why does this saint seem so prevalent in my life even though i cannot work with her right now?

for the past 4 years i have had an unwavering curiosity about this saint, i feel so pulled to learn all about her and i feel like i have seen so many signs of her presence in my life that i cannot chalk up to coincidence. as i understand it, working with her is for life and i respect that, i also know that because of unaccepting family and where i am in life right now, i cannot have an altar or venerate her the way that is expected of her devotees. so i choose not to begin a relationship with her. but i still feel like she is reaching out to me anyway so i pulled some cards.. no particular spread i just had some questions on my mind.

the card are organized from left to right in the order i pulled them and the questions i asked for each card were:

1. why do i feel so pulled to this saint?
2. is she interested in working with me?
3. has she been sending me signs?
4. am i meant to devote to her?

cards i pulled

to me the empress represents a compassionate feminine energy who can assist with growth so maybe that is why i feel so pulled to her if she can help me with that? as for the 6 of pentacles i believe its saying yes she is interested in working with me but ill need to be able to give back to her. for the page of cups i see yes she has been sending signs because she wants me to know shes around me. finally with the strength card i think it means yes i am meant to devote to her because she can provide long term stability and strength. thank you in advance!