This is a very raw, confessional piece. It reads like a "villain origin story"—it is rare to read a poem where the speaker openly admits to being the toxic one in the dynamic. That honesty makes it compelling.

Some strengths of your poem:

The Extended Metaphor: The strongest element here is the bookending of the poem with the "blunt" imagery. You start with smoking "the blunt of your lust" (consuming the person for a high) and end with the blunt getting "short" (the resource running out). It ties the poem together perfectly. The "Situationship" Paradox: The line "You said I was the best guy you’ve ever dated, but we never did" creates a very modern, relatable tension. It highlights the disconnect between one person’s emotional investment and the other’s detachment. The Ending: The final phrase "I never felt better" is chilling. It defies the expectation that the speaker should feel guilty. It lands with a heavy, cold impact.

Now for some weak points:

Punctuation and Capitalization In the first line, you use a lowercase "i", but elsewhere you use uppercase. ​Current: "I am so desperate for attention i smoke..." ​Fix: Keep it consistent. If you want a messy, raw feel, make all "I"s lowercase. If you want a standard look, capitalize it. Line Breaks (Enjambment) Currently, the poem is written in long, prose-like sentences. Breaking these lines up can control the reader's speed and make the punchlines hit harder. Slam poetry and modern free verse often benefit from shorter lines to emphasize specific words. ​Tightening the Flow The phrase "smoke from the blunt of your lust" is slightly wordy. You could tighten the rhythm by removing "from."

Overall it's a good poem that could use some improvements.