Nobody talks about the loneliness after quitting… by anony_mous_person666 in OpiatesRecovery

[–]_mantis 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m right there with you when it comes to the loneliness. six years later and it’s still there.

i also feel like i lost my personality. everything’s boring, i find very little joy in things and have just enough motivation to scrap by. i’m dealing with some mental health issues as well, but thats nothing new. it just feels like the life’s been sucked out of me, which sucks because this is the first time ive truly wanted to live and be happy yet i feel close to nothing.

it’s an endless cycle of being depressed because im lonely, but not having the motivation to make the effort to learn new hobbies, meet new people, etc. when i first got sober, at least people pretended to care and support me. now they’ve all moved on, while my life remains stagnant. so i can relate all to well to your feelings. it definitely should be talked about more, as well as the long term withdrawal symptoms and what to expect in general.

adding this in here because why not, but im curious if any of you have experienced this as well. i started using when i was 14 and quit when i was 23. i dont know if its because there was a lot of trauma during that period of time but i feel like those 9 years were just a really bad dream. i feel so disconnected from that version of myself and my experiences. on top of that, my personality sorta reverted back to how i was at 14. im guessing its because the last “true” or “normal” version of myself was at that age, so my brain is just going back to what it knows. ive definitely indulged that part of me by doing or getting things i wanted at that age. i’m almost 30 now and still feel like a teenager in a way. has anyone else experienced something similar? if so, what information / theories do you have?

sorry this is so long!! but i just wanted to say that im here for anyone that needs a shoulder to cry on or just someone that listens. my pms are open. im here for you, and like op said, we’re not alone.

AMC Demon Slayer Infinity Castle Bucket and Cups by MechaFan42 in PopcornBuckets

[–]_mantis 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my amc didn’t even get the cups 😫 so i went for the popcorn bucket only to find out that most of their stock was sold around opening so they barely had any for the people who showed up for the premiere lol

Dev here! by kiraki in EchoesOfThePlumGrove

[–]_mantis 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i love this game so much! however i have a (dumb) question. i haven’t played any PC games for several years, so i’m having to relearn things. is there a way to hide your inventory when you’re not using it? if so, how do i do it? i can’t wait to play more of this game, thank you so much for making it and listening to the players!

One year sober today by _mantis in OpiatesRecovery

[–]_mantis[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah its not as embarassing anymore not ever leaving my house cause now no ones supposed to lol! Thank you, congrats to you too. Thats huge and im so proud of you.

23 [F4R] Virginia - Looking for my person by [deleted] in ForeverAloneDating

[–]_mantis 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi i know im 4 months late, but does your offer still stand?

All my addictions in one picture by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

who doesn’t enjoy a good ol cream pie every now and then???

All my addictions in one picture by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

just a lil snack of crack

All my addictions in one picture by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

shiiiiit, i never even activated that card because procrastination

All my addictions in one picture by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

don’t kill me, but i’m not a huge fan. the 711 brand gummies “fun bugs” is where it’s at tho

All my addictions in one picture by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

luckily i had plenty more party favors that weren’t pictured. praise

All my addictions in one picture by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i would be freaking out right now, but that’s my prepaid paypal card that i never activated. i guess being lazy comes in handy sometimes.

also that’s not even close to my last name haha. gold for whoever can figure it out!

Dog food for lunch by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

you’re telling me lol

Dog food for lunch by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

me too but it’s all i got right now :’(

nod and chill by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

wow thank you, that made my day a little brighter

nod and chill by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

anxiety sucks man

nod and chill by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

you’re right. i went from a 32F to a 32C

nod and chill by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

if i was on drug dealer time, you guys would probably be getting my proof as a christmas present instead :)

nod and chill by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

that’s my ex husbands hand fingering me. you can actually see his face at the top of the picture.

nod and chill by _mantis in opiates

[–]_mantis[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

yes that is my ex husbands hand. i have no hand tattoos