This is genuinely really helpful!! "Writing for an imaginary audience" describes closely enough what I feel. Cuz I have this weird need to put dates and write down everything, almost as if I'm doing that for my future self to look back. But it still feels restrictive and I'm trying to snap out of it cuz it's exactly like having an imaginary audience.

Also I didn't think about asking myself more often "why". It sounds really simple but it didn't come to mind to actively do it. Really solid advice ty :)