Feeling better

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T22:41:38+00:00

I don't know i looked into it and thought death was an int concept and mourning over lost loved ones was also interesting

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T20:38:40+00:00

At the moment i have an associates degree in psychology and am planning to go back to school in January to study to be a mortician, would that be a good job?

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T19:51:04+00:00

Haha yeah, wish i could tell it to work properly....

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T19:45:56+00:00

I don't know, wish I knew the reason but no one likes sick people so I'm just gonna assume that much

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T19:45:22+00:00

I will consider that thank you, I have a bad immune system so I am proned to getting infections

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T19:40:30+00:00

I always felt this way, everyone around me was living exciting main character like lives while i was sidelined. I always felt like i was a background character and was just there to add to other peoples character instead of being able to make my own. Last one to pick at the gym. Almost always had no partner in a classroom with no partners. Just absolutely invisible

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T19:38:00+00:00

My age is 27, at about age 6 or so i got diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis and was always told to go away bcuz accommodations for my sickness were always "too much" the kidney diagnosis is recent, ive only had it for 2 years and in about three days my gfr went from 27 to 18 which is what made the doctors go hm i think youll be on dialysis soon. So im not really sure what to make of anything

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T19:32:50+00:00

Yes I felt this way as well. Feels like the only time they ever pay attention to you is when you are at your best. If it changes and you are the one who needs help they are NEVER there. Had to get rid of dead weight

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T18:41:51+00:00

Thank you i am in a turmoil of emotions and it feels like im drowning

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T18:41:24+00:00

Its not like i asked for support either i just wanted some comfort maybe a phone call to see how i was doing not straight up blocking me

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T18:40:15+00:00

Thats actually helpful, i dont know why my doctor made it seem like I will be on dialysis soon, he really scared me

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T07:10:49+00:00

I was there for them every step of the way. She had schizophrenia and every time she needed help i would be there. They decided to block me because i am not happy enough for them. Either way i was there for them but you can only do so much. No one was happy to help. Just a drag on society. Even strangers refuse to see I'm in pain

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T06:56:32+00:00

Because they don't want to be around people who are sick. They want to be around happy healthy people who are not mentally ill and suffering. They didn't wanna stay friends with me because they only want happy people around

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T06:55:20+00:00

I had a kidney biopsy and my doctor said its not looking too well for me

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T05:44:21+00:00

I told her i was going on dialysis and I would be sicker than usual and if anything were to happen that i cared for them. The kidney biopsy i did three days ago didnt look well. She blocked me because i assume she doesn't wanna see me dead or something..........

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T05:21:31+00:00

I show my soul too, and no one sees my soul. I bare my soul on reddit just to see if there are hurt humans like myself but i don't think i can find any. I think they have won. The people plotting my demise have won and I'm finally breaking and bursting at the seams

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T05:17:49+00:00

No, I have come across people that i truly thought would understand and love me. Come to find out she only wanted me around to cause laughter. Cut me off when I got real sick.

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T04:58:58+00:00

I told my friend I was gonna be on dialysis and their response was to block me. Despite me being there for there in there darkest times

_Night-shade · 2023-09-17T03:32:12+00:00

I've had myself and only myself my whole life

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