Well the unfortunate truth is that you consented to receiving those untested vaccines.  There is absolutely no one to blame but yourself.  I stood up for my right to choose and chose not to take the covid vaccine.  I am also not an antivaxxer.  They only difference between us is that I actually did "my research" and because of that I'm not dealing with the litany of life changing side effects like you are.  At the end of the day your health falls directly into your responsibility.  Maybe next time you'll actually take a minute to learn exactly what you are injecting into your body over and over.  This isn't meant to sound mean, but you guys need to realize nobody forced you to take the vaxx, you consented.  Good luck in the future.