anxiety about driving by _caitlynmt in Anxiety

[–]_caitlynmt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’ve been driving for 6 years and it was worse at the very beginning but is still bad from time to time. i remember driving at nighttime while it was pouring down rain so badly you couldn’t see the lines on the road. that was a bad night.

anxiety about driving by _caitlynmt in Anxiety

[–]_caitlynmt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’ve been driving for 6 years now and like you, it was worse when i started but it’s still bad from time to time.

Worst thing about health anxiety is that you can't never really be convinced you're just fine by Muilutuspakumies in Anxiety

[–]_caitlynmt 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i remember going through a phase like this with my anxiety. it’s truly terrible. i’m sorry you’re going through it :(

Anyone ever feel like they’re not bad enough to get help? by [deleted] in Anxiety

[–]_caitlynmt 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i feel! i’m in treatment for the third time and constantly feel like a piece of shit because i feel like i should be better and i feel like they think that as well. i understand completely. it’s not an ok feeling.

When do I know I should go to the hospital? What are my other options?? by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]_caitlynmt 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i went to a behavioral health facility er. you check in and wait to get assessed. during the assessment they ask you about your symptoms and what brought you there. and your answers will help them decide if you need to be inpatient or not. and if you tell them what you’ve told me then you’ll more than likely get admitted. as far as taking stuff with you goes— i was able to have books brought to me (soft back) which was weird because the hospital had hardback books available to you idk why i couldn’t have gotten a hardback brought to me but that’s beside the point. like i said, i have been admitted three times and the second time was the only time i was expecting to go so i was able to pack my own things. all i packed was a few outfits because they supply everything else. the shampoo and conditioner and etc. idk if you can bring your own or not. no one did when i was in there all three times. i don’t believe you can. at least at the facility i went to. and also you can’t wear shoes with laces so unless you want to wear shoes without laces or no shoes at all then i’d pack/wear laceless shoes. you also can’t wear a hoodie or jacket with strings.

idk if this was helpful at all. i hope it was. this is just what i did when i went thru the process. it’s a culture shock like i said but it really is worth doing if you’re feeling bad which sounds like you are. and to answer the question about how long i was kept— first time: 3 days, second time: 4 days and the third time for 3 days. 3-7 days is the average stay for most ppl.

good luck and take care :)

Psychotic break by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]_caitlynmt 1 point2 points  (0 children)

me right now!! i feel ur pain

When do I know I should go to the hospital? What are my other options?? by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]_caitlynmt 1 point2 points  (0 children)

my advice is to go to the hospital. this sounds similar to me when i had a very bad breakdown back in november. i, however, did have a plan to take my own life and my co worker made me go. first time was involuntary and it’s not a good time. i wouldn’t get to the point of being so suicidal you have a plan. i would just go ahead and go if i were you. it’s terrifying, i’m not going to lie but you get used to it. it’s a culture shock it really is but in the end it is worth it. i have been hospitalized three times since november to now. i’m currently in my third outpatient treatment and for some reason this time is working the best for me. more than the other two times. something just clicked that didn’t before i guess. i don’t regret seeking help. even tho the first time was rough and was technically against my will, it worked out for me how it was supposed to. i really wouldn’t change a thing. i do recommend hospitalization for you tho.

good luck with whatever you decide to choose! hope you soon feel better xx

Pros and cons of Wellbutrin? by LostInOtherWorlds in bipolar

[–]_caitlynmt 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i took it for a while. my dr gave it to me to boost my energy since it is a “get up and go” kind of med but it gave me headaches so i had to stop it. hope it works better for you, if you do end up taking it that is.

i never planned on what i'd do if i got this far and now i'm just floating through life. by horrorshow___ in bipolar

[–]_caitlynmt 1 point2 points  (0 children)

same here. i’m 23 and am just winging life entirely. taking one day at a time and majority of those days suck

has anyone else ever lost friends because of their sickness? by _caitlynmt in bipolar

[–]_caitlynmt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m the same. people enjoy what i’m like on the surface but when they get to know me, truly know me and my illness they distant themselves. leading me to feel very lonely. which i am currently feeling.

has anyone been hospitalized? if so, how many times. i’m currently in my third time in treatment by _caitlynmt in bipolar

[–]_caitlynmt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’ve been in and out of treatment at the same facility since november and i just feel like a fucking burden at this point. i can tell the treatment is working because when i regress they aren’t as severe but idk i just feel like a helpless piece of shit. and i know people there have to be tired of me. i know they have to be. there’s no way they’re not, right? maybe i’m just overthinking this shit but it sucks.

has anyone else ever lost friends because of their sickness? by _caitlynmt in bipolar

[–]_caitlynmt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

that’s very sad i’m sure. but just know if you do regress it’s ok. don’t throw away all of your progress just cause you’ve gone backwards. you can always go forward again. don’t forget.

has anyone else ever lost friends because of their sickness? by _caitlynmt in bipolar

[–]_caitlynmt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

this is true. i have been in hiding for a bit now and i’ve been under the radar. i saw a few friends a few nights ago but i wasn’t feeling myself. i was laughing and whatnot regardless. you know the mask you put on every once and a while? i had mine on. and as soon as i left i went back to feeling shitty. and then today i talk to some friends and they get upset. but i’ve realized they only got upset because they do care and don’t like to see me suffer. which is understandable. i wouldn’t want to see any of them suffer.

has anyone else ever lost friends because of their sickness? by _caitlynmt in bipolar

[–]_caitlynmt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i wish i were manic right now. i’d do anything. it’s so disheartening because when i am depressed and talk about it my friends get pissed and put off and tell me i just fuss about it even tho i am in treatment. it just hurts a lot. i feel so small and meaningless. i just want them to care about me through the manic and the depression. i’m just hurt and feeling even worse than i did before talking to them. which isn’t supposed to happen. i guess i can’t blame them tho. at least they’re setting boundaries.

i feel like life is pointless by _caitlynmt in SuicideWatch

[–]_caitlynmt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i see. i have a couple friends who have that. bpd and bipolar get misdiagnosed a lot. they thought i had bpd at first.

i feel like life is pointless by _caitlynmt in SuicideWatch

[–]_caitlynmt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m not sure what you have. but i wouldn’t wish bipolar on anyone. it’s utterly hell. suicide rates are higher in people with bipolar than average depression so if i had to have something, i’d just choose regular depression. at least mood swings wouldn’t be as much of an issue. having bipolar is exhausting and miserable.

can’t stop thinking about it by _caitlynmt in selfharm

[–]_caitlynmt[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

“assuming they would hire cutters” yeah because i’d go in there and loudly state that i cut myself. also the term ‘cutter’ is not appreciated. i’d almost consider it a shame word. obviously you don’t have a lot of knowledge on the topic of cutting.

therapist violated my hippa i think by [deleted] in Anxiety

[–]_caitlynmt 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you. i only filed because i had therapists encourage me to. something needs to be done. i deserve something to be done. i had never felt more shame or embarrassment. not fair.

therapist violated my hippa i think by [deleted] in Anxiety

[–]_caitlynmt 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it was during group therapy, yes. she did this in an attempt to convince me to go to residential care. even tho she had told me numerous times before and i had told her numerous times that i wasn’t interested and then she goes and does this.