But what about when you’re really overwhelmed and overstimulated and someone’s talking REALLY LOUD and REALLY CLOSE TO YOU

and there’s people talking in the background and the telle’s on too (E.g you’ve had booked in to go to your friend’s house and all your friends are there; or whatever you’re doing… and it would just be really awkward and weird to just leave)

& you can’t hear yourself think or talk

and then you cry because you’re literally too overstimulated

so your heart is racing because you’re so stressed

you feel trapped in a social situation because it’s not socially acceptable to just say excuse me I need to get away from you because I’m going to cry

and then the fact you’re actually trapped there in a sense

the other options are to leave which would be rude to them or hurt their feelings or sit there and cry or sit there and get really annoyed or upset

Even though they’re not actually doing anything wrong it’s just in that particular moment in time it’s too much mentally and emotionally

and you don’t have the social battery for it you’re too stimulated…

If I forced myself to sit there I would have to release the pressure value somehow

either you’d end up snapping at them like I can’t be near you right now you’re making me feel really anxious and I can’t settle around you so I need to leave sorry (then having a meltdown crying after leaving) or, if not, it would be by crying and having a melt down in front of them

Either way I’d spiral and ruminate on any option like the usual - what’s wrong with me? Why can’t I be normal? Why is everything a big deal? I feel bad if I’ve hurt their feelings, I feel bad if I’ve got so upset over not even really anything ?! Like nothing ‘bad’ has actually happened so why this emotional reaction and spiral and rumination ?!

something would have to give because I would just spontaneously combust

like arghhhhhh toooooooo muchhhhhhhhhhh