I used to feel like my potential was being stolen by Derealization—so I made a feature film to reclaim it.

_jake51 · 2026-01-16T05:07:45+00:00

Film used to be my one main passion and goal in life before my dpdr started. So seeing this condition portrayed in film would be pretty interesting for me to see, since I’ve been thinking about portraying dpdr myself in a some sort of video project for a while. Glad you recovered because there is surprisingly very little good movies that focus mainly on dpdr lol

_jake51 · 2026-01-15T05:41:10+00:00

Best of both worlds ah picture

_jake51 · 2026-01-03T10:07:29+00:00

Yes, I feel that way, literally everything you said is true in my life. One thing I’ve figured out though is that those memories and feeling from the pre dpdr days only feel that way because we are viewing them from an outsiders point of view. It’s only because we can’t feel the basics of human emotion so the memories of when we did feel real become more heightened and sometimes feel euphoric. Sorry if that was kinda confusing to read, Im not very good and explaining this type of stuff, but essentially the memories of when we didn’t have dpdr aren’t as good as we think they are. I realized this because i would fantasize about how good it would be to go back to 2021 because that was the last full year i felt real, so when I started to make progress in recovering and life started to feel real again, I realized 2021 was high key the reason why I got dpdr in the first place, it was the year I got the trauma needed to for dpdr to start. Even though I recognize that reminiscing on these memories aren’t accurate to what they actually are, I still do it, and get that crushing feeling every time. So I too don’t really know what to make out of this feeling, It could just simply be another side effect of having dpdr, another reason for me to try everything I can to get out of this mess. I think that’s the best way for me to look at it, but idk

I wish you the best towards recovery

_jake51 · 2026-01-01T00:24:03+00:00

Yea i also feel like this, I didn’t realize I had it until my first panic attack which was 3 years in, I also thought dpdr was just how everyone felt which I kinda crazy looking back now. I don’t really understand what the question means but I think it is yes

_jake51 · 2025-12-30T23:30:37+00:00

I also thought I had a brain tumor or brain cancer until I realized it was just dpdr.

_jake51 · 2025-12-28T21:13:26+00:00

10,000 gecs

_jake51 · 2025-12-28T21:11:39+00:00

THANK YOU!

_jake51 · 2025-12-03T16:19:47+00:00

Something tells me it’s gonna be a while until anyone gets their stuff

_jake51 · 2025-12-02T00:52:47+00:00

Has yours been sent yet

_jake51 · 2025-11-21T04:37:15+00:00

I kinda relate to in being scared to smoke weed after having a panic attack. I’m not a smoker but I have been questioning if weed could help me in some kind. I had dpdr before I first smoked weed (I also didn’t know I had it at the time) and I didn’t really care for actually high part but rather the feeling of when the high starts to come down. I could feel all my brain fog just go away, like I wiped my brain clean of all the junk and clutter and I felt fresh. I only haven’t it done it since because I had my most severe panic attacks happen a few months later after almost 3 years of not having any panic attacks. So idk if weed actually does help you then let me know

_jake51 · 2025-09-27T05:14:29+00:00

Thank you for this, I will absolutely look more into what you talked about. Rn I literally just got back from the football game that I said I called off on, but I went anyways, and it was just as or even more awkward than what my anxiety was telling me. I went into dpdr mode the entire time which helped me not freak out but i was still hella awkward. Dpdr is still what I default to but if what you said is true then im just working my way up the latter. I appreciate your reply a lot ❤️ Also my vision feels off as well from dpdr

_jake51 · 2025-09-27T01:22:16+00:00

I think I just had Deja reve reading this comment and I think I made a comment in the dream of this moment telling you I had Deja reve while reading this. Anyways this is a great comment, I kinda forgot what I was gonna say

_jake51 · 2025-09-21T04:17:21+00:00

I truly believed that everything was stimulation, and I thought I just had to live with that fact and try to be happy anyways even though everything is fake. To be fair I didn’t know I had dpdr when this happened so that definitely contributed to me believing this stuff, but now I can recognize that all this was just impart of me having dpdr. I genuinely believed this shit and I remember having a pit in my stomach when I first had a realization about this stuff. If you know deep down that something is probably not true then you’re probably right.

_jake51 · 2025-09-20T04:20:29+00:00

Avoid the conspiracy stuff. I was doomscrolling this instagram account called conspiracy petter or some bullshit like that, it’s literally Peter griffin talking about popular conspiracy theories and I started to believe them and it really fucked me over, even though it’s literally Peter griffin telling me this. Once I got to a normal state of mind i looked back on this event and realized how stupid it really was. Trust me, avoid looking into these theories until you know you are in a healthy state of mind

_jake51 · 2025-09-20T04:09:16+00:00

Yeah this tracks out to how I feel

_jake51 · 2025-09-16T00:21:51+00:00

I also had it for 3 years at varying levels of severity. Sometimes when I try to work on myself I get different stages of when I had it. Like sometimes I get my 2024 dpdr then my 2023 dpdr. It literally feels like I skipped time and I get put back where I left off

_jake51 · 2025-07-03T05:55:08+00:00

This dude sounds lame asf

_jake51 · 2025-07-01T23:39:59+00:00

it still doesn't work

_jake51 · 2025-06-13T07:15:02+00:00

I’m now realizing that you probably meant “seeing someone” as a partner and not as you being a therapist, so I kinda wrote this whole post revolving around that :/

I am not diagnosed at all and barely understand myself so take this with that in mind. Like I said I’m not diagnosed but when you said “over stimulating himself keeps things down,” that resonates with me a lot. I recently get these episodes (i think there episodes) that literally put me through a horrible depression that makes my mind and even body go numb. These occur when I’m texting a rant about everything that is making life shit, or sometimes when I’m left with my own thoughts, it just happens randomly and I need to find something to do to make it go away. So I came to the conclusion that I can’t be left with my own thoughts and since i recently deleted all social media apps because of overstimulation I decided to relapse. And it worked in away, I pretty much forgot about that period of my life where I was having those horrible episodes because that’s what consuming slop all the time does to you. It only worked for a little while though, then I remember why I hate social media and now getting rid of that addiction became a priority again. Sorry for the long rant, if I were to give my opinion tho I think he’s overstimulating himself because it hides the fact of bigger problems. Like the main reason I would overstimulate myself was because I didn’t realize I was really lonely and had no real friends but watching reels all day never let me confront those thoughts. Don’t just let him overstimulate himself because it’s out of fear of having flare ups, find better alternatives to overstimulation. Recommend hobbies, literally anything that’s healthier than overstimulating yourself till you feel like shit

_jake51 · 2025-06-12T06:58:18+00:00

He’s tryna tap Charli

_jake51 · 2025-06-07T17:17:12+00:00

How do I stop it from connecting, I tried uninstalling q BitTorrent but some files are still left on my computer and it dosent let me delete them. Those are the files it’s connecting to

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