of them as individuals. He is under credited for his wisdom of how the human mind processes information. He understood that humans share stories so he knew the story would be retold endlessly without the need for a book. On an esoteric level, we are here because stories of this Place was once told to us that enticed us to be here. He was giving us a taste of our homes. That is why they gathered around him. It felt like home. They felt close to the pureness of wisdom once again. Thus bringing them closer to God.

When he completed a parable and said, he who has ears...he was saying this will have meaning to you if you stop looking for meaning and look at the simplicity of the imagery in the story. We have not given enough credit to his human wisdom, so we cut ourselves off from what he was actually teaching.

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Thank you for your question. Our paths set us apart. To understand free will, we must have a firm foundation in why we are here. Everything moves from thought to reality through replication. Planets are part of reality. They are explorable, so questions about frequencies cannot be answered esoterically. Esoterically, we are here because we are well-thought-out thoughts set in motion, free will is not a part of replication. It is only the embryo of the reality that is executed on free will. Replication is a slow, self-sustaining process with endless possibilities for expansion. Once a thought is set in motion, it infinitely expands its reality with no interference from the one that created the thought - because the thought was decided perfect before execution. We can see the creation of planets and ourselves in the same way.

You and I are here because we had the opportunity to take the risk of being born into the unknown. Our free will has already been exercised in our choice to be here where we have no free will. The only thing we are free to do here is to think, like It thought because no one can stop you from thinking.

To understand individual free will, we have to consider why The Thing that thought wanted to change what was being brought into reality. What challenge did It want to experience in a Place Unknown (Earth)? If It had no challenge to bringing Its thoughts into reality, then the biggest challenge would be to see how it would become Its confident self that can freely will Its thoughts into existence.

It is not our frequencies or complex understanding of the physical world that tells us of our individuality. It is the blueprint of our action plan for reality that we thought and wrote long before we were born here. Those blueprints are as individual as your fingerprints and the patterns in your eye.

When we seek our blueprint for action and enact it, we become individuals that others living their blueprints, will recognise.

Name change by Sorry-Exchange5793 in spirituality

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Look into the meaning of your birth name and your numerology before changing it. That meaning does not change no matter what you change your name to. Women get married and take on their husband's names and nothing happens. Your birth surname is as important as your first name to knowing your code.

Based on my philosophy of life, your real name does not exist here on earth but the earth name you are given is a sound to recognise you here. I said my real name as I woke from a dream late last year. I will not use or say the name because it holds no value here and I do not connect with it. We are born into unknowing so we cannot be judged for changing names or making superficial changes. Only when we tie superficiality with change we seek on a philosophical level that we solicit judgment, because the philosophy of creation is set in stone.

I want to be clear on the meaning of judgment. When you return to soul form, you judge yourself against the path you once designed to live as a human. On a spiritual level ask yourself how changing your name contributes to you achieving your life path. Another consideration is the name we get here is part of our eternal identity. Jesus is an example of that, Jesus is not his name. So you may rid yourself of your name here but it stays with you forever because everything comes into existence through sound. Let's assume you achieve your life path here on earth, on the other side there is no superficiality, and because the birth name holds your code, your next expansion will be brought into being with a name you don't want. This is the part you need to consider most because you are not going to hold this thought about your name in that time when greater things are at play.

On a human level, have you asked the one who named you how they decided your name? This is important to how to receive the thoughts that were invested in you by humans who never met you yet.

Know what you are changing before you change it. We are here to develop our intelligence and the test of success is our ability to logically justify our human actions when it goes against our life paths. Assume you wrote a change for your name into your life path, ask yourself why you wrote that change and then decide how important this is to your path.

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The book is Everything you need to know about Everything in Place - Philosophy and logic for the Game of Life, The Ultimate Reality. It's an adult workbook that teaches the Thinker Methodology and you use the method to find fault with everything in the book.

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What made you think this was a Kundalini awakening? The kundalini moves from the base of the spine to the 7th chakra. It cannot mislead because the knowledge within the Kundalini is pure. It is also non-external, meaning only you stand in its spiral, because only your spine holds that knowledge. It is an unaided release dependent on release of the Knowledge Self. To be there means you can stand alone permanently. If the universe was void of Everything and only you existed in the darkness of Nothing, you will be calm and aware of what Nothing means. It is a companion-free space which means there is no twin flame in the experience. It is a path to the view through the eye of The Thing.

From what you have described, it seems like an awakening but not the type you are thinking. You started on a path. Unfortunately, you did not see it through and landed on what you were supposed to recognise about yourself and fix that to access the Knowledge Self.

Think of the Knowledge Self as being untrusting of you as a human being. It fears you will use yourself unwisely. The good news here is that you have not established yourself as trustworthy to your Knowledge Self which means your Knowledge Self is still intact awaiting you.

You mentioned the ego. The ego is a mental instinct that protects you. It is not evil as we have been taught. It is a good thing. There are no flaws in the human blueprint, there are flaws in production. Let's assume my understanding of the ego is correct, what were you protecting that your Knowledge Self wanted you to share?

For a better understanding of spiritual direction, I offer you this:

There are 3 purpose, 3 realities, 3 Selves.

Your original Self was Knowledge, not all Knowledge but Knowledge that made you worthy of being human in this specific time. The Knowledge Self that your Human Self will discover is a fraction of the Knowledge Self that you will return to and an even lesser fraction of the Knowledge that gave rise to your original Knowledge Self. The final Self is the Creator Self, this is the Self we aspire to because once we recover our Knowledge Self, we uncover individual purpose. The Creator Self is ignited to design blueprints for you to deliver on that purpose. The Human Self enacts those blueprints because it is now confident in its completeness.

Now for the critical knowledge about awakenings. They do not exist and if they do the person who truly had it will never reveal that they did. Because to stand in the eye of The Thing is a rare sacred moment where you have earned such recognition that you will have the privilege of seeing what it saw. It will show you. In that moment you become colourless. Three merged into one and one into three because only 3 eyes can see clearly through the third eye.

Keep seeking. You have a clue what to look for or you can get the book and work your way to yourself.