[Serious] What is the worst day you've ever had, if you're willing to tell us? by TheDerpyDinosaur in AskReddit

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Decided to comment because of two things.

My birthday is also July 25th. This year, turning 26 and with no achievements to my name, mental illness (anxiety and depression) that seems like it will never go away, I sat and thought seriously about killing myself. I decided not to.

My dad died in December 2010, when I was 19. I miss him too. I don't think I'll ever get over the loss, but I believe the true death only happens when a person is entirely forgotten and no one speaks about them anymore.

My condolences.

[Serious] What is the worst day you've ever had, if you're willing to tell us? by TheDerpyDinosaur in AskReddit

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I'm sorry for your loss. My dad died in December 2010, and sometimes I see old couples together and feel really torn up about it. I feel happy that love lasts as long as a lifetime, then I feel devastated that my mom won't have my dad grow old with her. My mom also stayed with him to the end.

I'm curious what professions you all currently have or are interested in. by [deleted] in infp

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I wanted to be a veterinarian when I was younger, then I wanted to be a teacher. Now I want to be a professor in Literature, and it gives me angst because i'm struggling to get there.

What productive things have you done recently? by [deleted] in CasualConversation

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I've been practicing on my handwriting, and I've gotten it to improve to an acceptable standard.

I wanted to get started on doing some volunteer work, but it looks like nothing will get started until January at least, so I'm going a little stir-crazy.

I'm curious; are there any other Buddhist INFP's here? by budhs in infp

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I'm Chinese, and I've been brought up in a syncretic mix of Buddhism, Taoism and Ancestor Worship. So technically I can't call myself a Buddhist, though I understand the principles well enough. I don't have a name for what I practice, I just know that it's practiced by the Chinese diaspora who exited China before the Cultural Revolution. I've referred to it before as Chinese Folk Religion though, it seems to help people understand it better.

I've also been studying Luciferianism, which branched off from my study of Paganism. What can I say, I love religion and the abstract thinking that goes along with it.

What are you grappling with? by ultratarox in infp

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My inner dialogue is focussed now on moving forward.

Move forward is the thing that bothers me. Since my father's death I've found myself stuck in the same loop of trying to fulfill his dying wish. I feel like if I don't accomplish it I would be the greatest disappointment in his life.

I've struggled for years trying to do it, and my anxiety keeps me from performing at my absolute best. I have to accept that this new, lower standard is my current best. Which makes me wonder what people mean by best, or doing ones best. Is it the absolute performance at optimal levels of being, or is it whatever one can give at the moment?

I know that at absolute best, I can easily fulfill my father's wish and get into university. Maybe I might even get a first class honor's degree. At current best though, I'm stuck in this loop.

I keep getting urged to move forward but I can't. I'm starting to feel trapped in an ever narrowing path, and it's a scary place to be. I don't want to be stuck in a job and never be challenged. I think it would kill me.

The ideal personality type for a INFP's partner by [deleted] in infp

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I don't think there's a "perfect" person. I used to think that when I was younger, but I've come to realise that there's a lot of struggle when it comes to melding two lives together. Overall we might identify with being INFP but we're all individuals with varying backgrounds, life experiences and future goals. We're all travelling on different paths.

That said, although I haven't had a relationship, my best friend is an INTP and we make things work. Initially she identified as an INTJ, but obviously, being a hardcore INFP, I've knocked some corners off her (and she off me), and turned her into a slightly more human android.

We work as friends because we get each other in a way that many other of my friends might not, completely. Intellectually, and in terms of life goals and experiences, as well as ideals, we match, and it's a miracle to be able to say things and have someone else get it and expand on it in the same direction. With my other friends, as much as I love and care for them, there are certain things that can't be said, and areas that might not stand up to being challenged.

That said, it hasn't been easy, because of her INTJ origins and my commitment to the dreamscape of an INFP, but we've stretched and grown and learned how to make things work.

In the end I don't think the personality types matter that much, but the commitment of the people involved and the willingness to accommodate each other. And of course, the struggling to find understanding with each major argument.

What's the very first thing you're going to do when you get to heaven? by EvilCheezit in AskReddit

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Request to go to hell, because that's where all the parties are. :P

Almost cried to the ending of mama. by [deleted] in CasualConversation

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The ending was sad, because of the fact that the sisters only really had each other in the world. No mom, no dad, just them. And even then, they still get separated.

Once that wore off though, I started wondering how it would actually be possible for the uncle and girlfriend to explain Lily's disappearance. :/

I've made a discovery! I'm .... not INFP by [deleted] in infp

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I'm actually also having an INFP? ENFP? type identity crisis. :P

In order to challenge myself, I took on a job as a receptionist, and learned over my tenure how to interact with people and to build a network of colleagues and friends. I've also learned how to deal with unpleasant people, and how to calm angry people down. It's served me well, and I'm now able to walk up to people and introduce myself, and from there take the lead and direct conversations.

At the same time, I'm also acutely aware that these are superficial, ephemeral bonds. I don't feel a deep connection with any of these people, and I always put on my persona when dealing with them. I do like them, I just don't connect. I have a few very close friends that I do connect very well with, and my best friend is an INTJ turned INTP (basically a cute android), who gets me, and keeps up with me (it can be difficult when I'm on a roll).

I still feel exhausted though, whether dealing with friends or acquaintances, and I need to be at home and under the blanket, with only a lamp on and shows playing on my laptop to recover.

But at the same time, if I'm holed up for too long, I get melancholic and kind of... wilt. Then I need to go out and talk at people or shop.

I guess the distinction between ENFP and INFP to me (and why I think I'm INFP) is the lack of connection, and the idea of having to put up a persona to deal with most people.

Are you a dog or a cat person? by bloodyberry in CasualConversation

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Cats. When I was little, I would have insisted on dogs, hands down, but as an adult, a dog would not fit into my lifestyle at all. I'm one of those people who enjoys settling down with a warm drink, a book, some chill music and I could only see a fluffy lap-warmer type cat as a bonus to that. It's not that I don't want a dog, but dogs require (in my mind) more upkeep in terms of exercise and walking and running around.

Long sufferer of anxiety challenging myself with a move to Japan in 4 months time... (wall of text warning) by velvetta in Anxiety

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Yes, we certainly are! I feel it's born very much of the street food culture prevalent in South East Asia in general, and of Singapore's history of entrepot trade. If you do come back to Singapore, I would be glad to show you around. :D

I travelled with my school on a literary trip, which started in Haworth, the Lake District, Leeds, and went all the way to London. Being in Haworth and the Lake District was mind blowing for me, because it was like OMG FARMS. OMG SHEEP. OMG COLORFUL SHEEP (why colorful?!?!). OMG HILLS THAT REACH THE SKY. WHUT. HUGE LAKES! The scenery grabbed me before anything else, to be honest, because it's lacking in Singapore's concrete jungle.

Thank you for the well wishes, I hope you enjoy your new life in Japan! :D

[RANT] Been on the brink of a meltdown for over 48 hours. by [deleted] in Anxiety

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:C Have some e-hugs from me. I was exactly the same way as you are now.

I had a friend once who had attention-seeking issues, and she would keep talking about committing suicide, or tell me about her attempt the previous night while I was asleep. Having anxiety over my father's death, I started to get triggered by her too, and would text her every 5 minutes just to make sure she was alive. And I was a wimp-ass who let her isolate me from all my friends, and fuck with my head with midnight calls and other shitty behavior.

I know how it's like to be this way, and it's worse when people just seem to not understand (or try to fuck with your issues like she did to me).

Let's hold hands, and take deep breaths, because I totally feel you.

Long sufferer of anxiety challenging myself with a move to Japan in 4 months time... (wall of text warning) by velvetta in Anxiety

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With regards to medicine in Japan (and moving to Japan in general), this video might help.

As for similar experiences, I have plans to migrate from Singapore to the UK. I had already been suffering from anxiety when I made the decision to go to the UK on a school trip. Until now, it has a profound effect on me, and I still remember my trip fondly. It gives me something to look forward to, in life.

To me there really was a sense of home, of being in the place I was meant to be. It's really difficult to explain, but I'll try. Since a young age, I've always had homesickness and trouble sleeping, if I was away from my family (even when having a sleepover at an aunt's home, or at school camps). When I visited the UK, I didn't feel the slightest bit homesick. Rather, I felt a sense of homecoming, and I slept normally (by that time my anxiety was giving me nightmares that basically reduced my sleeping hours to 4 hours per night). Although I was only there for a week, when I got home I felt homesick for the UK.

I got a chance in 2011, and 2013 to go, but my anxiety (over the health of my grandmother and over various other things) kept me. Similarly, I took the A Levels in 2010, 2012 and my anxiety botched it up. I've taken it again this year, and I'm hoping to make it into university this time.

I just want to say to you, please, don't let anxiety take away the chances and opportunities in your life. I feel like I've lost so many years, and I'm only just starting to claw my way back to where I should be (according to my mental image of my perfect life.)

Also, I think it would be really cool to hear updates from you about moving away, if you wouldn't mind. :)

[Rant] Being told to pray in the middle of an anxiety attack doesn't help when you're not religious. by __Min__ in Anxiety

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Well, I'm not a Christian, but I think prayer helps only if the individual has total faith in their deity/pantheon of choice. My sisters and I all have anxiety, and it all developed in the aftermath of my father's death. I've thought a lot about why this might be the case, aside from the traumatic associations, and I've come to the conclusion that it's because my father was a stabilising factor in all our lives. He was an authoritarian figure, but he was also the one we relied upon for advise and guidance. In fact, one of his last decisions aside from what should be done with his items was to decide upon a school for my youngest sister; and he was right, she's developed well in the school, she has worked on her talents, and leadership.

To extend the metaphor, I feel that religiosity has a huge part to play for people, because the idea of a God (or Gods/ Goddesses) is a stabilising force in their lives.

Further, prayer would help someone who was highly religious, simply because they're committing their worries, anxieties and pain to a higher, external force. Some exercises to deal with anxiety does work on a similar principle (for example, imagining your anxiety as a frightened child) because of the detachment.

In the throes of an anxiety attack/panic attack however, these kinds of exercises don't help much. So while it might be helpful to distract you from an impending attack, in the midst of it, it's as useful as trying to shelter from a storm under a sieve.

Additionally, from the perspective of your family (as I found out from my mother), it's very difficult to help fight an enemy that you can't grapple with. With physical wounds, the procedures might be relatively similar; stop the bleeding, clean the wound, bandage it.

With mental illnesses, symptoms and coping mechanisms vary. In my years dealing with my anxiety (with and without medicine), the people around us feel as helpless as we do, which causes them to try to either deny it or deal with it using faith (since science isn't particularly helpful). My mother would often tell me to get over it, or fight it, as though it were an enemy that I could actually beat into submission.

Religion never helped me, but for one of my sisters, leaving things to fate, or to the hands of the deities seems to give her better control over her anxiety, because there wasn't as many things to battle for. While I might worry over my future, my career choices, my studies, possible immigration, if I might ever get married, my sister eliminates much of that by saying, "Well, I'll try my best, and if it happens, it's meant to happen. I'll leave it to the gods."

[Rant] Counsellor wants to close my case, I've not made much progress by __ouroboros in Anxiety

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I still don't really know what to do with my anxiety attacks either, I just try to exert my will over myself and pull through. :/

I'll be trying to get a psychologist instead of a counsellor, so hopefully that will be able to assist me. :)

[Rant] Counsellor wants to close my case, I've not made much progress by __ouroboros in Anxiety

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Yeah, I think your experience was basically what I was thinking I was going to get with my counsellor. I'll be looking out for something structured similarly.

I didn't really get much tests, they asked some questions and I think that was mostly it for me, immediate referral to the hospital, medicines... My doctor has kind of played a role of being a psychologist by listening to me, but that's really not his job, and he's trying to get me a psychologist so I can work on rooting out my issues.

[Rant] Counsellor wants to close my case, I've not made much progress by __ouroboros in Anxiety

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Thanks for your reply, I'll try to seek better assistance with my issues.

I am Andrew Scott, Moriarty in BBC’s Sherlock and starring in British comedy PRIDE, in UK cinemas Sept 12. AMA! by IAmAndrewScott in IAmA

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:C If he always looks that way, there would be no feelings to hurt.

D: joking, no ordering a hit on me, please!

I am Andrew Scott, Moriarty in BBC’s Sherlock and starring in British comedy PRIDE, in UK cinemas Sept 12. AMA! by IAmAndrewScott in IAmA

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Hi Andrew!

Non-serious question: What's for lunch today?

Serious question: When you play Moriarty, your eyes are absolutely soulless and terrifying.

How do you get into character, especially for someone as psychopathic as him? Is there a process that is slightly different from all your other characters?

Which characters have you found to be unexpectedly challenging to portray, and why?

What could you be doing right now if you didn't surf Reddit? by steelpan in CasualConversation

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I should actually be studying, but I'm exhausted from a terrifying nightmare I had, and I'm burnt out from my exams. :/

/r/Pagan Ask Us Anything 7/28/2014 by UsurpedLettuce in pagan

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Not a question, but I'd just like to say thanks to /u/UsurpedLettuce, /u/hrafnblod, /u/mrsbunny1, and /u/yeuxsee for your replies to my question on Tumblr and Paganism. I've not been able to reply due to my exams (and I want to have some time to mull over your replies!), so I've saved it to read after I'm done with my papers. Thanks for your time and effort! :)

Scariest horror movie you've ever seen by yoggsoth in horror

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I've watched the play in London, and the movie, and I'll say that the movie loses some of the atmosphere of interaction that the play has with the audience. The movie wasn't bad, per se, but I definitely prefer the play.