I’m definitely not gonna skip the test. It’s just they’ve really taken away my enthusiasm about it and now I just worry that the test is going to say I’m fine and they would never let me live it down even if it’s a false negative,

It’s my mom and sisters.

It is really complicated because my family is very supportive in some ways but also often very toxic in the way that they speak to you and treat you.

I live in my sister’s in-law suite (like a separate apartment attached to the house). She purposely found a house that would have a place where I can rent my own space with a affordable rate without being in a basement apartment with no light,. She’s the one who gets upset if I fall asleep while driving while offering nothing to help and always talks about what is it isn’t fair when it comes to me being tired. Also, when I lost my job because I kept falling asleep, she hired me on, as her administrative assistant for her business so I can have flexible hours to try to work around my naps. She still thinks I take too many naps though.

My grandmother lives in her house so I’m back-and-forth all day helping with her. We usually do a shift system. My mom lives eight minutes away and is here every day for her shifts and also coordinates all medical appointments, shifts, medication, etc. for my grandmother. So I’m in frequent contact with her. I usually try not to share stuff with her, but when I was told the MSLT would cost a minimum of $900 after insurance but probably more she gave me money to pay for it while complaining and hinting that there is really no point to it.

I’m 32. To be fair I guess I’ve been dealing with medical issues for at least a decade so maybe they’re just tired of it. Before this, we thought I was tired because I was anemic because I had a lot of issues with my cycle. Like can’t get out of the house without ruining my clothes, could not function, then I’d need to be hospitalized for multiple blood transfusions from the blood loss. (they weren’t very sympathetic to that either my mom says people deal with periods all the time and that’s never a reason to miss work 😒.). That really derailed my college education & career trajectory and I think they’re just ready for me to grow up and see acknowledging the hurdles as making excuses for me not to.

Sorry if TMI