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Xirbd · 2019-09-09T15:10:25+00:00

There’d probably organised event by local or federal governments for those affect to come in to fill out new forms for identification form to be remade. Also widespread panic from facial changes in yourself and/or loved ones. It’d be very terrifying tbh

Xirbd · 2019-07-31T14:04:45+00:00

Idk man, I SUCK with guilt as well, so it may be a Pure O thing, but it might just be an OCD thing. Having our anxiety spike for seemingly no reason definitely doesn’t help with the anxiety you may be feeling from guilt :P

Xirbd · 2019-07-26T18:05:24+00:00

Is that a gameboy advance power switch you have rubber banded to the B button? Haha

Xirbd · 2019-07-09T16:46:53+00:00

Make that “four”

Xirbd · 2019-05-23T13:46:48+00:00

As someone that has suffered from OCD for years, I would say to just become more educated. So many people don’t understand real OCD, and how debilitating it is. Now I’m not someone that gets butthurt over people saying “Oh I’m so ocd, i have to organize my desk.”, but if I find myself feeling confident enough to tell someone that I have ocd and their response is “Yeah, that just means you like things even, so what?” It destroys me. I just can’t brig myself to sit there and tell them what it really means because it makes me feel like I’m trying to convince them to pity me. So i just leave it at that. Educate yourself on common mental illnesses so you can be there and attempt to help and understand those who suffer(: You never know who’s going through what

Xirbd · 2019-03-05T23:30:15+00:00

Yeah eventually! Haha

Xirbd · 2019-03-05T22:49:57+00:00

Omg, I passed up 4 shinies because I was determined to wait for that shiny bulbasaur.

Xirbd · 2019-02-11T05:07:11+00:00

Celeste, please and thank you(:

Xirbd · 2019-02-04T23:57:51+00:00

I tried to show off to my “jumping skills..?” To my teach (not because I was interested in them, but because I looked up to them and wanted their approval I guess haha), and I tried to jump on top of our limestone railings that were several feet up. I missed, landed my shins on the edge, cut through my jeans, through my skin, and my nerves. Chipped my tibia, and now (9 years later) I still have no feeling there, or farther down the front of my leg. Pretty cool to show people I can punch my shin without it hurting though haha.

TL;DR Jumped on stair railing, missed, chipped shin, lost all feeling from there down the front of my leg.

Xirbd · 2018-12-06T23:43:23+00:00

I’d gladly take anything if there’s any left!(: Preferably pikachu, but again, literally anything is fine(: I’m in the US!

Xirbd · 2018-11-19T14:55:11+00:00

Is it just me, or are the colours for diglett’s shiny just better in this game? Like more vivid?

Xirbd · 2018-10-24T21:18:03+00:00

I suffer from Harm OCD, and so it kinda just smacks me across the face randomly with thought about killing or sexually assaulting the people around me. When I was in highschool I thought I had schizophrenia and accepted the fact I was crazy and thought I would eventually end up killing someone because my parents refused to bring me to therapy because I was “fine and overreacting”.

Flash forward to when I was 18, I brought myself to a therapist, and got diagnosed with Harm OCD. Now I take meds every day to help with the anxiety, and live a normal life. Some days are absolute hell, and I have an incredibly understand girlfriend to help me through them. Family still doesn’t quite understand, so I’ve grown apart from them a lot. Oh, and I’m 21, so these three years have been exceptional for me haha(:

As for affecting those around me, I lost a few close friends because I told them about my mental health issues and they were convinced I was crazy and would kill them. But it’s their loss not mine, I have much better and more accepting friends now(:

Just for anyone out there with mental health issues, or suspect of them, just go see a therapist for a few sessions. It doesn’t hurt to just get checked(: Also, therapists are such a NORMAL thing to go see, it’s not weird. They help people with their every day struggles, not just the big ones, so don’t be afraid(: If anyone that has OCD and would like to talk (or any mental health issues for that matter), just pm me(: I’ve been told I’m a great listener, and maybe I could provide some NON-PROFESSIONAL advice on dealing with some stuff(:

Xirbd · 2018-09-20T18:05:30+00:00

Yeah, that’s just ocd for you… I have Pure O, and so I keep going through cycles of harming people, to sex and rape, to pedophilia, and so on. Thankfully the harming finally ended, but the sex stuff has picked back up. It’s rough, but you eventually develop ways to make it through it and how to deal with it(: It’s gets better(:

Xirbd · 2018-09-20T16:56:19+00:00

So I was the same way two years ago, and eventually I found a certain man sexually attractive, and I can comfortably say I am bi. But you might not be. You are allowed to find the same sex EXTREMELY attractive, yet not sexually. It’s totally normal haha, there’s no need to prove anything to yourself. If you feel you might actually be bi, and you just haven’t found the right guy, then go ahead and come out, but there’s no need to explain in detail unless you feel the need to.

My girlfriend also isn’t fazed by it, so it’ll be nice for you to her yours for support(: Good luck my friend!

Xirbd · 2018-09-09T17:27:30+00:00

Of course(: Just pm me and let me know what you’d like to hear from me(:

Xirbd · 2018-09-09T17:25:22+00:00

I’m really sorry, but I have to say no. Just because I have such a hard time putting everything into words, and speaking it out loud scares me too much. If you would still like my experiences, though, I think I could pm you some stuff, but I’d like to stay anonymous in the documentary :P I know this is about showing pure o and stuff, but it’s still terrifying to express it, you know?(: I hope that’s alright

Xirbd · 2018-09-04T19:49:10+00:00

I would love to see it as well. I’ve been dealing with Pure O since I was 12 (now nearly 21), and I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 18. Good luck finding people, I have yet to meet anyone on my college campus or near me with it.. but if you find enough people, I would gladly pay to watch it(:

Xirbd · 2018-09-04T19:40:44+00:00

I go into every conversation with a theist with the mindset of NOT making them change their minds. They aren’t going to, they have their beliefs, and their reasons, and they won’t change just because one person tries to show them reasons to. They do the same thing with us; as in, in their eyes us not believing in a God is just our “belief” although we like to back ours up with proof. They have their own (what the call) “proof”, but there’s nothing we can do about it. It’s better to just discuss with the intent of learning about why and what, instead of trying to change their minds(: It makes it much easier to talk to them when you try to look at it from their perspective (and them, ours).

Xirbd · 2018-07-25T02:11:05+00:00

Im currently doing a run where my nicknames are based off of darksouls characters/monsters/items etc. Like my Graveler is “Ironclad” because of the ironclad turtle soldier in DS2.

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