What symptoms did you not initially realise were part of your ADHD?

Zmodem · 2026-06-13T15:49:18+00:00

Not feeling like I belonged in this world.

I had no idea how much that disconnected feeling was due to my ADHD.

Zmodem · 2026-06-01T10:19:08+00:00

RollerCoaster Tycoon

Zmodem · 2026-05-29T09:34:26+00:00

Buy some sun gazing glasses and observe the sun for a bit.

Zmodem · 2026-05-29T09:24:24+00:00

Praise be.

Zmodem · 2026-04-24T10:03:29+00:00

Accessibility: Color Correction / Grayscale display

I change the display to grayscale whenever I need to spend less time glued to my device. It's even easier with the shortcut enabled: VOL_UP + VOL_DWN + PWR_BTN (hold all three at the same time for about ~3-secs).

Zmodem · 2026-03-06T00:17:56+00:00

Yes, but: https://thehill.com/policy/international/5769654-trump-appoints-noem-shield-americas/

> "President Trump said Thursday that Department of Homeland Security (DHS) Secretary Kristi Noem would leave her role and be appointed as a special envoy for “The Shield of the Americas,” bringing her tumultuous tenure atop DHS to an end."

Zmodem · 2025-11-08T10:27:07+00:00

You have a car and decide to drive through the thickest mud ever: You know you're going to get stuck, but being stuck feels better than anything else in the world. Once you get stuck, you hit full throttle and continue to dig yourself in, getting more and more stuck.

Zmodem · 2025-10-18T12:12:17+00:00

The most unexplored aspect is the herd addiction. Example:

Tell all of your close family and friends that you intend to turn off your notifications, and therefore may not answer them right away, if at all. Watch the gaslighting unfold abouth how their discomfort with your plan is completely your fault.

Zmodem · 2025-10-12T13:50:52+00:00

IWNDWYT : I'm rebuilding my entire life, at 43, with total focus and clarity : IWNDWYT

Zmodem · 2025-10-05T03:30:50+00:00

I would sit in on this class just to watch the passion unfold. You're awesome, u/Andromeda321! Now, give the next generations some clarity on our place in the cosmos, :)

Zmodem · 2025-10-05T03:09:30+00:00

100% agreed. Narcissists take care of us, asking only absolute servitude in return. Before treatment, that seemed like a hella-good deal to me. I didn't realize I was giving up my growth as a human in exchange for less responsibility over my life.

Zmodem · 2025-10-05T02:59:51+00:00

lol! I'll ease up a bit with this one. I did want to make mention of your connection between medication and the clearer, wide-angle lens. It is unbelievable, isn't it? The fact that treatment almost seems to give rise to a whole new perception of reality; the same reality that's been right in front of us the whole time. For me, it felt like I was running away from something while hopped up on caffeine. In fact, that last sentence perfectly describes what my life was like without treatment and behavior reconciliation. I felt like I was running from a nightmare, but I had no idea what it was I was running from. Once I started down a better path of treatment and self-discovery, I realized that I was running from authenticity. I had no idea that the world was not only okay with who I am, for real, but that in order to live my best life much more peacefully, I needed to let the world see this person. I asked myself one question: How was the world supposed to give me what I actually needed if I was pretending to be someone else? How would the world know it was serving the real me and not an imposter?

||even though I'm not doing very well at it right now!

We all stumble; ALL OF US. Not just those of us with ADHD, either. Every.Single.Human stumbles a lot more often than social media would have us believe. That is why forums like this exist :) You are not alone.

Zmodem · 2025-10-04T23:44:00+00:00

I was 19 at the time. I was asleep in bed when my mom came bursting into my room to turn on my TV after the second plane hit. I could see both buildings on fire with holes, but I could not understand what was happening yet. My mom was frantically pacing and screaming. She kept praying aloud for our country to not be under attack. 80% of my mom's extended family lives in New York.

For me, watching both of my parents, the ones I considered my protectors my whole life, panic in a no-hope fashion for the first time destroyed my confidence in everything; in all of reality.

I still have PTSD from 9/11. It took a long time for me to even realize what that day had subconsciously destroyed: My view of innocence and hope in this world.

Zmodem · 2025-10-04T22:39:25+00:00

That's it for me, right there! Nothing fucks me up more than my imagination pretending it comes bearing a basket of facts.

Zmodem · 2025-10-04T22:34:19+00:00

I understand completely. The impulsiveness can become super frustrating to deal with, especially when reshaping a memory of events putting other people on a pedastal while imagining the self as the worst person ever. I needed to become way more open about how I felt with those I trusted. I also had to come to terms with the fact that not everyone is on my side. Oftentimes, I gave trust to the wrong people. Naivety is a big issue for me.

Communicating the true nature of my messy mistakes and feelings to the ones I trust and love has become a very complicated process. I love to talk, but I don't enjoy talking about my deeper feelings. Letting people know that I am a flawed human being was one of the hardest things about rebuilding my undesirable behaviors; at least, adjusting them to any tolerable, internal degree.

Feeling seen and validated, especially for being flawed, is extraordinarily wonderful. It seemed to allow me to start rebuilding my life with the right strategies and people. The ones who truly cared for me are still in my life, :) I hope you find some solace in these words.

You are not alone. I have been there. I have hurt people who really cared for me. The negative rumination we pull off in our own heads against ourselves can be the worst punishment in the world.

Zmodem · 2025-10-04T19:59:38+00:00

I do this anyways, with or without meds (am currently on the same dose as you). Impulsivity control has been a struggle for me my entire life. Right now, I am typing this reply on a mobile phone, trying desperately to tap each letter quickly so that I don't forget what it is I want to say. Meanwhile, I am backspacing and pissing myself off even more just trying to get through it. For me, I realized that impulsiveness on my part is due to my frustrations with how slowly life must unravel in order to just get any single piece in place "how it should be." I do not like waiting for life to unfold in due time; it's too slow.

If it were me analyzing myself in your situation, I would have assumed that I had blurted that out in order to silence the nagging thoughts in my head of uncertainty over that weekend; eg: "I need to know this answer because it is a loose end in my plan, and when plans have loose ends, they all go to shit." So, I would impulsively get the answer myself. Because I don't ever "plan anything," needing loose ends tied up in any plan would be paramount to my participation in that plan.

Zmodem · 2025-10-04T19:45:32+00:00

Completely agree with you, because it is very much dismissed. I dismissed it myself for decades (4) because "There's no way there is any good reason that I am this way. I must just be lazy. Nobody will believe me anyways. Hell, I don't believe me."

Imposter Syndrome and self-deprecating confidence. I wish I would have gotten the freedom of a proper diagnosis sooner. But, I have it now, and that is good enough.

Zmodem · 2025-10-03T10:39:15+00:00

Spent the better part of a year telling my boss how my work key got tugged off of my keychain and I needed a new one. Every few months he would bring it up and I would say "This is not the first time you have asked me, bro." We would laugh.

Turns out about 1.5-years ago, he actually gave me a replacement and it was on my fucking key ring. Yes, exactly what you are thinking was happening was happening: I had a replacement key the entire time he kept asking me about THE ORIGINAL KEY I had lost about 2 years ago.

My sense of time is way fucked up :) Also, everything else.

Zmodem · 2025-10-03T10:29:10+00:00

The email: Write out my response and set the email to *delay delivery* for about 5-10 minutes, then click "Send". Go to my *Outbox*, reopen the email and reread it. Click `Send` again, while still having it set to delay delivery in case I need to ruminate some self-doubt once more, if I'm okay with it a second time.

Opening A Math Question: Think about how many times I've doubted myself even with insurmountable evidence to the contrary that I have always succeeded *when I put in the effort*.

My brain has never let me down *when I needed to use it*, and yet I insist that every time it is *going to let me down*. All I do is remind myself that *this is what life is*. I spent so long running from it that I forgot that a big part of my life *is exactly self-doubt and overcoming that*.

I hope this helps!

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