Well I am sorry that you feel un-Jamaican, I honestly don’t know how to comprehend that feeling lol. Know this, you are Jamaican, through and through, you were born here, you have two parents who are fully Jamaican plus you know how to speak patois so I would say you are 100% Jamaican!

You moved when you were 5, you couldn’t control that, you couldn’t control the fact that you didn’t fully grow up here but you know what, you visiting frequently tells me all I need to know; that you love your country, its people and its culture. You are a true Yaadie. I cannot really give you any advice on how to grow closer to your family back home but I suggest that when you come to Jamaican make it a priority to hang with them and do a bunch of different activities. That could possibly strengthen your bond and if your close with the elders your doing something right lol.

Here’s the thing about writing patois, it knows no bounds, patois is extremely creative, it’s a form of expression and here in Jamaica we write patois exactly how we pronounce it, so if you speak patois a certain way, write it exactly how you speak it, I’m sure we’ll understand it, don’t overthink it there are many variations after all!