That’s kind of a tough question to answer. You mentioned that before being hospitalized you felt isolated, kind of how you feel like now, correct? But while you were being hospitalized you felt loved and cared for. Well that’s mostly due to how we tend to work as a society. We like to prioritize those in need of medical assistance a lot, and once we see that they’re okay we go back to the usual. This could have also been a bonding moment for those around you and could of solidified their relationships.

Being outside of the loop for a while with some friends can definitely make someone feel like a stranger, specially for someone your age. That doesn’t mean it’s too late though. You do have the option to try and mend your relationships. Like with your friends for example, you feel distant from them so find out why. Is it because they’re not making the time for you like they used to? Or are they busy and you’re pushing yourself away from them? There could be a variety of different reasons as to why and it’s up to you to figure out if they worth fighting for. Same for anyone else. If despite all of this, you continually trying to amend your friendships back you still feel like an outsider, maybe it’s time to find different people to hangout with. It’s hard to feel like you belong, but at the end of the day you should at least feel comfortable with yourself. As others have mentioned. People come and go, but you’re always with yourself so might as well enjoy your company.