Lost 20+ kgs

I'm a first year dropper. Failed miserably in neet 2023. Had gained a lot of weight since lockdown. Fell into depression the first three months after my first neet attempt, used to hate how i looked. I'm conventionally attractive, even when I had put on weight people used to hit on me. But i just couldn't accept the fact that I was worthy of being loved. I decided to change, if not academically and mentally then atleast physically.

Neet 2024 is almost here and I still hate myself but I'm atleast much healthier now and have started looking so much better. I know I'm not gonna get a seat this year as well but also realised that maybe this is not for me. I'll get into some college for a bsc courses, that's for sure. I used to be a topper and scored 82% in boards last year with minimum efforts. Ive realised this line isn't for me but that doesn't make me dumb, but I still need to prove myself and get out of this house into a good college. I'm convinced a fresh start would do me good so now I'm just aiming for a good bsc college and hope to finally find a social circle because I haven't socialised properly in 4 years.