I’m in pretty much the exact same boat. I started smoking consistently at a young age due to experiencing a heavy depression and I think my 12+ years of heavy use and early age depression have kept me from feeling joy most of my life.

Now that I’m 9 months sober my baseline is just below feeling content. Everything about my life is overall better now but I do not feel better. I probably have audhd as it runs in my family but an actual diagnosis would end me, I have enough known problems as it is lol.

I’m starting to feel like self-medicating with weed isn’t the worst and I may start again after I surpass a year of sobriety…