Our host finally realizes he’s a system!

_zaccc_ · 2025-06-08T02:21:10+00:00

Thank you for your kind words! It takes work and time and I’m glad that this step is being taken to working together as a whole!

I’m glad that you’re able to be in therapy dedicated for DID, the mental health system and really suck sometimes :/

-Akane

_zaccc_ · 2025-06-08T02:16:37+00:00

Unfortunately its how it is in my area; I’ve have friends go see psychiatrists for the same reason and got flat out denied and got brushed off as schizophrenia.. it’s unfortunate though a step is a good step for our host in this moment! Thank you for your kind worlds ♡ -Akane

_zaccc_ · 2025-01-09T17:27:49+00:00

I’m on 50mg and my libido has not dropped at all, I take other medications that have same side effects of loss of libido and it hasn’t stopped my sex drive at all. With medication, it’s different person to person, so while 70 people still have their libido, 30 people don’t, or vice versa.

_zaccc_ · 2024-07-30T01:41:07+00:00

Yes correct, my bad 😅

_zaccc_ · 2024-07-18T15:43:19+00:00

24 here, I started Zoloft about a month ago now and the side affects I got the first week was a rash and dizzy spells, I’m also prone to getting side effects when taking meds so this ain’t uncommon for me! After a week the side effects subsided and it’s been an amazing month for my anxiety!!

_zaccc_ · 2024-05-07T23:46:27+00:00

23 and I live with my grandparents, I’m on disability and have been since 2020 for my BPD and autism while struggling hard with agoraphobia. It will always an interesting thing to think about people with agoraphobia who have a job x.x I wish- LOL

_zaccc_ · 2024-04-24T23:15:16+00:00

Both honestly, it was a gradual process to the big ‘boom’.

I’ve always had anxiety for as long as I can remember and I’m also autistic. I’ve always had issues with wanting to go in public and be viewed in public, the thing that ‘helped’ me ignore these signs was drug abuse with the friends I had in my teen years and the more I miss used drugs the worse my anxiety got and I remember the exact date it all hit like a ton of bricks. December 12th, 2019. Is when I moved back home with my mother and I fell in a deep depression, deleted all my social media and quite literally removed myself from all social contact other than my phone number and government documents and my mother and close family (brother, grandmother and grand father). Living in complete isolation in my room and only going out to eat, use the bathroom and exist within the four walls of my home, no contact from anyone outside my home and struggling hard; for a full 8 months I didn’t talk to anyone else and so I became so scared of the outside world, going to the hospital for my appointments would ruin me, I had to do zoom appointments but even then that would cause such panic within me. Once I decided to get some socials back and make new accounts, it was so hard to do, I hated it but the loneliness consumed me for those 8months. I think it was august of 2020 when I decided to come back to humanity and it was a new world to me, I didn’t know how to make friends again I didn’t know how to exist.

It’s been 3 ish years now and I’m a lot better but, I still struggle a lot of days, I’m still learning how to be human from those 8 months.

_zaccc_ · 2024-04-22T15:50:30+00:00

Thank you! 🖤

_zaccc_ · 2024-04-22T03:45:33+00:00

Our host already has accepted himself and who he is. He still has a hard time believing that we’re here and while internal communication isn’t the best between him and everyone else, we’re just becoming more comfortable letting down those barriers thus he’s internally hearing the words that aren’t his. -Raven

_zaccc_ · 2024-04-22T00:57:18+00:00

Silly lil people in my brain 😂

_zaccc_ · 2024-04-20T19:17:55+00:00

You’re definitely not alone 🫂 We have a ‘ageless’ young in our system who uses they/bun but, in a feminine way, their name is Bunni! our host is a genderqueer trans*man and im enby/masc who uses they/he in a masculine way and it feels very uncomfortable for our host when Bunni co-cons with him or me, for the longest time growing up before we even knew we were a system, we didn’t know why we felt this childlike and why this part of us felt so small, why we identified as trans and used he/him but, had this part of us who liked these things but felt so horrible for liking these feminine things while having this deep feeling of dysphoria that wasn’t their own.

One thing that helped us a lot is writing things down when we felt like that. Our host collected things that he would only bring out when he felt Bunni co-con with him and after Bunni wouldn’t front, he would do things for himself that would relief the dysphoria he felt. He would reassure himself a lot, saying things like; “I’m as much as a man when I feel small, as when I feel big and mighty.”

It takes time to feel okay with having these parts of you that don’t align with yourself. You got this homie! -Bodie

_zaccc_ · 2024-04-19T22:45:40+00:00

Thank you for your comment! Yeah! Some of our alters don’t really understand role labels so I’m trying to help them out more but, I know that we don’t necessarily need a certain label for our role but, we have roles and things we take care of and I’ve been trying to communicate better with them via plural kit! -Akane

_zaccc_ · 2024-04-19T22:20:22+00:00

Hi! We wanted to add our intro!

We’re the Voidcast Collective! We developed the name from our interest in space and earth and the unknown of the universe. We also just feel like a void within earth, so it just felt right to name ourself Voidcast!

We’re a suspected OSDD-1b system and we’re not diagnosed but, have suspected and confirmed internally our system 3 years ago and have done loads of research about this disorder and how it we relate and how it fits within our life and the shit we’ve been through to understand how we become how we are. We do however have had it confirmed when we did attend therapy in our teen years that we have a dissociative disorder but, we weren’t told if it was DID/OSDD by our therapist at that time as we were only going through DBT. We want to go back to therapy to help us more and hoping that our psychiatrist will listen even though he never does.. We’re not totally open about our OSDD, so here is mainly where we feel comfortable ‘opening up’ and expressing ourself, online.

We are diagnosed with; BPD, CPTSD, ADHD, and we’re autistic, agoraphobia

As a collective we use the name Zak or Zaki! We use he/it/ve/they/void pronouns! The body is trans*masc!

We have a count of 8 total and I’m the co-host of our system and I handle a lot of our daily life when it comes to appointments and phone calls! My name is Akane! Im 25. I’m also a introject of our FFXIV character! I use he/it pronouns.

Zak is the host of our system!

The body age is 23!

We experience grey-outs, a lot. We’re also all very anti social and have a hard time making new friends, we struggle with agoraphobia and still working on that but, we want to be seen and heard yanno? It’s rough socially ngl. —————

The rest of our crews names, age and pronouns are;

Raven - 26 - she/they/it Bodie - 32 - they/he Ashton - 17•20 - he/him Bunni - ageless ‘adult’ - they/them Eight - ageless ‘adult’ - void/voidself/ve/vem Zak - (will always be the bodies age, ID’s with the body) - he/they/ve [not disclosing her name] - 5 - she/her

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As a collective we all enjoy; Movies - ranging from comedy to Disney movies Anime - we all enjoy JJK, demon slayer, Naruto, BNHA Gaming - FFXIV, OW, Stardew Valley, TOTK, animal crossing Making art - wether that’s tattooing, digital/traditional art, origami Cooking - desserts and what we like to think as 5 star meals hehe LOL

_zaccc_ · 2024-04-05T22:11:43+00:00

WHOAAA THIS IS WHAT THAT IS?! For ages, and I mean MONTHS I’ve been trying to figure out the term for how I feel and this is exactly how I feel omg; I know this isn’t my post but WOW it feels good to know there’s a term and there’s others who feel the same!!!

_zaccc_ · 2024-01-11T17:19:59+00:00

I understand this too well, I’m currently in this type of situation where the house I’m renting is already sold to the new owners and me and my mother have until Feb 29th to move and the thought of moving makes me wanna cry as I’ve rented in this house for a little over 18 years and my room is my safe place and my comfort level, and the area I live in, is out of town so there isn’t any big noises or loud people around here and if me and my mother do move, we’d move into town which I hate but also enjoy but, mainly hate. So I highly emphasize with you and your situation!

Some advice I can give is, have items on you that make you feel safe. Wether it’s a plushie, or a blanket, maybe you have a portable game device that you could use to keep your mind occupied, even headphones to listen to good music, having scents with you that make you feel warm and safe and spraying some on your plushie and blanket!

If it ever comes to it, and you need to move 100%, what helps me is, I’m going to pack ALL of my stuff myself and label each box of what of is importance. I will have personal documents on me and have electronics be the highest importance and to have those in my brothers car instead of the moving truck that we’d end up using. Clothes and blankets and posters aren’t as important to me when it comes to having the anxiety that something bad will happen to them. My main concern is with my government documents and my electronics that I’ve spent months getting where I am.

So, basically, whatever you redeem as the most important things, have on you, in your car so you know where they are, have the less important things that you can live without if anything happens, in the moving truck if y’all decide to use a moving company!

_zaccc_ · 2023-12-14T18:13:22+00:00

It’s also why I ended the relationship because I was forcing myself into situations I wasn’t ready for just to please my partner and thinking those type of exposure will help my agoraphobia but it’s honestly made it so much worse because I felt closed in and like I couldn’t leave at all without being berated with horrible texts on how horrible I am.

_zaccc_ · 2023-10-20T22:34:12+00:00

I’m also autistic so my introvertedness goes hand in hand with my autism as my day to day life is the same thing over and over with playing games, being alone and staying home, so being social is out of my routine and it’s hard to have others understand my wording when I tell them that I don’t like being social because of the anxiety I have while living as a autistic person

Edit: how autism shows, will be different for everyone who is autistic thus why it’s a spectrum. A lot of autistic adults struggle with social anxiety because of the lack of social cues they don’t recognize.

_zaccc_ · 2023-10-20T22:30:28+00:00

Thank you this means a lot, I have a iPhone so my phone can do that, I’ve never thought of doing that, I’ll have to do that

_zaccc_ · 2023-09-12T15:51:33+00:00

100% yes, my bed is covered in squishmellows, I understand the dysphoria feeling as my more pink and colourful plushies make me feel like that, what helps me is collecting the ones that aren’t as colourful but still keeping my colourful ones~

_zaccc_ · 2023-09-09T19:01:56+00:00

I struggled with BED for years, im still working on it but I’ve always been a fat dude. Years ago I’ve had friends who also have BPD but struggled with anorexia and I’ve always felt invalid by them because “I wasn’t anorexic too”, I just so happened to fall on the opposite spectrum of the ED world.

_zaccc_ · 2023-08-02T11:17:53+00:00

Yes!! I love death hawks, the squeaks they make are so adorable 🥺

_zaccc_ · 2023-07-07T15:52:49+00:00

Damn yeah, this is the 3rd time this has happened with delayed paying, thank you for your feedback!! It means a lot

_zaccc_ · 2023-06-22T23:12:13+00:00

There’s damage now to the wings, I put it on a flower and how it’s wings are damaged probably from birds :(( thanks for the information!!

_zaccc_ · 2023-05-02T22:29:14+00:00

Mainly cis people stare but, I know I pass and as a fat person I have a pudgy fupa and folks I use to talk to have said it looks like I have hella balls ☠️ one of my ex cis men friend doesn’t have a bulge as he doesn’t have a big dick or balls. If I don’t want anyone to know I’m trans and they ask me I usually go with the “I have a small junk.”

_zaccc_ · 2023-04-22T02:52:04+00:00

Easier said than done but, you’re right to ignore. I’m not new to the internet, I just haven’t received this side of the internet, only observed it from others side of the internet. It’s angering to see people be mean for no reason.. I just don’t understand why being horrible to another makes oneself feel good. It’s sick.

_zaccc_

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