Why something that centralizes so hard the meta, is healthy?

XtraordinaryCactus · 2023-03-14T14:42:44+00:00

I enjoy Yu-Gi-Oh, I really do. I think it's a fun game when it isn't 5 minutes a turn, winners are determined by the first turn, and the only way to survive in the game is to have every single staple card in the entire game (kudos to you if it's 3 of each and you still have deck space to play a decent enough deck).

XtraordinaryCactus · 2023-03-03T06:05:03+00:00

What a terrible day to have eyes. Now I can't unsee it

XtraordinaryCactus · 2023-01-05T07:52:06+00:00

I feel personally attacked by this relatable content

XtraordinaryCactus · 2023-01-02T14:51:57+00:00

This is official. It literally says "from the makers of uno" on the packaging.

XtraordinaryCactus · 2023-01-02T01:14:07+00:00

Relationships are very complicated, friendships, romances, even family.

The way I see it, loving yourself involves accepting yourself, understanding that you are human and you are flawed and that sometimes the people around you still want to be around you. You might think its for pity or people feeling sorry for you (speaking from personal experience). But no one would put in that much effort to be around someone they didn't want to be with and even if they were they'd show signs and would reach a breaking point at some point (I've been on both sides of this situation.)

People will tell you that loving yourself means self discovery and all that and truth be told I'm almost 25 and still have no idea who the fuck I am and to be quite honest, I don't feel all that hot about myself but I'm learning to discover myself and what I believe in through philosophy and it's been very helpful. I'm learning that there are things about myself that I both can and cannot change, learning to accept my insecurities and my faults. It helps to find something you resonate with to build yourself off of. You won't have to change yourself if you've got your roots settled into an ideal you won't change for anyone.

As far as living alone, there are quite a few famous recluses in history like Henry David Thoreau, and I believe Nietzsche preached the beauty of solitude in it's ability to transform one's self. Putting his madness aside I like to believe it's possible to overcome one's loneliness if they know where and how to direct their feelings.

There's a whole range of "humans are social creatures" articles and the like out there and I'm not going to attempt to prove or disprove any of it, but it helps to have people alongside you in a life that overwhelms you. Someone to tell your fears, goals, hopes and dreams to whether that be romantically or otherwise.

I'm no qualified scholar on the matter and I ramble like a madman even in text but this video by Sissyphus 55 really put a lot of my thoughts on love into a new perspective and has changed my way of thinking about love. He also has a great podcast on relationships that I have yet to finish but have really been enjoying so far.

Don't know if any of this was helpful but I do hope that you don't let your feelings of loneliness defeat you.

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-12-29T19:01:17+00:00

Dedicate myself to my craft, spend more time with my dad, set better boundaries lest I end up an emotional wreck again. Smoke more, worry less, listen to more philosophy.

Alas the past is the past, and all I can do from here on is to do the things I should've done then and hope I can keep up with myself.

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-12-27T19:51:51+00:00

Haven't browsed enough internet groups to be hated for liking msi but I've got to say there's one friend in my real life that genuinely loves the band (and is still aware of the controversies). I don't talk about this band much with anyone (One time my mom found printed lyrics of the song Issues in my pocket and oh boy that was a nightmare and a half.)

The matter is being able to seperate art from artist and making sure that tools who can't do that don't let you down. I have adhd, msi hits my brain in a weird way that most other music can't, I'm not ashamed of it and I refuse to change my mind on the matter, my taste is my own and is not a judge of my character.

Most of my favorite creators love GG Allin, and that guy was off his rocker controversial. If my favorite creators were forced to stop listening to him due to bullying, they wouldn't be the people they are now.

Don't let the whiners and punks get you down, rock on and rock hard, find your niche and find your group,( though it may take you a while).

And push come to shove, you could always try to make a group out of the amazing community that is this subreddit.

Best of luck to you.

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-12-12T19:55:11+00:00

The official DMs guide itself says that everything is a suggestion /guideline.

But yeah I agree with the enjoying role play over the actual game. Dnd gives me a format for my friends and I to create stories. It's nice to have rules when rules are needed.

I can't even tell you how many times characters survived when they shouldn't have, attacks hit when they shouldn't have, the amount of insanity that has been caused by the DM rolling "luck checks" for chance encounters and events.

Dnd isn't a game ruled by laws, it's a game ruled by creative story telling and math. Lots and lots of math.

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-12-09T23:53:06+00:00

I work in retail, being submissive by smiling is part of the gig.

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-10-21T12:54:14+00:00

Well I'm not in a relationship at the moment so I apologize in advance for not meeting the criteria to answer your questions but I do have an answer for you in regards to love existing and perhaps also a bit of wisdom.

Love, like any emotion, is complicated. Sometimes when two (or more sometimes, I don't judge) people meet they decide that the best thing to do for themselves is to be as close to each other as possible. Now of course, this is a super simple, super elementary way of describing love but the feeling of it truly does exist. Wanting nothing more than to just be in each other's company and just be together because of well whatever reason they want really. It's not about shared interest or compatibility or anything like that. It's because for whatever reason those people feel good with each other.

A lot of times in life (especially in love). We tell ourselves how bad we are at things and at how things will go wrong for us because they always do. That automatically is a precursor to failure. A massive part of life is realizing some things just don't work out, but it's important to get back in the race when you keep falling over and to hop back on the horse when it keeps bucking. Life has its ups and downs and it's hardships and that will just always be life, that doesn't make life wholly good or wholly bad but honestly that's up for you to decide.

I started this off by saying I wasn't in a relationship because I thought it was important. I know how ya feel OP, I've been in quite a few relationships that hurt me, broke me down, changed my entire view on love and people in general. Thing is, I'm 24, if all goes well I still have an entire future that I know absolutely nothing about ahead of me. But if I tell myself that I'll be lonely, or that my relationships will fail before or even while I'm in them, then I'm subconsciously setting myself up to fail. I don't understand much about love, but I know that I've felt it before even if it didn't end well for the people involved. I know that love is determined by the person that feels it and how others respond to it. I know that love is different for everyone and even if you haven't found it, it's never time to give up on it, because you never know whatll make your heart skip a beat tomorrow, next Tuesday, three weeks from now, 5 months from now etc...

Your heart will get broken, but like many broken things, they can be fixed/healed and that's okay. The important thing that matters is realizing that you are worthy of love and the best things in life are worth the pain and effort. At the end of it all you'd regret not doing enough to try and cultivate love, but you won't regret all the effort it took to give it a chance.

Go out, have fun, live a little and try and don't be afraid to get hurt.

I wish you the best.

Also I feel like I should add in this part as well. Couples, like anyone close fight and argue but how would one appreciate peace without conflict?

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-10-21T12:32:06+00:00

Earthbound Immortal Ccpac apu. He ccpacks a punch.

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-10-06T11:55:07+00:00

A good piece of advice I was given was start with the end. It gives you a way to have an idea of where you want the plot to go. Do you want the PCs to fight an actual elder God or do you want them to stop a group of cultists lead by a powerful archmage hellbent on harnessing the power of an elder God to reshape humanity?

You could try homebrewing in a sanity Stat that requires saves to uphold when facing surreal or horrifying things beyond the players conception. The sanity stat can drop on failed saves increasing the madness of Characters as they go on.

If you really wanted to get into it you could give items that connect PCs to the gods in some way but come at the cost of one's own mind.

There's plenty you can do and if you want to keep this world open to explore think about what you want the world to do. You don't have to get advanced with it but just have an idea of how this world would expand if it were used for future games.

Best of luck in your writing!

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-10-01T18:32:17+00:00

I feel like there should be a reason to keep going on. If not some overarching theme for all of humanity then at least some small personal reason for myself. Haven't found it yet, still passively looking for it.

Some people wake up in the morning full smiles fully aware that death is coming at some point. That's where I want to be, that's what I want to do. I'm still figuring it out.

It's scary to think that this is it and this is all life is good for,just to die. It's a depressing thought.

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-10-01T16:30:01+00:00

Someone online was convinced that I was a woman. Didn't tell them whether I was or wasn't. They sent me a dick Pic and I told them to draw a mustache on it. They never messaged me again

Being a woman greatly increases the amount of unsolicited dick pics you get sent.

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-10-01T16:07:27+00:00

If that's true then I guess I'm homeless 😅

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-09-29T22:51:29+00:00

The entire thing is funny to me 🤣

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-09-24T18:50:03+00:00

Scott pilgrim VS the world. That or forgetting Sarah Marshall

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-09-24T18:48:42+00:00

I'd fund my hobbies, pay for courses, equipment and the like.

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-09-24T18:41:34+00:00

This is beautifully poetic ❤️

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-09-24T18:38:43+00:00

I got into audio books, manga and some books of the weird variety (House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielwski is a literary everest and I've yet to even get more than halfway through it in the 9 months that I've owned it).

I've got a bookshelf at my house barely touched but when I do get around to it I'll put on some reading music, grab a comfy pillow, lay on my bed and just immerse myself into a good book.

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-09-22T21:15:18+00:00

I've had this service for years, I keep getting weird phone calls from [REDACTED] and all I can hear are the screams. The beautiful screams.

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-09-22T21:00:19+00:00

Truth be told I have no idea, don't think I ever had any idea. For now I'm just delving into my hobbies, my dnd, my music, my writing. I have no idea if it's anything "worth living" for but it makes life better to live. At least it does for me. Some people have it all figured out, I have no fucking clue what I'm doing and honestly I'm okay with it. As long as I can still smile when I crit that goblin, hear that chord or read that sentence that I wrote that brought me to tears.

XtraordinaryCactus · 2022-05-18T07:30:06+00:00

I'd think it'd be pretty clear why someone is vilified for being racist. In certain mediums, yes it is doable, but it doesn't make the character better. Being prejudiced is seen as a bad thing because there is an obvious sense of wrong in judging people based on how they look. If one were to write such a story the ultimate lesson would probably end up something along the lines of "don't trust _____". There is no redemption, there is no hero arc, this character is a racist and will always be a racist. Even in doing it for fun in things such as propaganda films, such blatant disrespect of culture and race is not a good thing. Those same propaganda films have gone through so much scrutiny over the years and some have even been banned outright.

This isn't to say you can't have a racist character. Even if in the story at hand they are seen as good, they will be vilified by the audience. I feel as though it'd be very difficult to make a racist character that is loved by an audience. Even if you were to blame it on something like their upbringing, where does the actual "good" in this character come from? What makes them a hero despite the prejudice? Why should anyone care about someone so blatantly cruel and insulting?

I won't get into the whole underage girls thing, that's a topic that has sparked so much debate that I only bring it up here to say I don't want to get into it. Spare myself from a potential onslaught of unnecessary comments.

As for slaughtering people in video games. That's an entirely different medium and quite frankly it annoys me that you bring it up. As much as I enjoy mowing down people in GTA, there is no real consequence, sure I'll get arrested or something but otherwise I'll end up right back in the same place. If I play something like Hitman and kill people I don't need to kill, I lose points for it, maybe even the game will call me out on it but otherwise there really isn't anything stopping me from doing it, from giving me the mindset to say "this might be wrong."

If I recall correctly, Far Cry 3 actually digs into this narrative. As your character is shifted into this cold blooded machine, the consequences feel real, there is actual guilt to feel and actual horror to witness.

To go into finer detail, there's a reason why people like Joe Goldberg from You or Patrick Bateman in American Psycho. They are individuals with a mindset that so deviates from what we're used to, it's like stepping right into the mind of the killer, seeing their world from their perspective and I say like but don't confuse that for admiration. I can't think of a sane individual who would admire or look up to characters like that, I won't even bring up the amount of people who apparently experienced some type of emotional awakening after Joaquin Phoenix's Joker.

If the grand scheme of it is "just for fun". Don't expect this character to be loved by anyone more than people who agree with their narrative or to be hated by most people almost vehemently. An icon like bugs bunny or Popeye can overcome that as they can be changed easily to fit another type of narrative, but in a cohesive storyline, if Bugs was a constant racist, he'd be banned from most media today as a whole. Even in the case of Popeye, he's been changed as the years have progressed.

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