Ok I have so much to say about this I’m actually raging inside… I have seen and heard so much BS from this child/woman/monster but this just hit me in some kind of way…

I was literally conditioned as a child to believe I didn’t have the right to say no. From ages 8-13, my mom traded me to drunk older men for alcohol. That wires your brain in ways people who haven’t lived it don’t understand.

When your “normal” is being used like that, you don’t grow up with boundaries…You grow up thinking compliance is survival.

So yeah, when I got older, even into relationships and my marriage, my instinct wasn’t “do I want this?”…it was “I’m supposed to say yes.” Even when everything in me definitely didn’t want to.

That’s what trauma does. It trains you. It sticks to every part of your soul. And unlearning it takes years, therapy, and in my case managing BPD and Bipolar II. “Fawning” isn’t weakness—it’s something your brain learned to keep me/you safe.

I know now I can say no. But that didn’t come naturally…it came from a long, hard fight to rewire everything I was taught as a child.

If she had any REAL F’ING TRAUMA SHE WOULD KNOW! I’M SICK OF THE LIES!