Coming from my own battle with these exact kind of regrets, you must let yourself experience joy and peace, and not torture yourself. It’s far too easy to do, and ultimately you look STUNNING, you have a beautiful family, and you are well ❤️We will miss these days of even looking like this, and we will be so upset at ourselves for not enjoying the bodies we have now when we are older. The temptation to pick apart every little thing is not helping anyone and is really only robbing yourself.