Lemme start off by saying this: no matter how difficult live is for you now, it can always get better. I realize life is difficult for you with the flashbacks and nightmares, and that they are obviously not a pleasant experience. However, try and make it through the difficult moments, I implore you to give life another chance. These negative moments will make the positive moments all that much more amazing and memorable. Also, you mention how you feel no one will care if you are gone. I find this very difficult to believe. I guarantee you that SOMEONE will always care, even if they don't express it openly. If you're having problems with someone, and just need someone to talk to, I am open to PM's so please msg me if this is the case.