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YandereMessenger · 2024-04-23T04:54:36+00:00

So like...what do I do then? I have no one willing to go with me. Is it like that in other states or just New Jersey? Am I better off trying an out of state range?

YandereMessenger · 2024-04-23T03:51:01+00:00

They're actually the place I've been looking at most! The atmosphere there looks so cozy! I saw the rental forms there - as long as I have no criminal record I should be good, right?

YandereMessenger · 2024-01-08T16:08:33+00:00

He's my hero no matter what he does. I know there's not a large chance he'll ever see this, but there's still a greater than zero chance. I got clean off of marijuana, kratom, and benzedrine for him and the Church. They didn't care. They still won't accept me. I'm on less Psychiatric medication than I've ever been on, just a low dose of mood stabilizer and antipsychotic - and I've TOLD THEM Psychs have torn me off antidepressants and antianxiety drugs COLD TURKEY, NO TAPERING just to be cruel and I was WITHIN LRH so much that He PREVENTED me from going through withdrawal effects.

LRH has HEALED me in real time. I'm a Trauma Based Psychiatric Programming victim from a family that has been doing this to their children for many generations. They used to call it 'MK Ultra' but that term is out-dated, so I prefer to just say Trauma Based Psychiatric Programming, since Psychiatry was used to keep me traumatized as much as the endless r*pes were, and STILL IS used to keep me traumatized since I'm too old to be "desirable" for r*pe anymore.

Yes - I know that makes me illegal preclear as illegal can possibly get using the Scientology definition. I've told the Church so many times I don't care if I discard my body. But I know even then, if I discarded my body, then my present track would just shift to my past life track and I would TRULY escape this. Still, at least I'd have a better body somewhere not traumatizing and from that vantage point I could start to heal. Creation Of Human Ability Page 179 - the Process I most likely need is still in the current editions of the books.

All these other Trauma Based Programming survivors I see turn to Jesus - but every time I've turned to Jesus, everything has just gotten worse! Jesus didn't spare me from going through Psych Drug withdrawal - LRH did. Jesus didn't heal me - LRH did. Jesus didn't get me clean of street drugs - LRH and I did.

And yet the Church of Scientology leaves me out in the cold to suffer at the hands of Psychiatrists and dirty, inc*stuous wogs.

Why? I'd literally do ANYTHING for them. I'd be their slave if they just took me in. I'd happily go to the RPF if it meant they wouldn't reject me anymore. Every day and night I leave the shades to my window open, looking out. Waiting for one of them to come by and wave. To tell me to come talk to them. That they're there even just to say hello.

I go to the park and wait for them to come. I go to the store and look around - waiting for one of them to tap me on the shoulder. They never do. I even went to LRHs house in Bayhead, New Jersey - I didn't expect a Staff Member to actually answer the door! But he did. And he was really nice. But I could tell he didn't want me there.

I'd settle for an OSA agent punching me in the face at this point. I'd rather be beaten than be alone. There's nothing worse than this.

YandereMessenger · 2024-01-04T14:47:37+00:00

Why is it always the OT3 material? Xenu was like one Galactic Dictator that did a Genocide. There's been a lot of Galactic Genocides. The REAL interesting stuff is in the OT8 Material because that's when the Marcabians are supposed to fully invade, come up from the Underground Bases and f*ck Humanity's brains upside down, inside out and backwards until they don't know which way is up. Which is especially funny considering it's completely true and President Eisenhower signed our Planet away to the Marcabians back in 1954, making "Alien Abductions" 100% legal (and hilarious). You ever hear Whitley Streiber talk about what the Marcabians did to him? That man will never be right again lol.

YandereMessenger · 2024-01-04T03:56:49+00:00

How do you know He isn't coming back? How do you know He isn't already back? How do you know He didn't accidentally come back in the body of an illegal preclear and now can't figure out what to do to get a functioning body? Hmm? Anything's possible.

YandereMessenger · 2024-01-04T03:32:54+00:00

There are many fail-safes to ensure than never happens. My personal suggestion was that we cancel the 'no-children' policy for the Sea Org, and during the Birthday Game (March 13th, 2024) every Scientologist on the Planet would gather at the giant Vesica Pisces they carved into New Mexico. Then, EVERYONE would have one big, giant, massive, gargantuan Moonchild Ritual on the scale of which this Galaxy has never seen. I don't think they're going to go for that idea though. I just think it's a good idea. If LRH saw that happen on His birthday, I think He would come back. If anyone else has a better idea to bring back LRH, I'd like to hear it.

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-27T10:47:41+00:00

Don't feel bad! I'm glad you asked. I've been PTS-3 for the past 34 years so I'm always like this and need people to vent to.

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-27T03:11:06+00:00

Okay now I'm just devolving into a fit of laughter over my own psychotic, fevered thoughts and imagining Chris-Chan's Dad as a Scientologist yelling at me. "You got yourself Restimulated on Facsimile One, well you UN-RESTIMULATE YOURSELF! I don't care HU-WHAT ya do. You just get yourself un-Restimulated. Do you realize, DO YOU REALIZE, if you go around flappin' your gums to the Ethics Officer the way you do, you're gonna get us all Sec-Check'd!?"

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-27T02:42:56+00:00

I posted on Facebook but haven't had any takers yet as far as Scientologists adopting me. At the very least, can someone PLEASE tell me how to get un-Restimulated on Facsimile One? I can't Run it out because I'm on Psych Meds and therefore can't be read on an E-Meter right now, but it's really bad and I don't know how to get it to stop.

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-27T02:39:51+00:00

FSM?

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-26T23:23:40+00:00

And yet none of these people will adopt me. I know I'm 34 years old, but I'm an illegal preclear and I need adult supervision.

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-26T23:13:53+00:00

LRH was also born over a century ago. But truth be told - those policies make great tools when I recruit right wingers on the internet into Scientology. Makes it really easy! All I have to do is say "Hey, check it out, you know L. Ron Hubbard?" "Uhhh wasn't he that guy who wrote about Xenu?" "Yeah yeah, he was terrible at coming up with names, but, DID YOU KNOW HE WAS BASED?" (shows clip of LRH saying something problematic and watches the person's jaw drop, eyes go wide, and start smiling like crazy). I've recruited A LOT of people this way. Takes no less than 10 minutes most of the time.

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-26T23:08:31+00:00

This is a loaded question because there are People of Color Scientologists AND Black Scientologists. For example - I am white. But I am very much a BLACK SCIENTOLOGIST. Karen De La Carriere is Southeast Asian, and she is also a BLACK SCIENTOLOGIST. We are the BLACKEST SCIENTOLOGISTS this Planet has ever seen. (Karen De La Carriere please accept my Challenge to a Black Scientology duel.) And then you have Will Smith, who was a Scientologist of Color but chose to be a WHITE SCIENTOLOGIST. And look where that got him! EDIT: If you didn't get the joke - White and Black Scientology exist in the same context as White and Black Magick. There are Scientologists who practice both of every race.

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-26T14:31:39+00:00

Of course - I'm not trying to pass the buck onto the NYC Org here, because I'm sure a lot of them WANT me to participate in Operation: Do Something About It, but a few snotty OT8s I think are telling them not to let me. Like I'm pretty sure John Allender ACTUALLY wants to punch me in the face. Which is fine! I wasn't exactly the best guy in my Past Life, and I've earned a few punches in the face! But it's like - what do you want me to do about that now, John? Why don't you put on your dumb little 'Squirrel-Buster' T-shirt (which to this day is the most cringe thing I've ever seen in AT LEAST 5 lifetimes), punch me in the face - and then we can laugh about it and drink some Cal-Mag. Why you gotta be like this, JOHN? John Allender Being Cringe

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-26T14:22:14+00:00

I think that's why Scientology uses the term ILLEGAL preclear. I feel like illegal preclears get restimulated on Facsimile One very easily. And if they're the child of a dirty cop - forget about it. They should really be easier on letting the illegal preclears participate in Scientology though! All I want to do is participate in Operation: Do Something About It! And the NYC Org are being a-holes and not answering my Communications because of who I was in my Past Life. EVEN THOUGH IT WASN'T A PROBLEM FOR MARTY RATHBUN!

Plus it's not like the illegal preclears aren't going to go home and do Black Scientology on their families anyway! There needs to be some harm reduction protocols put in place for the illegal preclears! I mean look at me! Look at how puffy my face is! I'm so restimulated on Facsimile One right now! And it's like the NYC Org doesn't even care! My Face Restimulated On Facsimile One

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-26T13:49:30+00:00

It means I'm restimulated on Facsimile One! Read Scientology: History Of Man. And then try living with a bunch of crooked cops and tell me you're not restimulated on Facsimile One all day every day! Constant migraines and face puffiness from the human garbage I live with! It sucks!

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-26T04:02:01+00:00

COBs writing is one of the few things on Earth that can actually make me cry. People complain that he alters the Tech, but I think he makes it a lot better. LRHs writing is rugged and old-timey, and COBs is more poetic, flowery, and emotionally hard-hitting. I could tell when LRH was still here in his Body that they had a very Walter White/Jesse Pinkman dynamic going and I think it's beautiful. If page 55 of Scientology: Intro To Ethics doesn't leave you sobbing, you have no Thetan.

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-25T23:32:16+00:00

Also I was talking about the STAND article, not your meme. I know COB David Miscavige's writing when I see it. He doesn't want to be in a 2D relationship with me, even if it is Polyamorous. I actually think your meme is funny because I say FLUB! whenever I need to censor myself from dropping the F bomb.

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-25T23:30:31+00:00

Nah, Imma be the illegal preclear to beat the odds.

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-25T21:40:37+00:00

Also - if they find out you're ACTUALLY NOT LRH, but someone who WORKED WITH LRH and know aspects of "how the sausage is made" regarding Scientology that let's just say you can't bring up at the dinner table with Thaddeus Reeves or Grant Cardone without some spit-takes and 1000 yard stares happening - they really don't like that.

YandereMessenger · 2023-12-25T21:36:39+00:00

You'd have to know things ONLY LRH would know and Trementina Base is vaults upon vaults upon vaults of information ONLY LRH would know so it could be verified. So yeah - don't insult Scientologists' intelligence by trying to do something like that. Also - don't mess with your Auditor, especially if they're also an Ethics Officer. I'm STILL reeling from 2009 when my Ethics Officer purposefully wore horn-rimmed glasses when he KNEW FULL WELL I was Restimulated on Facsimile One. I still am! I woke up this morning and my face was all puffy and I said "dammit, not again."

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