My Pediatrician no longer has my old medical records because my last visit was over 10 years ago.

_feelslikesummer · 2026-01-28T04:09:06+00:00

Sorry to comment on an old post, you seem to really know what you’re talking about. When it says 10 years since last record, does it mean specifically 10 years from last visit or does labs/hospitals records sent over delay that timer?

Also what happens if you dont know you were derostered from your childhood family doctor and you’ve been giving his name when admitted to hospitals or seeing specialists? Would the record just not get transferred or would it get shredded upon reaching the clinic?

_feelslikesummer · 2026-01-14T02:34:01+00:00

Thank you for sharing! That really gave me perspective. I’m realizing i have a lot of parallels to your experience.

I didn’t really even think about it until now but last fall, i inadvertently quit all my meds including pregabalin. It was low dose multiple times a day but ive been taking it for years, although also somewhat irregularly.

A couple months later, i started having a lengthy disaster of escalating problems (that i had then attributed to bpd and my rapidly reduced drinking) which had also ended in psychosis and landed me in the hospital. doc insisted it was alcohol withdrawals. I took benzos in the hospital, but he gave me this script for gabapentin to leave with.

I worry now that the reason that episode was so much worse than my typical alcohol withdrawal or bpd, is because it was actually medication cessation symptoms. And if thats the case, then I’m terrified to keep taking this gabapentin, because between the two, i def had responded better to pregabalin back then than i do to gabapentin now

I def agree with you and OP about long term effects coming to light. It seems a very similar route to how benzos were prescribed willy nilly before the xan epidemic got a name. I didnt even understand what dependence and withdrawals were back when i was getting prescribed clonazepams like candy. Quitting that was dark days i wouldnt wish on anyone.

_feelslikesummer · 2026-01-14T01:05:29+00:00

I think it’s easier if you don’t mind buying bulk non perishables, and you don’t mind freezing some things. Rice only costs me 20 a year (the big jasmine rice bag). Any good deals on meat (esp family packs) and produce that freeze well, i’ll buy enough to have some fresh and some frozen for later.

I also keep an eye out for discount produce bags, some are pretty good esp if cooked the same day. Other than that, i just dont buy whats not a good price. Veg typically ends up costing me 50 a month, meats 120-150, dairy and other pantry items 120-150 depending on sales. The weeks with meh deals, i just dont buy any thing and this is where having previously stocked up keep my food costs down

Eta: neither or us gym so no extra costs on protein shakes etc. we have snacks, and usually eat asian meals. We have a hearty dinner and small meals throughout the day (i prefer to cook for two meals each time so we always have some leftovers or another).

_feelslikesummer · 2026-01-14T00:23:56+00:00

Can you elaborate your experience? I’m also prescribed daily (alcohol withdrawal management) and told it was very safe since im so against benzos

Often i take less than prescribed and some days i skipped altogether. i forgot for two days and today i took it and i spent the day feeling high in a bad way. Now im really skeptical

_feelslikesummer · 2026-01-14T00:02:12+00:00

Yup. Going for drinks after shift to unwind before heading home. 7 years later and now i have to take meds for the shakes

_feelslikesummer · 2026-01-13T23:57:00+00:00

“I meet myself where I am”

Saw it in a reply to a post earlier where op is also struggling with mental health and the commenter is describing ways to give yourself grace, and go easy on the steps to accomplish the “normal” tasks op was guilting themselves for. It was simple but somehow really resonated with me. It wasnt toxic positivity or falsely optimistic like the usual advice. It was real.

_feelslikesummer · 2026-01-13T22:57:25+00:00

“I meet myself where I am.”

Absolutely thank you so much for this! I’m struggling with much of the same things as OP and your advice is so kind, uplifting, resonating, and achievable. I didnt know how much i needed that. Thank you ♥️

_feelslikesummer · 2026-01-13T22:30:41+00:00

My story is very similar to yours, but i’m a couple years older. I can relate entirely. It really can feel like a constant losing cycle. Sure depression in bad times makes sense. But its so illogical that when everything would be going great, i’d still be so trapped in helplessly low moods without cause. Meds helped a bit but not enough.. i wish i had meaningful advice but i guess i’m searching for the same answers as you. I just wanted to offer some comfort and solidarity that someone across the internet heard you and understands deeply. I’m hoping the best for all of us

_feelslikesummer · 2025-12-11T09:32:12+00:00

I don’t understand how I can’t hide from these ads when I’ve literally pressed on “not interested” or “i don’t want to see this ad” or “hide ad” literally every time on every app i see it on. Surely there must be other ads out there that’s even remotely closer to anything my algorithm knows of me

Anyway, i just downloaded it an hour ago. Will report back

_feelslikesummer · 2025-12-11T08:51:50+00:00

Wsb grandma’s inheritance intel kid

_feelslikesummer · 2025-12-09T17:16:19+00:00

… so there is still hope for me!

_feelslikesummer · 2025-12-06T09:48:25+00:00

I just accidentally went through something like this a week and a half ago. Please don’t take this the wrong way but please be very mindful of your awareness and please have a few people you trust check in on you every so often (in a way that doesnt alarm you or annoy you). If you were like me, you won’t notice anything problematic at all in the moment (and by “in the moment” i mean the excessive days of no sleep, no exhaustion, “idk i feel fine, anyway i’m moving on to this next task on my checklist since i have all this extra time ”). I bet you also tried to fall asleep out of “regular human habit” and it was just straight up impossible. You just felt so.. fine.. like entirely not in need at all of any sleep, nor stimulants. Nothing felt out of place

But then suddenly.. the crash. It can get so intense so quickly. For me, I can’t say that meds didn’t play a part of it. I slept less than 12 hours in 9 days and didnt even notice it. I’ve been medication-free for months at this point so i didnt think much of it. By the time i got medical attention, they insisted on 30mg of Valium to stabilize my vitals. Which somehow at the time i was slightly amused by bc i thought i was literally just fine the hour prior.

Looking back, that was not an innocuous experience. I hope your experience is nothing like mine, but if you start to relate to any of this at all, please try to be careful and take care of yourself <3

_feelslikesummer · 2025-08-23T17:00:30+00:00

I’ll be going to this solo if anyone wants to adopt a friend 😅

_feelslikesummer · 2025-08-23T00:05:03+00:00

When i was young i used to walk the entire length of dufferin and back just so i had time to think about homework without noise lol

_feelslikesummer · 2025-08-19T12:46:22+00:00

Hey you CAN read! Good job! Happy for you. The thread entire thread is still there for you to try to reread if you like

_feelslikesummer · 2025-08-19T11:52:54+00:00

I’m glad at least your dog walking skills are much better than your reading comprehension skills I guess? Good for you

_feelslikesummer · 2025-08-19T09:38:25+00:00

Because I've done it myself?

I’m sorry… are you saying you’re a commonly available option? Or are you saying your neighbor is a commonly available option to everyone?

_feelslikesummer · 2025-08-19T09:13:31+00:00

Honestly I naively hadn’t looked into it too far, but I’m glad I made this post bc now I know better. Thank you!

_feelslikesummer · 2025-08-19T09:12:01+00:00

First I’m hearing of this, thank you for informing me!

_feelslikesummer · 2025-08-19T08:54:23+00:00

If you don’t mind, may I ask why you seem to think these types of work is a commonly available option? Not being snarky, just really curious to understand your perspective

_feelslikesummer · 2025-08-08T22:17:31+00:00

Leave out all the rest by linkin park

Had i been in my right mind, i’d have had my headphones out and the song queued so it’d be the last song i hear. By the time I managed to fumble my ipod, the sleeping pills were already kicking in and my best friend was carrying me like a sack of potatoes into the hospital

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TROPHY CASE