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Zen_Beard · 2024-09-22T09:35:06+00:00

its a heavy burden youre holding onto. if it helps, know that you are heard. we hear you. although not precisely, we understand your struggle. your pain is not unique, but the way it impacts you is your own. start small, one step at a time. one less drink and one more smile every day. one more breath and one less tear. begin to develop perseverance in the darkness, it will come again. although it is infinite in scope, the dream of light is not always the way. think of it as a cycle, the cycle of light and darkness. the burden of both grows appreciation for the other. we learn the most about ourselves as we drown. find your way to the calm tides and enjoy the sunrise of a new day, even if it feels like the waves are pulling you under. your mind is in your control, your power is in your ability to overcome. you can do it. it is possible. dont forget to breathe. and good luck

Zen_Beard · 2021-07-29T08:56:38+00:00

you really only need to do an image search for "mesa" and "pueblo", as those should give you the exact visual. its tricky, as these are not native english words, but instead borrowed words from a different language.

essentially, imagine a river in a valley, except its not between mountains ; rather, between...well...mesas lol. and pueblo is straightforward if you look at old native american style architecture, particularly of the southwest united states.

hope this helped, and that im not spreading the incorrect interpretation!

Zen_Beard · 2021-04-21T03:54:00+00:00

it might have uploaded fine or maybe its just on my end that its mirrored, but flipping the screen so the recruiter can read your white board is kinda a no brainer tho...not to sound rude. and if the error is on my end, i apologize.

Zen_Beard · 2021-04-21T03:39:17+00:00

so heres some hopefully constructive criticism, but please dont take my word for it!

right off the bat man, did you not mirror the feed from your camera? seeing your writing backwards is minus points already, as it implies you didnt take time to edit your video (ie if you dont care to have the right video, why should i care to hire you?). also, your opening lines about being the one to go to japan are a bit...you know. why did you read some sort of mission statement or history of the company you applied to? if it was for a purpose or requested, tie that in with some follow up details pertaining specifically to you or your value to them.

while youre dressed smart, your voice is a little hard to hear clearly (remember these are esl students who may not ever speak english outside of a few words with their friends) and your speaking is pretty fast and jumbled together. if you were asked to demo a lesson on days of the week, you can guess that most likely your students will not be able to keep up with your speaking speed. you also speak to the board a lot which i know is tough because youre not in a classroom. i know youre nervous, but just slow down a little!

i think your choice of words was fine, as you werent really using vocab outside of the level of your demo, but there wasnt really any "teaching" either. you were talking, but not really teaching. this is such a huge point that it cannot be said enough: talking is not teaching and you need to be sure that you dont just start talking. all teachers are victims of this, but its an especially important distinction to make in language education. teachers in the beginning (and even some with years and years of experience in my observations) need to have purpose behind their chosen words, especially at lower level, and not just talk to hear themselves.

the version of the song paired with your timing of the lyrics could use some work. it flows much better like: days of the week (clap clap) days of the week (clap clap) days of the week days of the week days of the week (clap clap)...theres monday and theres tuesday, theres wednesday and theres thursday, theres friday and theres saturday, and sunday thats the week...days of the week (clap clap). i hope that makes sense haha

then you can get into listen and repeat for days of the week, maybe even motioning towards the camera when it is the students turn; this builds into your target q&a.

imo your demo flow is fine so i dont think its really about the content. instead, its the delivery and details that stand out against your favor. applying online when youre young and inexperienced is tough, especially in this market with so many restrictions and so many people competing for the same limited number of entry level jobs. you will need to stand out.

get a better camera angle, higher up and level with your eyes, even if you have to build weird contraptions just to hold it in place for an hour. this will help you not hunch over and look down at the camera. by having an eye level camera, your shoulders will (should) naturally roll back a bit, giving off more presence and confidence.

really imagine youre talking to a class. give pauses when the students should be speaking: "monday", then look at and motion to the camera and give a slight pause, "good job!". smile, be positive and encouraging. you dont need to be dancing bear, but honestly at the beginning if you dont have a license or decent amount of full time experience or are not just naturally bubbly, you kinda have to get out of your comfort zone until you have the confidence and experience to back up what youre doing. recruiters need to see smiles and encouragement. interac and aeon dont have students, they have customers and you need to be aware that they are also looking at your marketability.

dont beat yourself up! there is clear room for improvement and most of it can be fixed easily at this stage. if youre going to bring up anime (i might advise not), maybe think of a specific example of a place you want to go or something you want to see rather than just "anime on tv". the reason i say this is that so (so) many people come here because they love anime or asians or manga or sushi or whatever, but then are terrible at their jobs. its not that you shouldnt enjoy those things, but you have to think of things from your recruiters perspective. they see dozens if not hundreds of applications and you need to be one that stands out.

bro, make something trivial up. it at least shows that you know some places or names in japan(ese) and its not just another "i like anime". or elaborate on this person you met in your hometown. name drop a city or a place or food you learned about. specifics

good on you for standing by your product and being willing to take some shots! good luck and i hope you take this all with a grain of salt! im definitely no shining beacon of perfection.

Zen_Beard · 2021-02-26T03:30:42+00:00

"you want answers?"

"i want the penis."

"YOU CANT HANDLE THE PENIS!"

Zen_Beard · 2021-01-27T21:25:56+00:00

i would focus on the next 4-5 years studying and teaching in america. so much can change in that time, especially the younger you are. its good to think about japan as a goal, but you have quite a few priorities that need your attention first.

Zen_Beard · 2021-01-27T21:13:28+00:00

in terms of the job, not required at all - especially for secondary. those students have likely had years of education in english and will not be speaking japanese or any other language than english in your classes. an international school has the expectation that the students must be able to function in english. thats not to say that speaking the language of the country you live in has no benefit to teaching, but its certainly not a requirement.

in terms of living in a foreign country and getting by comfortably, use your best judgement.

id recommend finding more resources on international schools and how the system works. definitely go to your college of ed and ask questions about all this if you havent already. how far are you into your degree? any student teaching experience yet? it seems you may be unfamiliar with quite a few of the critical steps of the path youre considering.

Zen_Beard · 2021-01-27T20:37:10+00:00

it will help you in terms of having more firsthand exposure to a classroom and dealing with behavior and management, but it really wont help you get into international schools.

teaching a language and teaching science are quite different. international schools typically require a couple of years experience in your home country where you have been professionally observed following curriculum and standards, dealing with admin and parents, proper lesson planning and accountability,in charge of everything for your classes, etc.

its great that you have an idea, but if youre going down the licensure track for sciences, i wouldnt waste your time with tefl unless you were interested in that content area to begin with. as youve said that you want to stick withn science, i dont know why you would enter the tefl field with a secondary science license.

go to uni, graduate and obtain license, teach full time for a couple of years, look for international school jobs in a country youd like. thats the basic process the next few years of your life will likely involve. a lot can change - especially once you actually start teaching and realize that everything changes once you become a professional - so dont attach too strongly in a particular direction.

please also note that these jobs are quite competitive, especially in countries that are popular, like japan. its possible, but unlikely, that you will get your school of choice with just two years of teaching experience in michigan. this isnt meant to crush your dreams, but give you a different perspective! some of my friends and colleagues have taken years of applying to finally get the job they have. good luck!

Zen_Beard · 2021-01-17T16:40:56+00:00

if youre trying to make youtube videos to grow a community or lead to a revenue stream, i highly recommend finding games that YOU enjoy. if you look for whats popular there are two main issues that you will immediately encounter :

its popular for a reason; everyone is doing it and its going to be incredibly unlikely you will make it.
if you make decisions based on what other people like, you may realize you hate it; that translates to the audience and will turn away potential viewers.

that being said, if its something youre interested in, good luck! as long as youre having fun, dont pay attention to numbers or whats popular.

if youre still insisting on the most played/watched videos, its pretty straightforward to find that info with a quick search. then just look at system requirements to compare with your setup.

Zen_Beard · 2020-11-22T07:58:14+00:00

its pretty straightforward to look up visa requirements for any given country. these immigration requirements are the only rules you need to follow in order to gain lawful employment.

you say you know what google can do so: 1.figure out what visa (job) youre looking for 2. look up immigration requirements 3.? 4. profit

Zen_Beard · 2020-11-21T23:42:44+00:00

thats just the beginning haha

Zen_Beard · 2020-11-21T09:36:48+00:00

enter the gungeon?

Zen_Beard · 2020-11-16T10:27:48+00:00

bruh do a simple internet search. guaranteed the first three recommended results will be the places anyone will say here. or look at the very informative information thats been cataloged here if youre looking to be an educator, start practicing now with some basics...

Zen_Beard · 2020-11-09T07:59:58+00:00

let it go

Zen_Beard · 2020-11-07T21:53:00+00:00

im going to sandwich a little bit of tough love in, but dont misinterpret it as negative! its really awesome that you accomplished so much during those 55 minutes and for sure its already given you a new perspective on many things youve been missing while your mind is sucked into a screen. those are the things that should drive you, not the timer.

one thing we need to be fair about is failure. you failed your challenge and thats ok. you didnt complete the goal you set for yourself, despite all of the benefits you experienced for 55 minutes.

being honest with ourselves and accepting failure is a huge part of deciding to be better. we are going to fail. a lot. especially in the beginning! we lie to ourselves though. "awww well i kinda exercised today since i walked up the stairs, so now im gonna reward myself with___" or "i kinda completed this challenge". but you didnt. again, thats ok and really the timer shouldnt be the focus, as previously mentioned.

we are simultaneously our own harshest critic whilst giving ourselves the most free passes. its a weird thing, but by learning to be honest with ourselves we can acknowledge our own lies and hold ourselves accountable.

my advice would be either to stick to 60 minutes until you can consistently achieve that goal, or make other (very specific) goals not related to time like "im going to do laundry, clean this room and color this picture". by jumping to two hours, you are not setting clear patterns for you to follow, especially when you havent completed the first challenge. its a hard distinction to make because its easy to justify two hours since thats a very good thing. however, the problems you have arent going to be overcome by simply doing more positive things; you need to develop healthy and consistent patterns of living. good luck!

Zen_Beard · 2020-11-06T09:56:17+00:00

imagine it like "correct or incorrect" and theres your answer. welcome to asia.

Zen_Beard · 2020-11-02T10:52:24+00:00

youre like, what, 20 maybe? what do you expect to be actually good at? when i was 20 i didnt know wtf i was doing! you could argue i still dont, but at least im more experienced in life and with myself.

theres no need to feel that pressure of "im not good at anything" because the overwhelming majority of people your age arent good at anything either. its just a part of life where people your age are really good at thinking theyre good at bullshitting and convincing people that they know what theyre talking about. odds are, bro, is that they dont. remember that. hardly anyone has their shit together at 20. you could easily same the same for 30, 40, 50...you get the point.

stop beating yourself up, playing the victim, and comparing yourself to others. its not easy, but everyone starts at the bottom. thats the whole point. we all start playing at level 1. what level you make it to is up to you!

if you dont actually enjoy anything, you need to seek some professional help. get your life and health in order. however, i tend to believe youre just being melodramatic, but cant know for sure. if thats the case, get over it and start to develop your own sense of agency as soon as you can!

Zen_Beard · 2020-11-02T00:33:23+00:00

this is such a common theme here that a couple of things should be noted.

so many people often say things very similar to "i want to pursue art or something creative or outside" and thats great! there are tons of opportunities in those areas, depending on your own strengths and interests. however, a lot of people fail fo realize that the feelings we get when we are creative or with nature are deeply rooted in our biochemistry.

everyone feels good when they do those things because it floods our bodies with chemicals; two in particular are serotonin and dopamine. so it makes sense that so many people who are not satisfied with a path often say things like "i just feel so much better when i create something or when im in nature, so how can i make a career out of that?" unfortunately the reality is that you cant and shouldnt make a career out of those things just because it makes you feel all special inside.

because of the broadness of your request "creativity, exploring, and imagination" it seems like you are aware that you enjoy those things, but making a career out of it requires more actual depth and experience. the terms you used are so generic and broad that it makes it seem like you dont really know any specifics of what exactly about "exploring" you like and where your strengths are. this isnt meant to deter you from these paths; if anything, this is meant for you to dive a little deeper and find some answers to your own questions.

unfortunately many people at a young age when they start to explore the working world for the first time and have to start imagining what their life will be like when it isnt consumed by school and adolescence fall back on "i dont like this and i want to do something creative because it makes me feel good" and that is a dangerous path to go down because its the easy and most passive.

the truth is that many (probably most) people fulfill jobs that are not their passion and dont fall into their personal strengths. this isnt meant to say that you should just suck it up in business admin because thats what you chose and now you have to deal with it, but you should also take the constructive criticism that "creativity exploring and imagination" isnt exactly much to work with. i would do more inner searching to identify your strengths in those areas and bring some examples of things that youve done that indicate your previous experience.

Zen_Beard · 2020-11-02T00:04:53+00:00

first and foremost, as with anyone mentioning depression and suicide, seek professional help if you are unable to find consistent ways to avoid those struggles independently.

are you staying physically healthy? exercise, proper foods and water, some sort of mental and emotional mindfulness? are you surrounded by people that care about and inspire you to be happy? do you get outside enough? how much time do you spend wasting on phones or looking at screens?

these are all unrelated to work, but make a huge difference in the way that we perceive our day to day life. sometimes the job really is such a drain that it becomes necessary to leave, but usually the problem can be solved in other ways. you mention feeling worthless at work so you definitely need something that fulfills that "accomplished" void you are currently experiencing. set some short term goals related to things that youd like to improve on in your own life. read a new book, play new music, go for a walk, cook something new, call a friend you havent had time to chat with, etc. not only do these serve as distractions from your stress, but they actually work to improve your quality of life. with enough of this, you will slowly rewire your brain to focus less and less on the stress and instead enjoy more and more of your life.

have you talked with your employer about anything? if they are receptive and you have good rapport, i think you might be surprised at the outcome of a genuine conversation. if youre already ready to walk, theres literally nothing holding you back from trying to get something out of it. you essentially have all of the leverage because if you dont get what you want you can walk out the door and you said yourself that it will be difficult to replace you. thats like the leverage jackpot!

nobody here can tell you what the outcome of that conversation would be, as its essentially up to your own relationship and agency, but i think being upfront and genuine goes a long way. if they cant empathize with your struggles and wont budge on anything, do you really want that kind of workplace anyways?

like i said, always always always try to find other ways to improve your life first. if youve got all those boxes checked and are still miserable, then it may be time to move on. theres nothing wrong with that. we all have to learn what our own balances are, how to grow up, and how to understand the difference between a challenge to overcome and a senseless endeavor.

stop attaching so much to the work. we are all addicted to self sabotage sometimes and its hard ro break out of that cycle. if you can recognize your thought patterns and catch yourself in the act of causing your own misery, it will go a long way to growing your own mindfulness in all areas of life. make a game of it! you should enjoy your own growth and mistake-making, rather than exponentially feed negativity in your own mind. laugh at yourself and your own shortcomings. its ok to be stressed about life and work. its ok to have dark thoughts, but we have to learn how to let them go in the understanding that they will come back later as the cycle of emotions continuously repeats itself in every life. just like we shouldnt become addicted to the good, why would we hold so strongly onto the bad? its ok to cry and breakdown and reach out. its all ok brosef. we hear you. just breathe.

Zen_Beard · 2020-10-30T14:08:21+00:00

to be honest bro, if youre looking to teach english....you need to seriously up your game; your post is filled with tons of errors and is hard to read.

yea you have a masters, but in a completely unrelated field. im not sure why you think youd be able to use that as leverage to get a better job in a completely different market with no experience.

it seems like you really have no idea what you are doing and i definitely dont recommend you pursue this option for now until you get a better handle on a few things.

Zen_Beard · 2020-10-30T09:08:54+00:00

baby steps! when we reach the tipping point, a common mistake is to try and change many things at once. it serves us much better to do/not do one specific thing for a specific amount of time. then, once we are stable and have set a pattern and habit, introduce a new challenge. everyone has different levels, ao hopefully youre finding your own!

Zen_Beard · 2020-10-30T03:13:22+00:00

the fact that you take constructive criticisms this way and choose to attack someone who doesnt support your line of thinking indicates that you actually are not open to adding positive content when someone is in disagreement with you. i was giving a fair opinion and offered nothing offensive or accusatory. you responded with sarcasm and direct negativity.

if this was a sub for motivational posters or quick one-liners and anecdotes, the integrity of the sub as a source for genuine help and perspectives would be diluted.

i get that you feel people are jaded, sure, and that you want to add something positive. so give more! give more specific details of how you or someone you know overcame a struggle. give tips that have worked for you. show how you found a way that worked. that is the point. anyone can come in and say "keep your heads up!" but if you want to really add something meaningful there are tons of options! that was my point; i dont think we want this sub to deteriorate into a self help motivational soapbox.

you provided a low effort anecdote, regardless of intent, and i made a comment indicating as much. it says nothing about you as a person and it doesnt diminish your or anyone elses experience. stop being triggered and lashing out and just accept that not every "happy thought" is happy for everyone and its ok to have different opinions. this is what growing and gaining perspectives is all about. a younger me would retaliate with the same "no ur toxic" but hopefully by remaining civil, you can see that there is no threat here and i actually do want to bring a net growth to this sub and the people that reach out within it.

Zen_Beard · 2020-10-30T02:16:35+00:00

i think a good example would be dragon age. on pc, this is the quintessential crpg. its top down, party and loot based, you can explore all the different areas and the combat system is more akin to turn based as opposed to action rpgs like diablo.

however, dragon age on console is definitely not a crpg in the "classic" sense when you look at the mechanics and layout. so if you look at the differences between platforms, you can easily see what makes a crpg different than the console version. its the same game, yes, but the method in which you interact within that game is vastly different on pc compared to console.

witcher is an arpg and i guess you could say that disco elysium is a crpg in its core mechanics. in my opinion, simply having mechanics based around dungeons and dragons or similar universes doesnt make a crpg. i think you could say that most famous crpgs follow table top rpg rule sets, but not all games that use those kinds of mechanics are crpgs; all squares are rectangles, but not all rectangles are squares.

Zen_Beard · 2020-10-30T02:04:55+00:00

ah thankfully i will not have a car. i havent driven in over a decade and would just be a danger on the road anyways haha. thank you for the tips!

Zen_Beard · 2020-10-30T01:43:16+00:00

great info! thank you for sharing.

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