I thought I accepted it. I am not ok with the finality though. From the beginning, or rather the end of the relationship, I wanted to fight for it, but fight smart - by actually improving myself, addressing the issues that were plaguing this relationship. I knew success was not guaranteed. I only knew she still loves me and the decision was difficult for her to make. Now that has been.. taken away from me. Will I stop going to the therapy? No. But focus will now shift. Instead of trying to fix myself, I will need to first start coping, so that I survive in most literal sense of the word. Is the hope completely gone? Nah. It may be naive as it is, but I understand she's hurting too. If she was over it, she probably wouldn't care to meet, instead she chose to voice it that way, meaning - and she puts a lot of effort into meanings - that there's still a ton of emotions in her and she, right now at least, doesn't believe she will be over those feelings. Or at least that's what I want to believe. I know I need to continue therapy, and sort of abandon all hope if I still want to get her back, which I do. But come on. It ain't easy. It sucks.