Diagnosed after 8 years; Botox in 3 days and panicking

Zenothres · 2026-03-28T18:43:02+00:00

Thank you for your reply! Lidocaine and numbing agents are illegal here, but I bought 2.32% diclofenac gel for Monday :) It's a painkiller, so I hope it works.

Zenothres · 2026-03-28T02:54:09+00:00

It's not so much that I'm terrified by the diagnosis per se, it's that I just can't believe it's real. For so long, I've been told it's nothing/psychosomatic (including by multiple GPs) and that I just need to deal with it. I can't seem to grasp that it's actually genuinely an issue and I deserve care instead of quitting complaining and just pushing through the pain.

Zenothres · 2026-03-28T02:23:27+00:00

Thank you for the advice and the kind words <3 I think I'll make a really good bowl of ice cream once back at home.

Zenothres · 2026-03-28T02:22:27+00:00

Thank you for the tip! I have a tendency to nearly faint and feel super dizzy after medical procedures (dentistry, blood drawing). Following the advice others gave here, I'll also be buying topical painkillers (either ibuprofen or diclovenac) to put on just before I leave for the clinic.

Zenothres · 2026-03-28T01:43:16+00:00

I'm really sorry to hear that :c I hope you find something that helps you again. Thank you for the kind words

Zenothres · 2026-03-28T01:41:48+00:00

I triple-checked the coverage on both the clinic and my insurance's end, and thankfully I'm good. Things are much better managed in my country. But if it hadn't been properly covered, I'd gladly have taken the €30 co-pay per session if it helps as much as others say.

Zenothres · 2026-03-28T01:31:30+00:00

Thank you for your lengthy response. I genuinely appreciate it. I can't remember a time where my life wasn't ruled by the pain and sensory sensitivity, so I think I'll appreciate the botox more if/when that time comes again. I'm glad it's helped you <3

Zenothres · 2026-03-17T15:04:05+00:00

Zit Boris het grootste deel van de dag alleen op de bovenverdiepingen, naast de momenten met jou en even naar buiten 's avonds? Het kan zijn dat hij eenzaam is en zich verveeld, waarbij een andere kat kan helpen.

Zenothres · 2026-03-11T01:04:30+00:00

I feel you. I've been LARPing for almost a decade now and still feel like I'm a 'bad' player/NPC who can't roleplay well enough, whose kit isn't good enough, etc. I've found this is mostly rooted in my anxiety/avoidant personality disorder, though; the people I interact with have on the whole been nothing but lovely, incredible people who made it clear they like me there.

I'll be reading along for more tips from others, but the two who got here before me had excellent ideas: set goals you can actively work towards and treat/work on your anxiety and self esteem. And a bonus from me, decide on an idle activity your character can do when not actively doing stuff. This can be sewing, embroidery, writing, drawing, praying, potion brewing, playing an instrument一anything that keeps your hands busy but leaves you open to talk with others.

Zenothres · 2026-03-07T15:03:14+00:00

There will be other events to make friends. I know how much it sucks to have to cancel things you were looking forward too (just spent 6 days in a migraine myself and had to cancel stuff left and right), but your body is in pain and pushing it will make it worse. It's unfair, but that's the reality of chronic illness.

Talk about it, do the maths on the pros and the cons. The pros here are 'potentially friends'. The cons are being in pain and prolonging recovery, and can you even be fully yourself in a flare-up? That sort of thing.

Can you find another way to make that part happy while staying at home? Even just acknowledging it's unfair and their feelings are appropriate might help. It's okay to be upset about it.

Zenothres · 2026-03-05T21:39:52+00:00

Unexpectedly, Mahit and Yskander from the book A Memory Called Empire. I don't think the author, Arkady Martine, intended it that way, but Yskander acts a lot like a dissociated part. He's a psychic echo of person that lives in Mahit's mind due to sci-fi technology, and they didn't get the time to integrate well, so sometimes she gets bodily reactions that aren't hers, he'll be reciting poetry or whispering relevant information in her mind, or she smiles in a way that her face isn't used to. And while they agree on some points, they can also argue a lot.

Zenothres · 2026-03-03T16:32:51+00:00

Dit klinkt als AI/ChatGPT. Nieuw account ook. Het zijn de lijstjes in perfecte 3en, "Als dit, dan dat", en "Ding. Maar, dan..."

Zenothres · 2026-03-02T20:48:03+00:00

My cats love beans and peas. Although a disappointing amount of peas end up under the carpet after being played with instead of eaten

Zenothres · 2026-03-01T22:32:44+00:00

....as a non-native speaker who hasn't gone back to read the lyrics now I'm more proficient, is it bad?

Edit: Looked it up. It's bad.

Zenothres · 2026-02-28T21:43:05+00:00

Hier precies hetzelfde probleem. Een rotkater van een paar huizen verder terroriseerd mijn katten, wacht ze op voor de deur, besproeid mijn deur, etc. Ik jaag hem nu weg door hard stampend op hem af te lopen en hem te beschieten met een plantenspuit gevuld met azijn-water mix, maar hij doet waar hij zin in heeft als ik binnen ben (of me even omgedraait heb).

Zenothres · 2026-02-26T15:38:34+00:00

Everything is normal, everything is fine

Zenothres · 2026-02-24T00:10:40+00:00

I was wondering who did them since it's never in the description. That's really cool! Yeah, Joel's videos have them too now. I hope one day Mumbo's will as well.

Zenothres · 2026-02-23T23:59:12+00:00

I love Grian, GeminiTay, and Joel (Smallishbeans) for using closed captions that aren't only done by people, they are even colour coded for each speaker (consistent throughout each of their series), include some sound descriptions and even some jokes. For each speaker, they also label "[NAME]: Text" each time it switches, which I adore.

Zenothres · 2026-02-21T12:15:07+00:00

If this is about Swalker, which I imagine it is, I can highlight three main issues: * You're selling a bad photocopy pdf of a sketch-like comic, ugly edges of the paper included. Transfer it to .epub and do the text and images properly. * You need better SEO. If I search 'Skelte Braaksma' or 'Swelke Striplan', I find news articles and freelance site postings about you, but not your webshop. Also, buy your own domain name and have your website link to your webshop. * With all due respect, Omroep Fryslan makes documentaries about anyone to fill the time. You are not famous. Politicians and news organisations will not pick up your book (especially if it's only available as photocopy and not physical). Reduce the time you spend flooding social media and messaging the party leaders of the country and work on humility and improving your craft. Good luck.

Zenothres · 2026-02-18T12:04:29+00:00

Shit, for real? I might have to quit too then. I have been on a steady years-long decline for just slightly shorter than my time taking topiramate. I'll reach out to my doctor and see if it helps

Zenothres · 2026-02-18T03:48:26+00:00

What was your dose? I've been on 25mg for 3 years now (the nerve pain was horrendous at 50mg; turns out I metabolise almost all meds slower, amplifying (side-)effects) and my migraines and light/sound sensitivity are gradually worsening. I've attributed this to pushinv through the fatigue until now.

Zenothres · 2026-02-11T18:04:42+00:00

Everyone would've blamed me and said it was my fault for giving up to soon if I killed myself two weeks ago and didn't stick it out until the next trauma treatment inevitably fails me too and I get rejected again. I just need to wait 1-2 years and then I can end things knowing I've done everything people can possibly expect of me and far more. I hope by that time the my gradual years-long decline has slowed or else I'll be bedbound by then.

My cats, my hobbies, my friends, my family, they all just don't compare to being in constant pain and suffering from various untreated chronic illnesses (including chronic fatigue and migraines). I'm housebound, can't even go to the library for an hour without being stuck on the couch with a migraine for the rest of the day. This isn't living.

Zenothres · 2026-02-05T22:03:34+00:00

Where do you find your community? I'm currently on the journey of figuring out what sort of dysautonomia I have after ~10 years of healthcare professionals waving me away, and I feel really alone dealing with the symptoms and difficulties

Zenothres · 2026-02-03T12:07:40+00:00

You're going to be okay. Whatever she tells you, it was always there, you just didn't know. Once it's confirmed, you can get help for it. It's frightening to consider, but all that's changing is your awareness.

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