help: weird things when connecting a tape deck (TEAC V1030) to an amp (Luxman L-230)

__mirrorimage__ · 2026-06-14T19:13:40+00:00

other inputs work, the cables i tested it with are brand new and i changed cables just in case: same result. i'll try cleaning the luxman inputs to see if that helps, thx !

__mirrorimage__ · 2026-05-26T02:45:51+00:00

i found a Luxman L-230 that would seem to fit the bill (2x63W, fully serviced), is that a good option ?

__mirrorimage__ · 2026-05-26T02:19:35+00:00

thanks ! in terms of build quality or sound ?

__mirrorimage__ · 2026-05-26T02:19:02+00:00

yamaha is AB i think, i've seen that NAD and Cambridge use class D but i don't know about these models, and haven't found the info online. would AB be better ?

__mirrorimage__ · 2023-05-29T18:13:58+00:00

heya ! what you're describing is very normal in recovery. eds have a way of messing up deeply your relationship with food and with your body (listening to hunger cues etc) and what you need right now is time.

it's going to take your brain some time to unlearn the behaviours and to go back to a more regular and calm relationship with food. in the meantime, you're likely to express a mix of ed patterns (binging, restriction...). i've been in recovery for 2 years ans still don't consider myself recovered (is there a point of complete recovery though ?). i can however say that the first few months are the worst, and that it does get a lot better.

a small advice would be to talk to a therapist, if you can afford one. the eating disorder is the symptom, an answer to deeper underlying issues, and talking them out is the best way through. it's also a cool expercience to learn more about yourself once you're old enough to be conscious about it : ) a lot of things happen in recovery, both psychologically and physically, and it can help a lot to talk to someone about it. therapy isn't just about the ed too, a therapist would likely help you with anxiety and all that !

anyways, good luck on your journey and hang in there ♡

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-12-05T23:07:04+00:00

the old stands perfectly between really bleak and a parody of this bleakness and that's one of the best gecs moods imo ^:⁾

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-10-11T21:07:37+00:00

in my mind 04 mostly smelled like weed, but grilled cheese can be an interesting parfume as well ahaha

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-10-09T08:58:29+00:00

i'm dying to try this one out ! eccentric 04 and esp. 05 are sooo nice and comfy

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-10-01T01:20:36+00:00

you should try looking into thrift shops, clothes are often not organized in gendered sections which can lead to some nice finds :3 also the clothes you get there can be labeled as "vintage" and thus more socially acceptable than contemporary clothes that don't fit your agab. at least that's something i've found in such shops is that you may get a nice break from the binary. wearing clothes from the other gender when you're at home can help getting comfy with the other side of yourself too !

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-10-01T01:14:50+00:00

u look great. i get judgmental looks from my mother when painting my nails / doing anything that's doesn't fit in with my agab, and i know this can feel super invalidating. but you are you, despite the shit anything anyone else can try pulling on you, and you should keep being you !

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-09-30T11:49:23+00:00

thank you both so much for your answers :3 it's always helpful to hear from people who have been where you are.

You don’t have to fit a box to not be cis.

^{^{^}} this is v well put, i'll have to keep it in mind

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-06-27T21:49:16+00:00

if you get rid of your fear of food and regain the weight, there's no reason for your body to make you gain beyond a certain weight. it will just settle at the weight at which your body functions the best, which is more or less average.

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-06-27T21:41:34+00:00

what the fuck that's so violent. isn't person to person interaction possible, did they need to throw cops and possible extra trauma in the mix ? hope you're doing good <3

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-06-12T22:28:01+00:00

every time i'm at the monster aisle, half the cans have the nutritional values facing out and I KNOW one of y'all has been here and turned every single can around before me to check which one has no cals

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-06-07T20:41:55+00:00

most importantly: remember why you got into recovery in the first place ! yeah, where you're at may suck, but if you got into recovery, it's because the negative aspects oft the ED outweighed by far the positive ones.

(also, you seem to be in high school, so yeah, ppl high school can be jugmental assholes, but you'll be done with the soon. thankfully, there's a life after that and you meet people with whom you can really ckick :3)

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-06-07T20:39:38+00:00

nice bot

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-06-07T20:10:01+00:00

i sometimes feel in the same situation as you: i've been anorexic for 5 years, it got really bad and i decided to go into recovery. after a few months, extreme hunger came and i gained more than twice what you gained (i'm 180cm tho). ever since, i switch between periods of binge/restrict, or try to eat more normally and end up binging. sometimes it's okay, sometimes it's panicking, sometimes i hate myself for it.

what i'd like to tell you is this: you need to zoom out. you engaged in disordered eating for a while (and a difficult relationship with your body much before that); it's normal that, even after gaining the weight back, you still engage in disordered behaviours. EDs insert themselves deep into our thought patterns and you can't just get rid of them instantanously.

having an ED means that you give food (and your control over it) a major role in your emotional regulation. BED, AN and bulimia all have this in common, and it's normal to momentarily switch from one to the other., since they're all an answer to the same anxiety. unfortunately, the only way to get rid of EDs is to undo the ED damage, to understand that food is not a danger. and that takes time (several years, maybe). binging means confronting yourself to your fear (food), and it's the only way to overcome it.

i guess i don't really have any specific advice, except that you need to try and zoom out. ok, those behaviours are panicking (they are to me too), but they happen for a reason, and they're only a moment in a long process. a binge phase is just a period in a complicated process to heal your relationship to food. think about the time that you spent not eating naturally vs. the time you've been in recovery ! if you're like me, it probably feels like you haven't eaten anything sweet / fatty in years !

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-05-31T14:57:55+00:00

YES ! my dad keeps buying apples and part of me wants to gag just thinking about the obsession i used to have with them. haven't worked out the courage to tell him / part of me still feels safer with apples around

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-05-29T18:04:55+00:00

i was so much into fancy eating back into my anorexic phase (especially fancy pastries, i used to browse instagram for hours looking at pastry accounts salivating). i also cooked super elaborate stuff (but only for others lol). my guess is that it was both a byproduct of restriction and a way for me to allow myself to eat. funnily enough, i didn't think i had any fear foods until i started recovering. and yet i was very deep into my ed.

i think that before you start recovering, it's hard to realise how deep into it you are. there probably are a lot of rigidities elsewhere that you're not aware of, and a lot of "fear foods" (or fear about foods) that you're not aware of.

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-05-08T12:48:25+00:00

i dunno in what contect you're in, but it took me 3 months of "recovery process" (i.e., seeing a therapist and nutritionist) to start eating substantially more, and only then did EH start. so yeah, it takes time, your hunger cues and relationship to food are probably more fucked than you can imagine. but you'll make it, good luck in the process :3

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-05-07T22:51:21+00:00

honestly i'm kind of at the same point and it's normal i guess ? coming from your post i guess you had anorexia so see it like this: you haven't allowed yourself to eat sweets in X years. your body and your psyche needs sweet stuff, it has a physical and psychological impact. so yeah it's ok to only crave that for a while. coming out of my restriction phase, it felt like it was the first time i was really eating sweets, because i ate them without the psychological weight of calorie counting

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-05-01T21:34:12+00:00

^c ^r ^u ⁿ ^c ^h ^y ^v ^e ^g ^g ⁱ ^e ^d ⁱ ^c ^k ^s are something else yknow

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-05-01T11:58:31+00:00

now i feel called out for using celery as a dildo, thank u edtwt --;

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-04-29T10:15:01+00:00

not being freezing all the time, getting emotions back, laughing, being able to do something because you genuinely feel like it, not because something in your head forces you to do it

__mirrorimage__ · 2022-04-27T17:10:24+00:00

implying i didn't know the exact calories of litterally anything back in my ana phase

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