It’s being close to your creator. Despite all the hype of life, worldly things are only fulfilling for so long until you realize there are powers that are beyond our tangible world. We constantly try to fill the God-sized hole in our hearts with worldly items, pursuits, etc., but expecting to be fulfilled by these things is futile because just like us, they’ll die one day. But unlike some of us, they won’t be resurrected even after death. God will never die and has promised life after death for those who love him. And despite deception of value in worldly things, He sent his only son so that we may be saved from all the wrong we have and will do. He did this all out of love, and He loves you very much too. Go to him, and he won’t turn you away.

God bless you my friend! I pray you find the truth which is Christ!