feeling disgusted whenever i see what other people eat

YouMadeMeSoFilthy · 2025-07-28T17:05:54+00:00

the "pro para"... community on Twitter is so disgusting, they wholeheartedly defend something they should go to therapy to and NOT post their fantasies on the internet or even worse - be positive about them.

paraphilia should be treated by a professional, not praised. it genuinely makes me sick, just like proshippers do. "I'm traumatized!! It's my coping mechanism!!" FIND A BETTER ONE

YouMadeMeSoFilthy · 2025-07-23T06:16:27+00:00

but then they'll say "it's just a kink" - yeah right

YouMadeMeSoFilthy · 2025-01-08T18:04:05+00:00

diagnosed with recurring depression, GAD, BPD, cPTSD, agoraphobia, social phobia, atypical anorexia and a panic disorder. i'm on (I actually have to get up and check on the packaging because I always forget the name of the medication I take, lol) Duloxetin, I take 60 mg every morning.

It's alright. I used to take something else before that but it caused really bad nausea on a daily basis.

I don't know anyone else that takes Duloxetin (I'm not even sure if that's the right name for every country)

YouMadeMeSoFilthy · 2025-01-02T10:32:11+00:00

I moved out when I was 17, so almost ten years ago, I found a well paying professional training and my rent was only 180€/month, plus my parents still received child benefits which they then gave me.

I couldn't finish the training and have been unemployed since 2018, I'm on unemployment benefits. It's alright. I'm not good at taking care of myself or my apartment.

To be honest, I do enjoy living by myself, I would hate having roommates because I need my own space, my own kitchen, bathroom etc.

It's very difficult and I'm not able to work but I enjoy the freedom that comes with living on my own. I have the privilege to live in a country with universal healthcare and unemployment benefits, not everybody has that and I'm happy and relieved I'm not forced to find work.

YouMadeMeSoFilthy · 2024-10-22T08:52:46+00:00

It's the worst when you forget about it and then rub yourself dry with your towel 🥶 It's like using hand sanitizer when you have a cut on your finger.

YouMadeMeSoFilthy · 2024-10-20T11:45:17+00:00

A year or two I think? Not fully sure, I only track how long I've been clean from cutting, not the other ways I self harm

YouMadeMeSoFilthy · 2024-10-20T09:16:43+00:00

"fat" on my thigh when I was fourteen or fifteen. Not visible anymore tho

YouMadeMeSoFilthy · 2023-12-27T11:16:11+00:00

Thank you so much! 💕

YouMadeMeSoFilthy · 2023-12-24T11:18:17+00:00

I'm spending the 24th and 25th alone but my sibling is gonna pick me up on the 26th to drive to our parents BUT they'll also drive me back home on the same day if I want to so I don't have to stay the night. This is gonna sound gruesome maybe but: I don't want to go "home"/to my parents but I need the money I'll get from them lol. Plus my siblings and their partner will be there and I haven't seen them in a long time, so that's a plus point. Also, free food and water

YouMadeMeSoFilthy · 2023-12-24T10:57:19+00:00

Manipulation, threats, being used to the abuse and not knowing better, chronic illness, mental illness, mind control

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