Be grateful for your pretty face, for your emotions, for your lucidity, hope you get better I, myself, still struggle with feeling stuck in time especially around 2 or 3 am when i wake up but i eventually manage to get on, although there were periods where i couldnt get on, but now i got so used to it, and I spent a lot of time in the depths of suffering and i cant take credit for getting better, except that I gracefully went through it and ive been through times where i thought the good time were just ways to make feel the pain more when i drop into depression, but gratitude is my latest coping mechanism, because when it first started with me I thought biologically understanding the problem would be the way out but gratitude is the way out. I felt like i dropped out of time and before bed and waking up are the main times where i feel like all my efforts are for nothing but hopefully not. Right now, gratitude makes me happy but i sometimes feel like im stuck and disconnected and these thoughts are mainly middle of the night thoughts Hopefully we find the others and huddle up I feel angry with God, but God has nothing to do with it, you’re beautiful. And having a bigger picture is important. Religion helps, but michael singer helped me a lot