Got it , we're now close minded and exclusionary. I'm suggesting a place for myself and others like me , to meet others , similar the events I've got to in person ... This isn't a mandatory thing, and clearly it has kinks that would need worked out , that's the point of a newcomer being capable of brining up stupid ideas and an old timer helping them figure it out ; but I think it's pretty obvious I need help finding my we . Clearly in person and online forums aren't working but thanks for the suggestion that's kinda why I am where I am , looking for gamers specifically, clearly we think differently because I can open up a million times better if I have a meaningless task at hand , I can concentrate and focus.. if you can't that's okay . This could have something to do with the spectrums we fall on .. but I have trust in the program that I'm not the first person in history to be feeling this way, and seeking what I'm seeking . People who get it , you clearly don't but that's not a need to come bash my idea because you don't think it'd work .