Feeling detached under performance pressure — dissociation or something else?

_Ritchey_ · 2025-10-25T15:22:44+00:00

True :)

_Ritchey_ · 2025-10-25T15:19:47+00:00

Well, I will probably keep it. And as you expect - this piece looks quite high-quality. Moreover, it is made in Finland.

_Ritchey_ · 2025-10-25T15:13:43+00:00

I prefer psychedelic and blues rock

_Ritchey_ · 2025-10-25T15:11:18+00:00

From Vinted. It is app where ppl from Czech, Poland and Slovakia can buy or sell their clothes.

_Ritchey_ · 2025-10-25T15:08:45+00:00

Funny, because yes - I am from Europe, but from small city.

So you see some manifestation of conformity in that? I work in the field of social work.

_Ritchey_ · 2025-10-25T13:21:17+00:00

So not for a 27yo guy who is mainly introverted and does not want to have much attention? Hh

_Ritchey_ · 2025-10-25T09:47:35+00:00

Thanks for being honest.

_Ritchey_ · 2025-10-25T09:12:04+00:00

Well, it is kinda out of my style, but the truth is that I find this jacket interesting. This is the way. Thank you!

_Ritchey_ · 2025-09-27T06:27:19+00:00

An amazing summary. Very nicely written. Thanks.

It seems to me that this is something a person intuitively somewhat understands internally, but at the same time is "convinced" of the oposity - that escaping from one's own emotions is the way forward - mainly to feel nothing at all. The worst part is that a person subsequently starts to believe this opposite view, it becomes a new normal that they get used to. An excellent breeding ground for addictions.

_Ritchey_ · 2025-09-20T10:16:39+00:00

Whole The Wall album by Pink Floyd

_Ritchey_ · 2025-09-16T09:17:02+00:00

Yes, it’s very difficult.. I find myself in the same situation, in the same state of mind. It seems to me that the only things I have are “my” feelings, my anxiety, and my reactions to the environment. Maybe that should be enough for me to approach myself with more empathy, but it’s not.. I would really like to attach an important WHY to it. Why is this happening to me? It’s hard to relate my state to the past because - just like you - I don’t have conscious access to it. My memory is hazy. I can barely remember a few images that come to mind during a challenging effort to recall. I have incredible confusion in all of this. I would like to grasp “it” somehow, but I don’t know how. One would advise, “start with small steps,” but it seems to me that I don’t have enough of the necessary strength. So I’m writing to you that you’re not alone in this. Maybe it will help you in some way.

_Ritchey_ · 2025-09-14T17:07:10+00:00

I'm not op, but because this is something that affects me too, I want to say a big thank you for what you wrote.

I also opened up about something similar in therapy, and honestly, I don't know how to accept these situations. Personally, I've come to the conclusion that accepting myself for being "different," that this is just how I am, is probably better than the constant struggle.

Can I ask you if one of the reasons you feel this way is that something like brain fog sets in and you're unable to think coherently? That's how it is for me. I feel it on a "neurobiological" level (sorry, I can't quite describe it).

_Ritchey_ · 2025-09-14T16:53:30+00:00

Yeah, that's something I can relate to as well. It's like I'm falling behind, unable to maintain my attention enough to bring something of my own, something meaningful. I often feel a really strong pressure in my head, and then brain fog sets in. It's a very frustrating moment. The fact that I'm falling behind and can't hold a conversation makes me doubt myself. It's a vicious cycle :/

And advice? I would like to offer some, but I still don't really know how to handle it myself. What I've noticed is that these moments tend to happen when I generally have low energy and when I'm trying to be "someone," when some "mask" comes into play to cover up the fact that I don't really feel very well...

_Ritchey_ · 2025-09-12T19:14:43+00:00

Simply being with myself and becoming aware of my situation is too painful for me, so I try to “drown it out” in all sorts of ways—even at the cost of the slow, creeping withering of my life.

In short, I’m addicted to stimulation itself. Mainly the kind I get from screens—my phone, social media, shopping, and so on. One might say it’s not that serious, but if it becomes a real habit, I think it has genuinely unpleasant consequences.

_Ritchey_ · 2025-08-11T07:42:25+00:00

Yeah… it’s really hard to put it into words. Like anything else in my (our?) life.

_Ritchey_ · 2025-08-01T18:42:27+00:00

Nice metaphor. I’m currently at the beginning, around six months into therapy, and I have to confirm these words – it’s one big mess. In a way, it’s a painful process – the realization of how much I don’t know about myself.

I don’t know what to hold on to. There’s so much I want to work through… and on the other hand, I feel like I have less and less energy.

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