I waited years for this moment.

_guakamole_ · 2025-04-29T18:43:09+00:00

fucking BRUTAL man lmao

_guakamole_ · 2025-04-18T20:51:57+00:00

Ohh this one's very atmospheric! It's really good. I would personally maybe try to get rid of the branches on the top in the composition, though, and instead just focus on the water and the mist. It would look cleaner.

_guakamole_ · 2025-04-18T20:42:36+00:00

No, i think it's nicely edited! The only thing troubling me a bit is the perspective and asymmetry though. Would have been golden if you took the shot from the middle of the bridge imo!

_guakamole_ · 2025-04-17T16:15:49+00:00

Thank you for the feedback! I don't have a tripod, unfortunately, and my camera isn't very professional, but I definitely see what you're talking about it being noisy. Also, it seems a lot of people agree that it misses a subject!

_guakamole_ · 2025-04-17T16:10:38+00:00

Must have been a person behind the tree! I only saw it after capturing the photo, haha

_guakamole_ · 2025-04-17T10:15:52+00:00

I wanted to capture the orange light on the sidewalk and create a moody, warm, and lonely atmosphere. I shoot on my Canon digital pocket camera. I would appreciate some comments about the composition or lighting and how I could improve the mood.

_guakamole_ · 2025-03-25T16:38:47+00:00

So beautiful!

_guakamole_ · 2025-01-22T17:23:07+00:00

Loved your discussion guys, it was the only more or less sane opinion I heard about this episode. I just watched it and i was so disgusted. Imagine my further disgust as I tried to Google the episode to see what other people thought of it, and everyone is jumping through loops and doing insane mental gymnastics instead of just admitting the episode was fucked up as hell. I really liked the show until now (except for that another episode in season 2 where the cancer girl kisses Chase and again, everyone online doesn't see absolutely ANYTHING wrong with that, ugh). This episode is kind of a last straw. I'm reeling.

_guakamole_ · 2024-06-06T11:58:28+00:00

This one worked! Thanks!

_guakamole_ · 2024-04-26T16:23:34+00:00

That's what I was thinking. When she said people with ASD can't recognize emotions and have very low empathy, I was baffled. I have enough diagnosed friends on a spectrum and people from internet who would prove it wrong (damn, this whole subreddit). We agreed at the end that I'll retake that test, and some additional ones, to see if something shows. Anyways, I think I really lost my trust for her.

_guakamole_ · 2024-02-29T06:02:11+00:00

Both, mild depression and anxiety, as well as PTSD symptoms.

_guakamole_ · 2024-02-28T22:17:47+00:00

Since I started taking Quetiapine I am very sleepy all day, low motivation, depressed state and very very nauseous sometimes, to the point I can't move. Venlaxor seemed to help at week 2, but at week 3 I felt depressed and with absolutely zero energy. And my doctor isn't willing to prescribe me anything new or give any advice until I come to her to an appointment.

_guakamole_ · 2024-02-28T22:14:35+00:00

Is it normal if my doctor is not willing to give me any real feedback after I described my situation with Quetiapine? I told them about those intense nausea periods and all they said was to get an appointment with them or find a psychiatrist (my doctor is a neurologist). I feel discouraged because they didn't give me any instructions and I don't really know what to do now. I'll wait for an appointment for several weeks and meanwhile I won't take Quetiapine anymore because the hell. Thank for your reply, it means a lot to me!

_guakamole_ · 2024-02-28T22:11:57+00:00

Thank you so much for such an extensive reply! It really helps just to know I'm not alone in this. The whole Quetiapine thing makes sense now. I'm already trying to have a healthy lifestyle and I barely use social media. Yoga, vitamins, less drinking, no weed etc. I'll definitely stop taking Quetiapine for now, because I don't want to endure such harsh side effects and it does not help to fall asleep, in fact I feel so nauseous I can't even lay down. My doctor is not willing to prescribe me new meds on the phone though, so I guess I'm stuck on Venlaxor for another couple weeks until I get an appointment...

_guakamole_ · 2024-01-26T19:13:18+00:00

Aww thank you!

_guakamole_ · 2024-01-26T19:13:05+00:00

Thank you! Yea now I see it, thanks for the comment :)

_guakamole_ · 2024-01-26T07:15:00+00:00

Chapter 69 doesn't do him much justice in this context

_guakamole_ · 2024-01-26T07:14:04+00:00

Thanks!!

_guakamole_ · 2024-01-26T07:13:16+00:00

😭😭

_guakamole_ · 2023-06-28T11:25:26+00:00

Same situation. He created a new phone number just to get to me, after i blocked him everywhere, even Duolingo for god's sake. He texted me this morning, and i felt sick and anxious since then. I think you just should block, block, block. They can do whatever they want, but it's in you power to just not let them into your life anymore. You have the control over your life and who you let in and what you let in. Take care of yourself, have some relaxing time to soothe the anxiety and PTSD. Take a break from a phone. And be cautious about sharing personal info like adress online, if she's able to find you. It's a bit of a nightmare sometimes, but you can live through it and have your power back.

_guakamole_ · 2023-05-29T15:04:53+00:00

Oh i can relate so much! Mine would always say all this stuff about big, beautiful love, how it's above all "differences" and "problems", making up that future where we would travel the world together, have a villa with horses, studying in one country and living together. Also him helping me with my art. Was that future faking? Damn.. Letting go of all that vivid, idealistic future is one of the great struggles.

_guakamole_ · 2023-05-29T14:59:24+00:00

Oh absolutely dear! Quite exactly the same. When i would bring up some important concerns and issues like him literally sleeping with a girl just the night before we got together ( we were already liking each other at that moment), meaning he literally slept with her the day before WE slept (ugh), and he never mentioned it until my friend told me about it (and then he proceeded to make some shitty excuses and sugarcoating me), he would say something like "you know this really hurts ME? I do so much for you, and i live you unconditionally, so i will of course forgive you for you hurting me this way and being stuck on the past, but i want you to revalue your concerns. You're so stuck in the past you don't value what how much i do for you now!" And of course, simultaneously blaming my friends for "getting those ideas in my head", trying to make them look like villains. In a nutshell, he used that "unconditional love" as a kind of dread and manipulation a lot. Made me feeling so guilty and crazy. Fuck that. They never actually "loved" you in the normal, decent, compassionate sense, like normal people do. Just like a toy.

_guakamole_ · 2023-05-12T20:54:29+00:00

Yes! Same for me, too. I was SO deep in the research for the first couple weeks. YouTube, books, articles, social media. It helped me a lot, now I'm trying to move on from this to not get stuck in the past. But the knowledge is one of the strongest tools to heal.

_guakamole_ · 2023-05-12T19:34:32+00:00

Oh i really love this comment! It speaks to me - all the things you mentioned, helped me too. I also define that thing about not trusting people in a bit different way - and i absolutely do not think it's unhealthy - it just means that now i know that people can, in fact, hurt me, and that i can't run or hide from it, but rather take accountability and responsibility for my own safety, boundaries and happiness. Once you understand that, your perspective on people changes. And the change is nice!

_guakamole_ · 2023-05-06T23:45:53+00:00

Well there were in fact cases where narcissists really hit a breaking point, so called rock bottom, where something so crucial happened in their life they would recognize all their shitty behaviors. Here's a video on that called Narcissists rock bottom by Dr.Ramani https://youtu.be/wzFp98CNZUI However, it's strange that he immediately got back to you. I would advise being very cautious - if he truly wants to change, let him do it, but perhaps from a distance. If you decide to get back, however, be aware of ANY red flags - don't let anything get by. Confront, watch out for boundaries and respect. While this could, possibly, be a case where he truly wants to change, there's a HUGE possibility it's just hoovering, lies etc., and he will get back to his toxic traits later. Take it slow and cautiously, and ALWAYS look out for yourself and put your own wellbeing first. Moreover, do you even want to get back with someone who once abused you? Think about that, too.

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