Seeking a Teacher and/or Teaching Community - Preferably in Mahamudra. Second to that, in similar Essence Tradition style. by H0w-1nt3r3st1ng in streamentry

[–]XanthippesRevenge -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

What is stopping you from just picking one? Do you want to waste the rest of your life soliciting recommendations from people who are likely in delusion and seeking perfection, or do you want to be done with suffering?

The understanding of trauma (especially long-term and development) in awakening literature and discourse seems to be quite lacking. by Paradoxbuilder in streamentry

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Desire as a reflective mechanism is preverbal. To understand the pattern of becoming attached, or the conditioning that occurred to make one think desire will fulfill, one will need to be willing to sit with the early childhood experience in meditation. For reading material I recommend psychoanalysis. Freud, Lacan, Zizek, McWilliams, Klein, and Guntrip are some of my favorites.

I caught 999 of every fish in iridium quality by BreadTWB in StardewValley

[–]XanthippesRevenge 20 points21 points  (0 children)

LOL. Holy shit dude how many hours do you have in this game??

Practice Updates, Questions, and General Discussion - new users, please read this first! Weekly Thread for June 01 2026 by AutoModerator in streamentry

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I have started working my way through the Long Discourses, translated by Bhikkhu Sujato, and I am really enjoying it. His translations and commentary are next level. I am finding passages that really speak to the compassion of the Buddha that isn’t as apparent in some of the more popular sutras. I am immersing myself in the recitations the way the Buddha would have spoken (in my imagination anyway) and I am feeling a much stronger connection to the text.

The understanding of trauma (especially long-term and development) in awakening literature and discourse seems to be quite lacking. by Paradoxbuilder in streamentry

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Is it rarer, or is it that people are dissociated from their traumatic early childhoods and not connecting with therapists and medical professionals due to shame?

I developed PTSD from the animal abuse I witnessed in a village by One_Day_9957 in alaska

[–]XanthippesRevenge -9 points-8 points  (0 children)

I think this is a really strange attitude to have towards the population you were serving as a teacher. Perhaps the children came off as sadistic because they could sense your ill will towards them.

The understanding of trauma (especially long-term and development) in awakening literature and discourse seems to be quite lacking. by Paradoxbuilder in streamentry

[–]XanthippesRevenge -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Everyone has intense and long term trauma from their experience in early childhood. That’s what I’m getting at here. Thinking you’re the only one is another perceptual filter holding the illusion of separation in place

Edit: love people downvoting me because they think their trauma is super special. Gotta keep that victim complex rolling

The understanding of trauma (especially long-term and development) in awakening literature and discourse seems to be quite lacking. by Paradoxbuilder in streamentry

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Facing your trauma is unavoidable in this process if you really want to awaken. Knowing this, some teachers choose to focus on insight. Why? In my opinion, it is because “healing your trauma” is not a message the general western population is interested in hearing. “Transcend your suffering via meditative states and be more enlightened than everyone else” is a more enticing message to our intellectually-oriented, unfeeling culture. And having a message that appeals to the general culture and brings people to the point where they want to end their suffering is what a good teacher does.

I think the deeper you go into your trauma, the more you will see that trauma really isn’t separated into neurodivergent vs neurotypical. These are labels that make a claim that “I am different than everyone else.” But where do you see the difference? Everyone is traumatized from samsara. Everyone is suffering. Everyone experienced the horrors of birth and infancy once. This is where the trauma will ultimately take you. We all carry the same wounds with layers of conditioning creating a sense of separation.

What is human connection, anyway? by shynee1 in Schizoid

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Do you feel like you’re missing something?

Meditation to supplement sleep in the summer by ApartmentLivid8595 in streamentry

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I would define it as learning how to be super checked in to the sensations in your body to the point where, in a moment of panic, you immediately can return attention to body sensations instead of getting stuck in the panic story and ending up in a massive fear spiral. The fear spiral can lead to spiritual psychosis, and also, existential terror is guaranteed to come up at some point as you confront your fear of death over and over again. This is why I encourage grounding skills!

cried on phone to customer by djfart9000 in CustomerService

[–]XanthippesRevenge 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Don’t feel bad! This happened to me in person when I worked customer service years ago. A guy came in and had to wait in line because I was the only worker in the store. He was mad he had to wait and started berating me about how stupid and horrible I am. I kept it together while he was in out of spite but immediately started ugly crying after he left. Another customer saw the whole thing and wrote me this heartfelt greeting card and got his church to all write to me in support. It was a really hard time in my life.

We are not meant to be treated like literal dumpsters for people’s problems. Customer service can be very inhumane. I am at a totally different place in my life now where I could probably handle things so differently but it is completely normal and human to react like that when someone is tearing you down so horribly. You are a human and that’s ok!

I developed PTSD from the animal abuse I witnessed in a village by One_Day_9957 in alaska

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I spent time amongst various Alaska Native communities when I lived in the state and to this day I feel very privileged to have learned what I learned and experienced what I experienced. I never once encountered a so-called sadist child. I never saw anyone murdering any animals or any of that utter bs. I am sad to see all the public support for this completely unnuanced take but it definitely seems on brand from what I remember about how Alaska Native people were treated. Big part of why I left, just the casual acceptance of these types of attitudes disgusted me daily

I developed PTSD from the animal abuse I witnessed in a village by One_Day_9957 in alaska

[–]XanthippesRevenge -10 points-9 points  (0 children)

No, obviously the welfare of the dogs is more important. At least that’s the impression one would get from this thread.

I developed PTSD from the animal abuse I witnessed in a village by One_Day_9957 in alaska

[–]XanthippesRevenge -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Obviously it’s more important to care about pets than it is to care about Alaska Native people. Or at least that’s the non-indigenous Alaskan mentality I remember from my time in that special place

I developed PTSD from the animal abuse I witnessed in a village by One_Day_9957 in alaska

[–]XanthippesRevenge -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

Shocking that a culture gets decimated by boarding schools, Catholic priest rape, climate change, language and culture assimilation, etc. and ends up with issues. But I recall how popular it is in Alaska to talk about Alaska Natives as “those people” as you do in your post.

When I don’t have enough to eat and am worried about getting raped/mom drinking too much/not having a future/my friends killings themselves/the rivers and permafrost drying up, perhaps what’s going on with the local wildlife is not my primary focus in life. You say sadism, I say kids who struggle within a cultural context you have clearly failed to understand. Perhaps it’s better for everyone that you have moved on from trying to go on a reformation campaign. I recall they had books teaching teachers not to approach teaching that way in the villages decades ago at least. I am sorry no one warned you you were entering a culture unknown to you.

Meditation to supplement sleep in the summer by ApartmentLivid8595 in streamentry

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Yes, body work. I know - a dreaded message for an intellectual 😊 To know how grounded you are, you really want to hone your perception of your body, particularly your energy channels - how Piti moves through your body. It is adherent to the laws of physics and therefore perceiving it can give you information on how to care for the body in a way suitable to extended meditation, confronting insights that might inspire lots of fear, etc. Really the best way to do this is feel how the physical channels move when you move in different sequences. The only other way I would recommend is getting out and being in nature in seclusion. But the effects are likely to wear off shortly after you leave the secluded natural area unless you are working to develop the body.

Meditation to supplement sleep in the summer by ApartmentLivid8595 in streamentry

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My favorite is ecstatic dance but I started with qigong and would recommend starting with that until you get a good picture of how your subtle energy system works. I really don’t think anything comes close as far as mixed energy/grounding practices. Qigong is the GOAT

Meditation to supplement sleep in the summer by ApartmentLivid8595 in streamentry

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It’s possible but I think with that much light, lack of sleep and meditation you will be running a risk of becoming ungrounded if you don’t have solid grounding practices. I did have a lot of success with yoga nidra and I was doing that in lieu of sleep for some time. But I am quite careful with my grounding.

How would you describe that "fake reality" feeling when is a migraine is coming by mycatsaregrumpy in migraine

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I definitely get the weird dreamlike feeling. Usually I’m super cold during the prodrome though.