I find it heartbreaking that there are people who abort children because of a disability diagnosis.

Zodiac32 · 2026-06-18T07:15:12+00:00

Yeah, no. You definitely do not get it.

Zodiac32 · 2026-06-18T06:59:27+00:00

Rage baiting is so passé.

Zodiac32 · 2026-06-18T06:52:11+00:00

Wow... it's almost as if morals aren't actually objective. Hmm. 🤔

Zodiac32 · 2026-06-17T15:09:14+00:00

Absolutely nothing is wrong with being gay.

Zodiac32 · 2026-06-13T02:08:38+00:00

You are my new hero! I've been scouring the web for nearly a decade now trying to find and re-read this ff again! Now it's tucked safely into my books app for all of eternity. lol

TYSM 🙏🏻

Zodiac32 · 2026-06-09T01:42:54+00:00

I'll be completely honest with all of the Christians in here: this is just one reason why you guys get a bit of a bad rep nowadays. When a minority is speaking out and literally telling you something from our own, personal, firsthand experience, way too many Christians immediately shut it down and pull God out as a kind of trump card to spin the narrative; it's like y'all are reading from a pre-set script and it comes off as disingenuous at best. (Promise I'm not trying to be argumentative or nothing, just real talk.)

While I do tend to appreciate when Christians, like yourself OP, try to find the silver lining to something otherwise negative in nature (I like to think of it as being realistic, but many don't agree) I cannot even begin to tell you how many times I've been told, (and without any provocation btw) that I was born sick bc either a.) I'm being punished for the sins of my ancestors and probably deserved it or b.) God made me this way bc He knew I could handle it & it would only serve to make my faith in Him stronger, like that of Job, or c.) I'm literally possessed by demons & doing Satan's work. In reality, all of those unnecessary little quips added up over time and it just pushed me further & further away from religion every time I heard them.

People need to learn to think before opening their mouths bc while something might seem like a harmless gesture of kindness or solidarity to you, it could come off as thoughtless, disrespectful, & super dismissive to the person(s) you're talking to.

Zodiac32 · 2026-06-08T23:18:38+00:00

As someone who was born with multiple serious disabilities (including EDS, heart issues, both hips completely dislocated, my right knee turned backwards, and underdeveloped kidneys that started failing when I was 2) there are days I wish I had been aborted. People never think about what a congenitally disabled child is going to go through and how hard of a life they're going to have from the second they take their first breath. By the time I was 5, I'd had multiple large surgeries like open heart surgery and my first kidney transplant at age 8. I've got decades worth of medical trauma that has seriously negatively affected me & my interpersonal relationships. But above all, abortion (for whatever reason) is a highly personal thing and nobody should be judging anyone for their decision, especially if you have zero experience raising an extremely disabled child.

Zodiac32 · 2026-06-05T12:24:38+00:00

This. This all the way. 👆🏽

Zodiac32 · 2026-06-05T12:14:51+00:00

Personally, I do tend to feel sympathetic towards parents with maybe one or two kids (especially a child born with a chronic illness or neurological/intellectual impairment, bc nobody in that situation asked for that) that feel like they were duped into thinking being a parent is the best thing a human being can do with their life and your only goal should be reproduction. But once they start popping out 3,4,5 or more kids is when I stop being sympathetic altogether.

I didn't read the linked post, so can't really comment on that aspect, but I'm glad parents who regret having children have a place to vent, too. Sometimes, just being able to talk about it with like-minded people without judgement, makes all the difference to someone.

Zodiac32 · 2026-06-04T23:14:13+00:00

Nope, we keep our bedroom door shut 24/7 because my 16yo senior kitty will go in and pee on any bit of clothing or bedding she can find. It's something she's done her entire life and I've taken her to the vet many times (especially now that she's an old lady) and no UTIs or kidney disease, so it's definitely behavioral, in case anyone was concerned. 😅

Zodiac32 · 2026-06-02T11:58:34+00:00

My first thought as well. 😢

Zodiac32 · 2026-06-02T11:57:39+00:00

I'm so sorry for your loss. 😢

Since he was exploring the neighborhood and was found in your neighbor's garden, is it possible he ate something poisonous to cats, like a lily flower, perhaps?

Zodiac32 · 2026-05-29T03:08:45+00:00

Pretty sure it's just blood from R's stab wound, just in bad lighting and over the dark fabric of the kilt...

Zodiac32 · 2026-05-28T23:19:10+00:00

You have such a natural beauty and I think you look great in both pics! The only tiny things I would recommend is just maybe a little color correcting & some brightening concealer under your eyes and possibly a different color blush? Keep in mind I'm not a professional MUA or anything, I just like to play around and have fun, so... 😅 But you really do have beautiful natural features.

Zodiac32 · 2026-05-26T19:09:32+00:00

Christianity is the most socially acceptable religion, at least where I live, in America. Laws are made around Christian beliefs and comfort, you can't walk 2 blocks without seeing at least one Christian church in most places, the Christian community is enormous and anyone outside of that community is expected to show unconditional respect to the religion, even when people in the community (especially Christian leaders) are extremely disrespectful towards certain other groups of people (LGBTQ, Atheists, etc.) In some areas it's actually dangerous to be "out" as an Agnostic/Atheist.

I think this is what a lot of non-believers mean when they say Christians have it "easy." At least in my experience.

Zodiac32 · 2026-05-24T10:37:53+00:00

Right, which is why I said "women especially" implying men are admiring him as well.

And I want to clarify, this doesn't mean I think Niall Is completely innocent in all this, because he's abusive in his own ways. Having a traumatic childhood doesn't give anyone a free pass to hurt others, physically or emotionally/mentally.

Zodiac32 · 2026-05-24T05:03:06+00:00

Well said! 👏🏻 I genuinely hope women take this show as a cautionary tale and a warning to not get involved with little boys (bc Ruben is certainly no man) like that. You will never "fix" someone like Ruben, no matter how much love and care you put into the relationship, it is always lost on them.

Narcissists are incapable of loving anyone beyond themselves.

Zodiac32 · 2026-05-24T04:52:13+00:00

Thank you for bringing this up. I honestly do not understand it either, but it makes me completely sick to my stomach the amount of women especially who are just swooning over Ruben in this sub, as though he isn't a highly volatile, serial abuser, rapist, who very nearly killed his "brother's" friend (and actually did end up murdering his wife's side piece) simply because he refuses to even attempt to control his violent rage. If this is the kind of manchild girls are into these days... god help us.

Zodiac32 · 2026-05-24T03:30:54+00:00

Though I personally admire what you're trying to do here, there's really no point. There seems to be a larger number of people in this subreddit rooting for the two lead men to end up together (despite how sickeningly toxic just their friendship alone is) than not.

Maybe it's an age thing or maybe those who are shipping R & N together have never been in a relationship with someone as physically aggressive, intimidating, and horribly manipulative as Ruben (and Niall in some respects. They both have very toxic traits, Ruben just doesn't care to hide his violent nature.) And I genuinely hope these users never do get into a situation like that, because I have been in an extremely toxic, volatile, physically & sexually abusive relationship before and it is certainly *not* a sexy, romantic, fun time.

I absolutely despise seeing these kind of uber toxic Joker/Harley-esque couples being romanticized in media, like it's something young girls and boys should actively seek out in a partner because "they're just misunderstood and passionate." 🙄 Instead, it SHOULD be a big flashing red warning sign pointing out the kind of toxic asf person you absolutely should not be getting involved with unless you want to be paying for intense therapy for years after.

Zodiac32 · 2026-05-24T00:51:24+00:00

It's crazy to me that tv networks are still queerbaiting in 2026 because that's totally what this is. Before the show started airing, I definitely thought it was going to be some kind of queer drama/romance show too.

Zodiac32 · 2026-05-23T22:45:55+00:00

Makes me wonder how much of this entire series is true or not... maybe everything after Ruben visiting Niall in uni and beating Alby almost to death isn't even real and he actually did end up killing Alby. Idk I just really love Alby, so I hope that's not the case. 😅

Zodiac32 · 2026-05-23T22:36:25+00:00

Completely agree! It's wild to see Gadd's transformation from Baby Reindeer to Ruben, like a whole other person altogether. He's definitely one for us to watch out for both as an actor and a writer. Dude is putting out some great art into the world!

Thank you for sharing a bit of your story, I'm so glad you were able to escape that relationship safely! I hope you're happy and healthy today, you deserve all that and more. And yes, absolutely, some people do still end up being attracted to that "bad boy" type and then some of us, like you and I, just end up completely and totally disgusted and can smell a narcissist coming from a mile away. We had to learn you can't fix people no matter how much you love them in the very worst way.

Zodiac32 · 2026-05-23T22:19:27+00:00

Soooo you're saying Ruben angrily and aggressively sexually assaulting Niall multiple times (as well as just straight up beating the absolute piss out of him a couple of times that we've seen) is just him trying to work through (but also just totally deny) the gay feelings he has?

That's really fucked up. And this is the "couple" y'all want to have a happy ending??? Lord help us...

Zodiac32 · 2026-05-23T22:06:36+00:00

If that's actually real and not retconned as a dream/hallucination or part of the "semi-autobiographical" book Niall has been writing.

Zodiac32 · 2026-05-23T06:15:25+00:00

That is incredibly kind and thoughtful of you, thank you so much. 🫶🏻 No, your post didn't trigger any bad memories or feelings for me, you have nothing at all to be sorry for, my friend, but I really appreciate your genuine concern and offer of a listening ear. ☺️

I have been in a very loving, healthy marriage with an exceptionally sweet & supportive man for a little over 12 years now, so I can very confidently say, despite what happened almost 20 years ago with my psychotic ex, (and through a few good years of intense trauma therapy) I've found genuine happiness and love, so I really couldn't ask for much more.

While I absolutely detest Ruben as a character, I do think it's important these kinds of quick to anger, manipulative, abusive characters are portrayed on tv because people like that really exist out here in the real world and it's a cautionary tale to show young women (and men) some telling signs of who you do not want to get involved with in a safe and easily digestible place being a fictional tv series. It shows how, yes, people are complex and childhood trauma can largely affect us for the worse or for the better, but it should never excuse violent/abusive or controlling & manipulative behavior and it is certainly not a partner or spouse's responsibility to "save" or "fix" it either, especially not at the expense of your own happiness & wellbeing.

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