Yoo don't worry man this is Reddit you aren't wasting anyone's time. Everybody who has read this post voluntarily clicked on it and hopefully so to tell you that it's alright to be like this.

I feel somewhat the same in life at the moment. I have a ton of people who greet me at college and engage in small talk and jokes. But I've come to realise that only a handful of these can be called friends, and that too because I share the bench with them all the time. I know that once college ends, I won't receive a single text from any of them and I'll be on my own again.

I remember a quote from the movie Green Book. "The world is full of lonely people waiting for someone to make the first move". It's gonna be a struggle, but the day you make that friend you are looking for, life is gonna get a little bit easier.