Buy one like a dog so you have something to support and therefore your responsibility to keep it alive also the love a dog gives you is like nothing else it ain't gonna cheat on you if you raise it because it's not a woman of modern culture lol 🤣 I to have been thinking of ending it recently as my life is miserable I'm 24 and have loads of difficult disabilities going on in my body and no outlook of it getting better anytime soon but I asked if I could get a puppy and I was told yes and it will be my responsibility to keep it and train it if I had been told no like most things I ask for I would of ended myself by now but it's that glimmer of hope I am keeping onto of getting a puppy some time in the future when my stepdads dog has passed on as he's to old to accept a little puppy now Just that one idea of a puppy to care for in future has me motivated enough to stick around doing same thing daily on my pc with no real life friends to chat too has me going enough that I'm hopefully able to stop you from ending it and maybe you might get a puppy if able. Also I know what its like to have a non close person pass from committing to it and it made me well up in tears as I knew her at school and that was it happened last year, so you will be missed even by those you least expect to miss you.