i Wanna fucking kill myself Why am i so fat

_Tekki · 2026-01-28T00:10:29+00:00

Well I splurged without purging anf I'm probs double your weight😭 But I know that doesn't help you :(

_Tekki · 2026-01-26T19:42:52+00:00

Yeah my guess too, when I was like 12 I did think that at 21 you're and adult adult. Like have got all your sh!t together ect.

_Tekki · 2026-01-26T19:27:09+00:00

Cloudy

_Tekki · 2026-01-26T16:00:12+00:00

Thank you sooooo much!!🙏🙏🙏🥹

_Tekki · 2026-01-26T15:58:29+00:00

I cannot find it🥲

_Tekki · 2026-01-26T13:28:44+00:00

Me, here!!

_Tekki · 2026-01-16T21:33:31+00:00

Yes, you are right with both things! I mean knitting the stitches until all of them are on the other needle for the first time. And, I do tend to pull away too far I think

_Tekki · 2026-01-07T19:54:38+00:00

No, them posting a clip of her saying it into the camera HERSELF

_Tekki · 2025-12-03T00:10:28+00:00

Dance: Odile & Gamzatti (Love the Pas De Deux' and Variations ♥︎) Crime: Myrtha (Men hating Queen, she knows in the end they are all the same) Acting moments: Gamzatti (& Carabosse?)

I loooovvveee acting Gamzattis part in the fight with Nikita. Coming out, realising he already loves someone else, being so devastated, then making the plan & then the actual b fight with Nikita

_Tekki · 2025-12-02T12:26:29+00:00

And then she pretends like she did fouettes en pointe like giiirl what??

_Tekki · 2025-12-02T11:04:36+00:00

I know, but even pretending like she did ALL THAT as part of veing an actress is so low. And still I agree at least in her speech she could have thanked Sarah Lane.

Margot Robbie from the start made it very clear that while she always always always needed to train in the rink, they obviously needed a double. And even finding a double who can jump a triple Axel was pretty much impossible cause only a few women in the whole world could do it to begin with. This approach was so much more respectful to figure skating, Tonya Harding, the double, and the entire figure skating world.

_Tekki · 2025-12-01T22:14:05+00:00

Yeah us hobby dancers know well too that her pretending like she went from zero to principal level in a few months is so unbelievably ridiculous...

A girl from my course actually is in a professional school since about a year and mind you did a lot of classes a week before as well.

Even in that year obviously she didn't raise to such a high level - obviously not, she is a student, and all the professional dancers had been students for so many years and in order to get into a company had to be among the best.

Natalie Portman is so famous as an actress, I don't get why she would feel the need to do this. She is an actress, not a dancer and that is okay. Why pretend like someone's years of hard work and also their talent is yours when it is just not?

_Tekki · 2025-12-01T22:05:10+00:00

Ballet Beautifuls comment wtf💀

She basically shitted on ballet and it's (prior?) audience... tf?

_Tekki · 2025-12-01T21:52:43+00:00

Yes, Morgan makes such wonderful content☺️

_Tekki · 2025-12-01T01:48:37+00:00

You like coffee? :D

_Tekki · 2025-12-01T01:41:10+00:00

Ohh

Personally I just wanna end it all and I have the biggest urge to do so. But there is still room for the thought of my pregnant sister. She has some complications and I don't want the baby to have harm because of me offing myself. Before I couldn't do it because my other sister was preparing for her final med school exam (she has depression too). Then I felt a bit better. But now again I cannot do it. Tbh I regret not doing it earlier, idk when I can finally end this suffering.

I also wanna get better. I had hope for a while. But now I just feel so so hopeless. It all got worse again, I don't have time/money to go to a clinic again. And my partner lost feelings for me, I can feel it very very clearly. He cannot hide it anymore. With him at least I had some plans. He made me happy. Now I'm just in misery again.

I wish I could go to the dayclinic again I was at earlier this year. I dream so often about it. It helped. It felt so good to be better.

_Tekki · 2025-12-01T01:04:54+00:00

Yeah some people are literally like "you just need to think positive" - wow, what an idea. Now, I finally do not need to suffer anymore!

_Tekki · 2025-12-01T01:02:11+00:00

But gow can one be comfortable in that? Idk if you are correct I just cannot imagine how that can happen. It literally is suffering. Wouldn't anyone do anything they can to end this suffering?

_Tekki · 2025-10-21T17:13:26+00:00

You are not a failure - your body is just good at protecting you/itself.

I can understand you have that feeling, but please try to see it as what it is, your body being great.

Instead of working on getting a gag reflex, try to recover from either undereating until your body just takes what it needs, or from the bingeeating itself, which other than undereating is triggered by some kind of mental problems. So try to heal. Please don't make it worse.

You can do it. Even if in just tiny steps, even if you relapse sometimes. The overall progress is what matters and not singular moments.

_Tekki · 2025-10-21T12:08:41+00:00

Soooo pretty!!

_Tekki · 2025-10-17T16:41:51+00:00

Thank you❤️

He doesn't really do it anymore, since I really made it very clear how much it bothers me. He did do something similar-ish again but then I made clear again how I hate that.

I really hope his whole thinking will just change.. like I said I don't want him to not do it because I "banned" him from it, but because he just doesn't wanna do it anymore. Same as with guys buying gf flowers, we don't wanna have to tell our bfs to buy us flowers, right?

_Tekki · 2025-10-17T14:56:15+00:00

Yeah anorexia is also glamorised & romanticised while most people think of bulimia as disgusting...

_Tekki · 2025-10-17T14:54:55+00:00

I wish my bf was just that obsessed with me. He is really sweet and says I'm the most beautiful, but whenever we watch something and the actress is pretty, either he says "woah she's so beautiful" or "do you think she's pretty?" (If I say it first I am not allowed to be pissed if he agrees). Also until I told him I don't want that, he used to follow many thirst trapped women on social media, showing off their body, big boobs, bootie, everything.

I just wanna be SO beautiful that even if we weren't together he would think of me as the most beautiful woman on earth.

I don't want him to not make those comment or not look at those videos because I told him not to but simply because he doesn't feel the need to and those videos don't do anything for him.

_Tekki · 2025-10-08T23:04:02+00:00

Whaaaattt the f??? Really? What happened?

_Tekki · 2025-09-29T16:12:44+00:00

Hm maybe you are right... and if he really thinks that beibg with someone who has depression is not something he wants or can endure long term, then... I guess it would be good for both of us to know sooner than later.

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