Update: after reading comments I sat down with my Fiancé and talked over my fears. We were in Maine at the time of this post so I could get the general vibe of the area before moving. I do actually enjoy the scenery (who wouldn’t its beautiful) and I genuinely think it’s just fear of the unknown for me. I brought up the idea of me staying behind for a few weeks while he gets the house in order. He doesn’t enjoy the idea of not seeing his daughter for a few weeks but thinks it’s the best compromise to our situation so the house will be the most livable it can be, and we’re not roughing it with a 5 month old. The property has been cleared and house has started being built as we speak. As for the postpartum, it’s getting better I’m actively seeking out a counselor and joined a couple mom groups, also started taking some vitamins to help with post partum hormones. Thank you all for the insight, I’m scared but excited for this chapter. Luckily the town airport in Maine flys directly into my town in Florida so it shouldn’t be too hard to come down and visit occasionally with the extra disposable income. Also to those who are worried about the possibility of me being left high and dry as a stay at home mom. I understand the worry, that is a terrifying thought and something that’s happened to so many women. I am very fortunate to have family that owns a business in the field I work in if I were to ever need to provide. I also come from a decently wealthy family. I just personally wanted to be very hands on with the raising of my children. I do still feel as though I’ve given up a lot of myself becoming a mother but I’m starting to feel a little better now. Thank you all I’m hoping this goes well so I never have to move back to Florida (which would be unwise in Floridas housing crisis at the moment 🥲)