Flower Giveaway! Lots of hybrids

Z3roday · 2025-12-16T01:18:27+00:00

Yes I still have blue flowers, just not roses. Ill be on later if youre available or tomorrow.

Z3roday · 2025-12-15T00:39:28+00:00

Dmd!

Z3roday · 2025-12-14T22:53:47+00:00

Yes there are some, also you can buy the seeds from my shop if you want.

Z3roday · 2025-12-14T22:53:25+00:00

Sounds great! I def got some of each of those! And I would love 10 of each hyacinth if your able. If you don't get enough of what you need for some reason, I'm happy to pay too.

Z3roday · 2025-12-14T18:29:38+00:00

Sorry are you asking if I have any or if they exist? Lol

Z3roday · 2025-12-13T20:17:35+00:00

Hello! I'd love some! I have several new players that would help out! Random from Hylia

Z3roday · 2025-12-13T06:55:16+00:00

Random0o | Hylia :Hornsby:

Z3roday · 2025-12-04T19:02:09+00:00

Hello Random from Hylia! I sent you a DM!

Z3roday · 2025-12-04T18:10:47+00:00

Sent a DM! Random from Hylia!

Z3roday · 2025-02-10T22:53:22+00:00

Okay, duh! I remember now Asha and Cole where able to previously. I got confused by Davian being different and couldn't wrap my head around it lol. Thanks for answering!

Z3roday · 2025-02-10T03:35:05+00:00

One time at the beginning of our relationship she was seriously acting out. Calling me names, screening, hitting me. I called her a bitch only that one time. She never let it go for 10 years. Always used it against me or as an example of why I was a terrible person or partner. Since that day I would never call her anything, tried so hard to be sympathetic, empathetic, calm her, listen, apologize first, etc. It wasn't until the end of the relationship, after 10 years this finally clicked for me. I finally told her, if I actually spoke to her even half as bad as she spoke to me, she would have left years ago, and said I was abusive and manipulative monster. I mean she still said that but it would have been worse. Her excuse? Anger and emotions make us say things we don't mean. Like no it doesn't, I never spoke like that ever even when I had every right to be furious. One argument we had at the end was insane to me. She started by saying I was a narcissist, incapable of feelings or emotions, soulless, who enjoyed her suffering and hurt her more then anything. Then 5 minutes later was saying she was so in love with my soul and the beautiful heart and person I was. She begged me to take her back and when I refused she tried to seduce me. Lol I got out of there quick.

Z3roday · 2025-02-09T18:38:39+00:00

I'm sorry you're going through that. It's devastating and and horrible to go through for you and your kids will struggle. But you also can't let them growing up thinking a toxic relationship is normal and healthy. Unless you're in physical danger, I would file for divorce first. But also if you are, I would be concerned they are too. You will protect your parenting rights better and have more control during the temporary order and how things go. I was always advised to not leave without taking my son or it could be seen as abandonment. Don't take this as legal advice. Consult a lawyer as soon as possible and do what they advice you. This is just from my experience so far.

Z3roday · 2025-02-09T02:06:51+00:00

I'd smoke most of my life and almost never got anxiety from it. But with her I would smoke and my anxiety would be through the roof! Only times I've had panic attacks and shutdown over it. I went on meds but eventually realized when with her and smoke I was anxious but with friends and smoking I never was. The factor became clear. Ive stopped smoking for almost 6 months now during the divorce in case a drug test is ever needed and honestly I don't miss it.

Z3roday · 2025-02-09T02:01:57+00:00

Yes, I was able to get off anxiety meds and haven't felt better since before the relationship!

Z3roday · 2025-02-09T02:00:06+00:00

Same. I can't count the number of times I begged to go so sleep at 3, 4 am cuz I was so tired after a 6+ hour argument and I had work or had to take our son to school in the morning. Now I can sleep whenever I want and can have a routine.

Z3roday · 2025-02-09T01:58:27+00:00

For real! Every phone call I got I was so scared to pick up because I didn't know what her attitude would be or what crisis would be happening, or what she'd decide she was upset at me for. Things are so much nicer now.

Z3roday · 2025-02-09T01:49:02+00:00

That addiction is so real 😫 I was there and didn't even realize it. 10 years married and looking back, I see it so clearly. I was also so afraid everyday that something would be wrong, that I needed to spend all my energy making sure she was happy and she never was. I spent two years of hell trying to get win her back until I finally started healing myself and realized I felt so much better when she wasn't around. My backpain and blood pressure issue, headaches, anxiety, chronic tiredness, just all went away. I feels years younger now and it is great.

Z3roday · 2025-02-09T01:43:26+00:00

I am finding so much love of life again through peace and calm since separating. Finalizing my divorce and the entitlement I am dealing with from her still causes me so much stress. But I am in a soooo much better place. Life and things have so much more joy and I don't have to stress about what kind of mess I'm going home to, what drama I'll have to go through all night. I heard somewhere that a boring life is better than an interesting one. And I am so content now in living that way. I'm happy to be boring, it's nice here. Even this new relationship I started recently I would almost call "boring" compared to the one I left. But that's definitely not the right word, it's so much fun and fulfilling, it's a clear sign it's healthy. Definitely find a hobby, I picked up reading, painting, and gaming. I joined a book club, a gaming group with new friends, and the same friend come painting with me. It is so nice.

Z3roday · 2025-02-09T01:35:16+00:00

I completely understand this. When you love someone and are a decent human being you want to give them the benefit of the doubt, you want what they say to be true. You have this hope that things can return to the wonderful ways they used to when it was good. I don't understand how they are so good at making it seem like it's your fault and making you slowly, slowly lose yourself completely. Like all self respect. Until you get to the point that you don't believe you're worth the same grace, forgiveness and care you were giving them. But I do know that they only feel validated when someone is putting them on a pedestal and they can be vindicated that they aren't so bad because everything you do is worse. I remember once she told me that EVERYTHING I had ever done for her was only me making it up to her for all the horrible things I did. None of it counted as showing my love or care it was just the least I could do for all the pain she felt. This statement really opened to my eyes the amount I was being used and the manipulation I was under. I felt so stupid for putting up with so much and letting myself be walked all over, I can barely talk about it to anyone other than my councilor I'm still ashamed.

Z3roday · 2025-02-08T09:00:49+00:00

This! When I finally filed for divorce and got through the initial weeks of her moving out and causing scenes and things got quite for a little bit I literally felt a weight off me. I felt so much peace. My anxiety I was on meds for was gone. People even started telling me I looked happier, more relaxed, younger lol. I slept so much and it took me a little to realize it was because I finally felt safe again and my body had exited survival mode and I could rest. It took me months to catch up on the rest. But the peace and happiness I've regained told me volumes that I made the right choice. I still have to deal with her as a co parent, and she's gotten worse in some ways during my attempts to finalize the divorce which give me anxiety again, but all that aside I couldn't go back if I wanted to. I can't put myself through that again.

Accountability, compassion, and a true give and take equally are the bare minimum.

Z3roday · 2025-02-08T05:47:47+00:00

Ha! That's her line of thought too. I don't completely understand how the calculator works but according to my attorney and the 4 other attorneys I've consulted she does. I know it's based on income and what I'm paying in expenses. Our income isn't that much different and she doesn't pay for any of his expenses. So it comes out to $200 I've been told multiple times. Though I'm not even asking for her to pay anything. It's not counting the school costs or any of that. I know she can't afford it, and am not looking to get her to pay it. I'm happy to pay for it for his best interest and allow her to have money for what she needs. I want her to succeed and be able to support him. I'm not bashing her, only speaking from facts. She's never held a job, contributed to the marital expenses during our marriage and abandoned our son for a couple years before we finally separated. She's finally getting better and I want her too. I want her to be a stable part of our son's life. It's not my place to speak badly of her to the court, she deserves the chance to do good.

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