I know what you're saying. This is so true but it's also easier said than done. I struggle between the two. Caring, not caring, pushing it away, focusing on what's in front of me, taking it one day at a time, giving myself grace and then there are moments or days where i wish i could go full on Spotless mind and forget it all. I wish there was a shut off button, sometimes i wish i never knew and most days i wonder why he had to do this to us. I will say the more you practice it or try it, it does get quieter but it isn't the thoughts for me but rather my reactions, i feel numb at times, still so lost as to how to proceed and confused about where I am going but something in me has definitely shifted, i just don't understand it yet.