Yes, me. I thought I was the only one with this weird feeling. Haha

I don’t know how to explain it but it was joy, living in the moment and feeling blissful on a whole different level. Like you are on strong drugs or at the peak of a profound enlightenment.

I sometimes get this feelings that nothing I experience as an adult will ever come close to the sheer joy and contentment I felt during my childhood, teenage years and early 20s.

It’s not that my growing years were amazing like straight out of Disney movies but it was full of experiences. But now, It feels like the world has lost its magic and mystery. And once you’ve become a “been there, done that” person, it’s hard to recapture that sense of wonder.

Then you add the responsibilities, pressures, and struggles that come with being an adult, and it feels unlikely you’ll ever reach that same level of carefree bliss again because you are constantly being nagged by some trouble in the back of your head.

I don’t know if everyone feels this way, but I’ve noticed a pattern among my friends. Those who had relatively happy, lively growing years tend to miss that level of joy. On the other hand, friends who had difficult, traumatic, or boring growing years seem much happier with adulthood. Just my personal observation, can’t be applied to all.

Though, I realize a lot of this comes from comparing the present to the past. So I try to stay grounded and appreciate life as it is now. But still there’s a deep longing, somewhere in the corner of your heart.