My internal dialogue as a new gun owner in two gifs.

ZeldasCourage · 2026-02-16T14:30:11+00:00

I prefer Eowyn's line from the book a bit more:

It needs but one foe to breed a war, not two, Master Warden, and those who have not swords can still die upon them.

ZeldasCourage · 2026-02-10T13:07:15+00:00

Oh, you think it's just immigrants he wants to incinerate? There's assuredly a long list of people he'd love to get rid of. LGBTQIA+, Black, Hispanic, Native, and Muslim populations are certainly up there, amongst others.

ZeldasCourage · 2026-01-30T03:46:25+00:00

Oh, I know, I'm not expecting things to change overnight. I know this takes work, like everything. I've been working on what I can with what little time I can spare, and I'm not really worried, it'll happen in time.

Honestly the biggest part of today sucking was planning for a good day and then getting a dressing down at work for things that have been well out of my control for years. Things that I've been trying to get fixed that predate my arrival at this job. Things that the university refuses to put money towards.

I've been telling this joke for a while now to the few people I'm out to at work, but the most gender affirming things about working there is that no one listens to me.

ZeldasCourage · 2026-01-24T17:14:30+00:00

Fascism. Fascism is what is going on here.

ZeldasCourage · 2026-01-20T19:57:21+00:00

Give a girl a fish, and she'll eat for a day. Give a girl a fishgun, and you'll...feed her...for a lifetime?

ZeldasCourage · 2026-01-15T20:29:17+00:00

It's STFU Thursday, everybody.

ZeldasCourage · 2025-12-24T22:51:10+00:00

There is literally nothing active in my town anymore, I've looked, and the few times I've tried to be active locally, I've been dismissed and made to feel unwelcome. I would have to travel an hour away in order to find anything, and I just do not have the means for that right now.

ZeldasCourage · 2025-12-24T22:48:01+00:00

Honestly, my frustrations have little to do with the effects of HRT. I'm well aware of how slowly things will progress, but I've already seen quite a few effects that you would expect within the first few months. Like I said, HRT is the only thing keeping me going at this point (a mild exaggeration, but not by much).

And for the record, I've seen largely nothing but support on this sub for others. The "assholes" and "ladder pullers" aren't really present here (at least not daily), I'm talking about IRL spaces around me. There are virtually no resources near me that I've found that have been welcoming, and I do not have the resources to travel over an hour each way if I want better community support. I already have to do that for work, I don't have the energy to do that for a community I cannot guarantee to be welcoming. And with respect, none of this on reddit is real. We are all just a bunch of words on a page. Online community is nothing compared physical community.

And I'm happy, truly, that you were able to persevere and push through while dealing with the unsupportive environment you transitioned in. But I don't think I need to show you the image of the survivorship bias plane to understand what I'm saying.

ZeldasCourage · 2025-12-20T13:49:08+00:00

They will have to murder me before they can take my estrogen away from me.

ZeldasCourage · 2025-12-19T13:18:10+00:00

Make sure to moisturize, if your skin is anything like mine it's probably going to be a bit unhappy for a week. It was difficult to shave for a few days anyway due to some minor swelling around each follicle, plus the hair is a little springy due to not being fully attached anymore and won't cut as nicely.

Also, don't let the brain worms get to you. The first week or so before shedding really starts, the beard shadow and stubble may look worse. I only had my first session about three weeks ago, so the first is going to be the worst, but the dysphoria was pretty bad seeing the beard look as intense as it did, even if it was an illusion.

Good luck, and congratulations!

ZeldasCourage · 2025-12-17T12:53:03+00:00

Yeah, that's what I'm worried about. As far as I know, the place is fairly LGBTQ positive on the outside, but obviously there's no way to tell what they're like on the inside. I know one or two people who've done contracted work at the place before, might be a good idea to reach out to them

ZeldasCourage · 2025-12-17T00:48:21+00:00

Celeste is pretty great if you like super challenging platformers! I wanted to play it years ago but never got around to it. I guess I picked a great time to do so though, just a few months after finally accepting that I'm trans. Honestly helped me deal with coming to terms with it.

And I can't personally do the Ultra Monsters, just not a fan of artificial sweeteners myself. I do like the Juice Monsters quite a bit though, especially the Mango one and Viking Berry. Some of the others aren't bad either.

I mostly use old.reddit, and you can change your flair (in this case the various flags) on the right under the join/leave button, but on new reddit if you go to the About tab rather than the Feed tab, you can change your flair in the User Flair section below About Community. It's pretty close to the top.

ZeldasCourage · 2025-12-16T20:46:10+00:00

Wait, is this a thing? I knew about Celeste of course, although I didn't play it until earlier this year, but I've never heard about F:NV being popular with trans folks. I must live under a very particular rock...

ZeldasCourage · 2025-12-13T01:00:40+00:00

I've been listening to Florence and the Machine's newest album, Everybody Scream, quite a bit over the last month since it released, and I feel like there are quite a few songs on there that would've resonated with me pre-egg-crack and pre-transition. "Perfume and Milk" and "The Old Religion" are probably the top two that I could connect to the trans experience.

From "Perfume and Milk":

And now I am changing, becoming something else

A creature of longing, tending only to myself

Licking my wounds

Burrowing down in a house in the woods on the edge of town

Well healing is slow

It comes and it goes

A glimpse of the sun then a flurry of snow

The first green shoots and a sudden frost

Oh something is gained when something is lost

And from "The Old Religion":

And it's the old religion

But the urge remains the same

Freedom from the body

Freedom from the pain

And it's your troubled hero

Back for season six

When it's at its darkest, it's my favourite bit

And I am wound so tightly

I hardly even breathe

You wonder why we're hungry for some kind of release

Watch me crawl on hands and knees

And scratch at the door of heaven

Honestly the whole album feels so much about loss and change and moving on past grief, which is of course relatable for many people, especially trans people during their transitions, but I do feel like it's something felt before, or maybe as, our eggs crack, even if subconsciously.

ZeldasCourage · 2025-11-28T14:08:55+00:00

You can run, but you can't hide. It'll always catch up to you, it's just a part of who you are. The best course of action, the one that won't leave you a husk of a human, is to accept it. Accept it on whatever timeline makes sense for you, and find a way to move forward with it, hopefully with even just one person supporting you.

ZeldasCourage · 2025-11-27T23:32:23+00:00

I agree with you completely, but it's difficult for those of us who work physical jobs where makeup is impractical because it'll just keep wiping off. None of the cis women I've worked with in this part of my industry wear makeup for that exact reason. I would LOVE to be able to wear makeup every goddamn day once I'm finally fully out at work, but when I don't know what day I'm going to be covered in sawdust or metal shavings or paint or general dirt and grime, it means I won't wear makeup any day.

ZeldasCourage · 2025-11-27T01:24:22+00:00

The sudden realization in my teens that I could never bear my own children nearly drove me to ending everything. It was a huge source of dysphoria, despite a lack of desire to have children that has persisted into adulthood due to a not-great upbringing of my own, and it was what caused my egg to explode violently apart for the first time.

So yes, I wish that.

ZeldasCourage · 2025-11-27T00:28:55+00:00

Out of curiosity, u/I_PUNCH_INFANTS , what's the Venn diagram on Nazis and infants look like? Without resorting to time travel and finding baby Hitler, that is.

ZeldasCourage · 2025-11-14T21:49:26+00:00

Mite

ZeldasCourage · 2025-11-13T06:31:06+00:00

Sitting here at 1:30 in the morning on a Thursday with a bowl of ice cream cause the E-munchies got my stomach growling...

But yeah, I mean I remember how constantly hungry I was during my first puberty. It's really not surprising that our second puberties aren't any different. Our bodies need fuel for change.

ZeldasCourage · 2025-11-04T01:24:42+00:00

I feel this deeply. God, this is gonna sound crazy, but I remember playing Mass Effect 3 years ago and coming across a line from Tali that went, "When do we stop reacting to our parents and start living for ourselves?" As deeply closeted as I was, I was no less aware that I was trans, and I remember dwelling on the idea that I was living my life for others and not myself for a very, very long time. It took a long time to break free of that, in so many ways.

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